notactive
May 2nd, 2011, 04:44 PM
I'm having a really hard time just now. Suicide and Self harm are all but consuming my thoughts. The only thing that keeps me from acting is my fiancee. Without him I would not be here. I wrote this poem to sort of describe what's going on in my head just now. Thought some of you might be able to relate.
My hearts feels like it is going to explode inside my chest.
My mind races.
Runaway to the children's swing park. Swing your sadness away.
Jump off the bridge. It will all go away.
Take the pills. No more pain.
But I see his face and I hear his voice.
In the darkness, he is my light.
The flicker of his face in my mind stays my hand.
I do not jump. I do not runaway.
For as long as he is here, I will stay.
To love and be loved is the only thing.
To trust and be trusted and to feel like you are not alone
But one half of a whole.
Swing. Swing. Swing.
My hearts feels like it is going to explode inside my chest.
My mind races.
Runaway to the children's swing park. Swing your sadness away.
Jump off the bridge. It will all go away.
Take the pills. No more pain.
But I see his face and I hear his voice.
In the darkness, he is my light.
The flicker of his face in my mind stays my hand.
I do not jump. I do not runaway.
For as long as he is here, I will stay.
To love and be loved is the only thing.
To trust and be trusted and to feel like you are not alone
But one half of a whole.
Swing. Swing. Swing.