My Dream - Most Probably Triggering

[Keats]

Well the other night i had this dream, i know it's a dream...and yet.

What happened was, i met Jo (my ex) and something happened - you know how dreams are, i can't remember.
then i was in my room, with a razor and i cut my stomach - really badly, like a couple of cm.
then i put the blood on the walls, and wrote 'it's all for you'.
Then i got up, tied a noose and hanged myself in my room.

That was the dream.
but then, the night before last night, i did all that. except meeting Jo, and stepping off the chair.
it was scary, i couldn't tell the differance if i was dreaming or not. it felt like i could have done it so easily.
and since then, i've just felt...empty.
i don't know whats happening to me.

[anonymous53]

Is there something that happened with your Ex?
:hug:
if you ever need to talk about it just PM me.

[georgiamay]

Sounds very similar to the dreams I get. Mine get worse when I've gone a long time without cutting, I'll dream about seriously twisted things involving self harm and suicide, and a lot of the time it seems so real, that when I wake up I have to check myself and my room to make sure that I didn't actually just do that.

I think a lot of people can get dreams like that. Nothing's happening to you, I think it's pretty normal. I know they can be horrible, and pretty terrifying, but you need to remember that it's just a dream.

[FullyAlive]

As Georgia said it seems pretty normal a lot of people have wierd dreams like that, I do too. Although recently I've started sleeping with my iPod on I have a particular "sleep" playlist and I'll hear it as I go to sleep and sometimes in my dream and it just makes me calmer and idk kind of aware it's not real. I don't realize it's not a dream but I'm less scared by it after if that makes sense.

[Fiction]

I've done this before too.

I had a dream the night before I overdosed, in which I ended up in hospital. I ended up in hospital twice though, and it was after the second time I woke up and realised it was a dream.

This meant that after in real life I had ended up in hospital once, I had thoughts telling me if i could get myself in hospital a second time, i'd wake up and find it was all a dream.

Luckily I had people to keep me sane, but these types of thoughts and things do go after a while. :Hug: