Does This Count?

[Blujay]

I'm still within the healthy weight range, but I've recently cut back very harshly on my food intake. Within the last month I've lost over 20 pounds, and I plan to lose more.

It's actually hard for me to stay away from food. If I'm offered something that looks good or I see something tasty I'll have a few bites. Sometimes I even let myself go and eat an entire meal. But afterwards I always feel extremely guilty and vow not to eat for another 2 days to make up for it. I weigh myself constantly. I'm losing it, but it feels like a slow process. Sometimes I'll even pick up a few pounds.

Usually I can't measure calories because I'm too lazy to look them up, but if I feel like I HAVE to have a snack for the day I'll check to make sure there are less than 100 calories. At a guess I'd say my calorie intake for a typical day (meaning the ones I dont have real meals on) is about 500, maybe less.

I don't really have a problem with self-image. I don't care if I look fat or skinny. (or that's what I tell myself) Eating makes me feel good for a few minutes, but afterwards I feel guilty and depressed for hours, if not days.

I thought about getting better. I actually ate a whole lunch and dinner one day. But then I broke down, I couldn't keep doing it, I felt so awful.

Is this a real problem? How much of an issue do I have?

[Fiction]

500 calories a day is not healthy at all. You definately have a problem. How long did it take you to lose that 20 pounds? Because that is really drastic weight loss that should have taken you months and months.

You should really try and get some help for this, because the earlier you get help, the higher your chances of getting better.

Starving yourself will not make you lose weight in the long run, you're body will go into starvation mode and you will feel tired and dizzy all the time, and not lose weight.

Feel free to contact me if you want to talk.

[Blujay]

It probably took me...a month, maybe a month and a half. I wasn't really keeping track of the days. I still have a healthy BMI but I'm in a low percentile. (If that's what you call it) I used to be 135 and am now 114.6

And I already feel tired all the time. ):

I don't know who I'd ask for help. My family already spends a great deal of our income on medical bills and I can not be a burden to them. I'm worried that if I start eating again, I'll lose a coping mechanism and break down (which is another thing that I cannot allow to happen).

[Fiction]

That's not a healthy time to lose that much weight, regardless of whether you still weigh a healthy weight or not.

Is there someone at school you could ask for help? I managed to get better with the help of my boyfriend, or at least i've been free of starving myself for almost 3 months now. There's plenty of people on this site who would be willing to help you to get better, although it's not the advised way.

As for losing a coping mechanism, you just need to find something else. This could be reading, writing, drawing or anything really :)

Feel free to contact me if you want to talk.