Hmmm

[Kaya]

I've tried two times to cut myself with a knife....it doesn't seem to do anything. Probably because I'm constantly worried about someone catching me..since I'm not technically cutting myself, is it still considered sh? I don't want to restart counting again...

[anonymous53]

You're trying to harm yourself, I'm not sure if it's considered SH, but the intention is there. Is there anyone you can talk to to help get rid of the urges?

[Indecision]

Yes, as said, your intention was to, but i'm not sure if it is self hharm. It's good that you're not, though. Try not to, please. For everyone?

[Kaya]

You're trying to harm yourself, I'm not sure if it's considered SH, but the intention is there. Is there anyone you can talk to to help get rid of the urges?

Only people on here...and people over the phone, but it's not the same as being able to talk to my family. I've been depressed lately and I won't wanna get out of bed so they just yell at me until I do while they gossip to each other about sending me back to public school. As if I really care. Theres only 19 days left..

[Kiss]

Technically, no, this doesn't count as self harm as you didn't really harm yourself in any way. If you're worried about anyone catching you, how about not doing anything at all? Get your mind off it. :)

[Kaya]

Technically, no, this doesn't count as self harm as you didn't really harm yourself in any way. If you're worried about anyone catching you, how about not doing anything at all? Get your mind off it. :)

I try not too..it's just too..hard.
I think using an eraser leaves too big of scars.

[anonymous53]

Only people on here...and people over the phone, but it's not the same as being able to talk to my family. I've been depressed lately and I won't wanna get out of bed so they just yell at me until I do while they gossip to each other about sending me back to public school. As if I really care. Theres only 19 days left..

Yeah, it's not the same, but I've never been able to talk to my family about it. Are you in a cyber school or something?

[Kaya]

yes.

[anonymous53]

Same here. Hopefully you don't need to go back to public school. Are there any friends near your house?

[Blujay]

Public school can be tough, but I think I'd get lonely if I went to school online. Do you ever wish you could be with actual people?

I started out cutting with a steak knife. I was nearly caught a few times, but every time someone walked in they just thought I was doing the dishes and didn't question it (I heard their footsteps and managed to roll down my sleeve and stick the knife under the sink before they came in). Eventually I switched to razors. What do you normally cut with?

It's best to not self harm at all, though. >:

[Kaya]

I only cut with things that don't leave deep cuts. So...different stuff.
I usually just use erasers, and pencils sometimes.

[Travis_123]

I understand that this can give you comfort in some way.. but i think it's important that you don't let it escalate.. make sure you don't get dependant on it. if you do: look for help or try doing it less and less till it stops.