justalovestruckteen
May 3rd, 2011, 04:49 AM
So theres this boy in my English class, and last year he has been flirting with me. (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=83846) I dropped a few hints (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=84495) , and in one of them I found out something. (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=84886)
So now about a few months has passed (since I posted an update, the last one was in October). I felt myself slowly growing more feelings for him each day. To be honest, I was afraid to ask him out and tell him straight out I like him. I even kept it a secret from my friends, and I pretend to like this other guy in class. He (real crush) seemed to ignore any comments I say about him (pretend crush), and the teacher just ignores it too.
I say we became friends. He knows that I exist and we do talk to each other about class. He even is a bit more advance than me in the subject. (although I get 100's in the class. He seems to be flying through it.) I even tried to hint more by writing love poems to him and asking for his opinion, because he is a great writer too. He says it's great, well most of my friends say my poem is ok.
I'm pretty sure he's still single by the way.
So today, some random guy was staring at him. And he randomly said "Are you staring at me?" Although I stare at him all the time, he seemed to either ignore me or not noticed. Or probably he likes it.
Anyways I just randomly blurted out, being the random girl I was. "He probably has a crush on you" I was answered with howls of laugthers.
But surprisingly, the other boy said. "W...Don't blame me, You are just so sexy." I could'nt tell if he meant it as a joke. But he sounded so serious. And I know this guy, he would say stuff but in like a fake voice. This time I was unsure.
So my crush answered. "Welll... I couldn't help it that I'm so good looking."
"Ohhhh!!!" went around the classroom. I was about to agree with him, but I forced myself against it, as nobody knows I like him.
It sure makes me wonder where Or Who was the teacher at that time.
I still wonder if he is gay or possibly have feelings for that boy. I mean so far, he doesn't seemed to hang out with his friends that are female (me being me, I try to act like I don't like him by just letting him be. Of course he is a bit busy in clubs during lunch...). He's always around boys. Single boys And there are times when boys say. "I love you.." He always says it back, but he blushes and I couldn't tell if he meant it in the lovey-love way or friend way. Of course the rest of our class complemented on the blush. I sometimes wish I could have been brave to just tell him. (where the teacher? Absent with a sub again?)
But than again, another guy asked his sexual orientation. That was before he talked about a past gf. He never answered it exactly but he just said. "What do you think?"
I think he's gay. Or I'm thinking he might be gay. I mean a guy that good doesn't have a girl friend yet?
And back to the subject about my feelings for him. I know it's been a long time since I posted and I got close to telling him. He seemed to have some time to think about it. Finally after about 5-6 months, I finally decided to tell him straight out, instead of just making poems as a hint.
In fact there was this one time, I showed him my poem about the sky. He actually flipped over the notebook and looked at the poem on another page, which was a love poem. He asked me what did the third word say. (cause my hand writing was bad... hey wait! He is the only person after my english teacher who understands my hand writing! I just realize it now The title was. "Love Is You." by the way)
Anyways, I finally decided to tell him straight out. I have a plan of what to say. I'm pretty tired of obeseing over him, (like posting about him when I should be doing my math homework, but than again that's normal for me to procrastinate.) when it'll not be getting me anywhere. The end of the school year about 7-8 weeks away, I planed to tell him on the last day, so I could leave the class we have together in peace. (I think our counselors mention today he'll skip a grade since he's smart)
But instead, I noticed I'm getting insanely obsese. Like today, we had a field trip to see a movie, I was upset he was unable to go. I borrowed a book that reminds me of him ans hold it close beside me during the movie.
I was so happy I was able to see him in class today, I was so happy the movie ended early. I raced my best girl pal to class just so I could see him.
I think I should tell him. And I will. I'm afraid I'll scare myself out of it. But I'll force myself. "It's not healthy to be obeseing over a person, when something more could happen."
If he doesn't like me, I'm fine with that. I just need to know for sure. and I'll let him go if he doesn't like me.
:) A long post huh?
So now about a few months has passed (since I posted an update, the last one was in October). I felt myself slowly growing more feelings for him each day. To be honest, I was afraid to ask him out and tell him straight out I like him. I even kept it a secret from my friends, and I pretend to like this other guy in class. He (real crush) seemed to ignore any comments I say about him (pretend crush), and the teacher just ignores it too.
I say we became friends. He knows that I exist and we do talk to each other about class. He even is a bit more advance than me in the subject. (although I get 100's in the class. He seems to be flying through it.) I even tried to hint more by writing love poems to him and asking for his opinion, because he is a great writer too. He says it's great, well most of my friends say my poem is ok.
I'm pretty sure he's still single by the way.
So today, some random guy was staring at him. And he randomly said "Are you staring at me?" Although I stare at him all the time, he seemed to either ignore me or not noticed. Or probably he likes it.
Anyways I just randomly blurted out, being the random girl I was. "He probably has a crush on you" I was answered with howls of laugthers.
But surprisingly, the other boy said. "W...Don't blame me, You are just so sexy." I could'nt tell if he meant it as a joke. But he sounded so serious. And I know this guy, he would say stuff but in like a fake voice. This time I was unsure.
So my crush answered. "Welll... I couldn't help it that I'm so good looking."
"Ohhhh!!!" went around the classroom. I was about to agree with him, but I forced myself against it, as nobody knows I like him.
It sure makes me wonder where Or Who was the teacher at that time.
I still wonder if he is gay or possibly have feelings for that boy. I mean so far, he doesn't seemed to hang out with his friends that are female (me being me, I try to act like I don't like him by just letting him be. Of course he is a bit busy in clubs during lunch...). He's always around boys. Single boys And there are times when boys say. "I love you.." He always says it back, but he blushes and I couldn't tell if he meant it in the lovey-love way or friend way. Of course the rest of our class complemented on the blush. I sometimes wish I could have been brave to just tell him. (where the teacher? Absent with a sub again?)
But than again, another guy asked his sexual orientation. That was before he talked about a past gf. He never answered it exactly but he just said. "What do you think?"
I think he's gay. Or I'm thinking he might be gay. I mean a guy that good doesn't have a girl friend yet?
And back to the subject about my feelings for him. I know it's been a long time since I posted and I got close to telling him. He seemed to have some time to think about it. Finally after about 5-6 months, I finally decided to tell him straight out, instead of just making poems as a hint.
In fact there was this one time, I showed him my poem about the sky. He actually flipped over the notebook and looked at the poem on another page, which was a love poem. He asked me what did the third word say. (cause my hand writing was bad... hey wait! He is the only person after my english teacher who understands my hand writing! I just realize it now The title was. "Love Is You." by the way)
Anyways, I finally decided to tell him straight out. I have a plan of what to say. I'm pretty tired of obeseing over him, (like posting about him when I should be doing my math homework, but than again that's normal for me to procrastinate.) when it'll not be getting me anywhere. The end of the school year about 7-8 weeks away, I planed to tell him on the last day, so I could leave the class we have together in peace. (I think our counselors mention today he'll skip a grade since he's smart)
But instead, I noticed I'm getting insanely obsese. Like today, we had a field trip to see a movie, I was upset he was unable to go. I borrowed a book that reminds me of him ans hold it close beside me during the movie.
I was so happy I was able to see him in class today, I was so happy the movie ended early. I raced my best girl pal to class just so I could see him.
I think I should tell him. And I will. I'm afraid I'll scare myself out of it. But I'll force myself. "It's not healthy to be obeseing over a person, when something more could happen."
If he doesn't like me, I'm fine with that. I just need to know for sure. and I'll let him go if he doesn't like me.
:) A long post huh?