Oh. I'm back.

[Magenta]

It hasn't even been a month but it's felt like so much longer. Everything feels long. I had made the decision to leave because I believed my association with all of... this... was triggering. I do not mean that in an offensive way. I just thought that if I distanced myself, I'd be okay again.

Boy, was I wrong.

I'm scared to be alone now. I haven't stopped cutting and don't plan to because it's the only thing RIGHT for me at the moment but I can't be alone anymore.

[moon_lit_angel]

JoJo would you like to tell us more about what made you self harm during your absence of VT.
I myself sometimes feel that VT is triggering...

[adudewhodoesdudes]

Welcome Back,
I thought the same thing two weeks ago and for a bit it worked but now I am lucky if i get a day where i don't think about how much I want to cut myself. I only didn't do it because I had nothing sharp enough.
Sorry for completely stealing this and relating it back to me >.<

I am here to attempt to try and help but I am much better at listening and not dishing out my terrible advice. So if you want to talk to someone I am happy to listen.

[love is louder]

i think most people find it triggering myself included. its kind of like being around people that do it but VT makes me feel safer like im not alone and theres people out there the same as me which comforts me a lot more than trying to go alone

welcome back by the way.

[Syvelocin]

Jo! :D YAY!

I personally don't have trigger issues with VT, but do see how that could be. If anything, I want to cut less when I'm on VT. When I'm not on VT, it's just myself, no one to disappoint, so I'm more likely to cut. I want to be able to keep reporting to VT when I reach another milestone, so when I'm on VT, I just worry that if I cut, I'll disappoint someone.

Honestly though, if you can get over that, VT is such a nice resource. I'm glad you're back for that reason. VT can be very beneficial; I know it has been for me. And certainly it has for many others. Because here, you don't have to go it alone, and you have people right here who are in a similar place, or have been in a similar place, able to give you advice, unlike most therapists who really don't know what it's like to self-harm and such.

Welcome back anyway :)