beag_amhain
May 3rd, 2011, 11:12 AM
please move this if it is in the wrong section? not sure were it should go >.<
ok, when i was five my 'nana' passed away, she was my great granny, n i was extremely close to her, after she passed for about two years i would believe i was seeing her, dream about her and hold conversations with her in my sleep, if she didnt 'appear'? to me in my sleep i would punch and slap myself and run into walls, but i was still unconcious, my parents could never wake me up, only my brother could, in the last few months, since like last october or november this has been happening again, except i just harm myself, il hit my head of walls, scrape my skin untill it bleeds n do anything to hurt myself, but again i am fast asleep n never remember what i have done, my parents just ignore it but my brother has spent many nights in with me stopping me and has ended up sleeping in the bed beside me sometimes, i have found that when i get drunk they do not happen n it use to be if someone was sleeping in the bed beside me they would not happen either but a few recent sleepovers at my friends hasproved that not to be the case, i seriously freaked her out =[ n i didn even know, which is the worse, i have never actually told anyone, she found out n my parents thought it was over n my brother is the biggest help i have cuz he seems to be the only i listen to, but i plan on moving away next year for college n im scared to cuz il b sharing a room if i do, i dont want everyone to know what a freak i am
i was just wondering is there anyone else out there that this also happens to? n how should i deal with it..?
any help/advice would be GREATLY appreciated =]
ok, when i was five my 'nana' passed away, she was my great granny, n i was extremely close to her, after she passed for about two years i would believe i was seeing her, dream about her and hold conversations with her in my sleep, if she didnt 'appear'? to me in my sleep i would punch and slap myself and run into walls, but i was still unconcious, my parents could never wake me up, only my brother could, in the last few months, since like last october or november this has been happening again, except i just harm myself, il hit my head of walls, scrape my skin untill it bleeds n do anything to hurt myself, but again i am fast asleep n never remember what i have done, my parents just ignore it but my brother has spent many nights in with me stopping me and has ended up sleeping in the bed beside me sometimes, i have found that when i get drunk they do not happen n it use to be if someone was sleeping in the bed beside me they would not happen either but a few recent sleepovers at my friends hasproved that not to be the case, i seriously freaked her out =[ n i didn even know, which is the worse, i have never actually told anyone, she found out n my parents thought it was over n my brother is the biggest help i have cuz he seems to be the only i listen to, but i plan on moving away next year for college n im scared to cuz il b sharing a room if i do, i dont want everyone to know what a freak i am
i was just wondering is there anyone else out there that this also happens to? n how should i deal with it..?
any help/advice would be GREATLY appreciated =]