They're not helping...

[JunkBondTrader]

No idea where to post this, but here goes:

Every time I leave that hospital I leave feeling worse than when I went in. I was referred to them under bad circumstances which makes it difficult to stop seeing them but so far, instead of recieving help, they've left me sad, impotent, scared and more depressed than I've ever been.

I've told them about the problems with the pills and they blame me for drinking, no matter how many times I tell them I've cut down. The fact is, I was better off with the alcohol. I could function during the day and sleep soundly at night and there were no referrals to stupid detox clinics that I don't even need.

I was never an alcoholic, and the fact that I quit with no assistance whatsoever surely proves that. Now, it would make sense to me if they could just admit that they are the ones making this worse.

I don't know what to do. I want to stop, but I'm not sure they'll let me.

[Fiction]

It was the same with me and councelling, in the end it just made me worse. I was discharged because they couldn't help me though.

If you're that desperate about leaving, then tell them that. It's worth a try right?

[georgiamay]

How long have you been there?

When I was referred to the hospital, I temporarily got worse. My therapist said it was actually pretty normal, and rather common. It was like, you go in, and you work out what all your problems are before you manage to fix them, and because of that, when you leave, your problems are staring you in the face.

Maybe you could ask to be moved somewhere else if you really don't like it?

And when you're taking psychiatric medication, you really shouldn't be drinking, that probably is why you're having problems with them. Plus, my pshyciatrist said that the first 2 weeks of medication makes you restless and anxious and even more depressed than you were before, but that's before it even starts to work.

If you haven't been there long, maybe just stick with it for a while, and try and let them help you. If after a while you think that it's seriously useless, then ask to be discharged.

[JunkBondTrader]

Thanks, you guys. I appreciate the input.

The problem is, I'm not entirely sure I'm even allowed to leave. It is an outpatient service but if I'm late for an appointment they call my mobile, if I don't pick up they call my landline, if I don't pick that up they come to my home and since my family know about none of this that's not something I want to happen. They're a crisis team.

And the thing that gets me is I'm actually not drinking. When they told me I had to stop I did and now whenever the slightest thing goes wrong they accuse me of being drunk or hungover. I had two pints of Carlsberg on Saturday night when my band played a show and that was the only thing I'd had all week.

As for the pills, I came off them this morning. I know, it was a stupid thing to do, but last night was so incredibly horrible I literally couldn't take another day on those things. I'm seeing them again tomorrow and I'll take this up with them.

Cheers, you guys. Sorry for the essay.