forced bad mood?

[love is louder]

Ok so sometimes when I'm laid in bed and I can't sleep I get this need to cut that grows and grows till I have to get up and do it but I haven't got a reason to do it so I sit and I force my self to be in a bad mood so I'm in the right frame of mind to do it

Does anyone else get like this :S?

[Gravemind]

I get the same feeling sometimes, and I'm sure many others do as well. Usually when i lay down to sleep, my mind wanders and i inevitably start to have thoughts of cutting. Once it starts, it's hard to forget about it, which can make sleeping very difficult for me. I don't think I've ever "forced" myself into a bad mood though because of it. It's the idea of cutting that kind of automatically makes me in a bad mood.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

God I always do this, really weird, I thought I was the only one who does this. I stick those songs and just talk myself down. I know it's not clever, but it's what I do.

[Ambrosia]

Happens all the time.

[Fiction]

Sometimes I feel like this. Like if i'm too happy for too long I sort of feel... lost. Sometimes I have to cut in order to get rid of the lost feeling and bring me back down... if that's what you mean kinda.

[FullyAlive]

I think I do this too. If something makes me think of cutting or if I've been "too" happy that day. Then I sit and force myself to think about the things in my past that I know will make me cut. Or if I don't do that then I might search on the Internet there's a lot of triggering things on there :/

[georgiamay]

Yeah I get that sometimes. If I've gone a particularly long time without it, I start to get a bit scared for some reason. The idea of stopping scars me, so I end up forcing myself into a bad mood so I can cut "properly" if that makes any sense? I don't like saying there's a proper way to cut, but I didn't know how else to explain it.

[Love.Hate]

I get this quite alot.. normally after a really good "happy" day.
Dont worry its totally normal, and yes sometimes that urge is just too much to bare, but try and resist all you can, i tend to find if i lye there long enough then i will fall asleep. I guess it just takes time.

[love is louder]

I end up forcing myself into a bad mood so I can cut "properly"
yea its like i need to do it but if im not in the mood it doesnt have the same effect and it just leaves me feeling not right. which makes me feel worse and confused.
but atleast some of you kind of feel the same way.
thanks for clearing this up for me.