live like you love...?

[beag_amhain]

''live like you love'' thats the 'saying'? i try to live my life by, but lately it seems impossible, i always said it would be the one thing i would try live my life by cuz when i was in love i didn harm, i was happy, i smiled and laughed everday and my thoughts were 'bright'?, i always said that that is how i want to live, but it is now impossible, i give up completely, i just want to embrace who i am and see how i turn out, i know some of my friends will go, but it will be their choice, if they were really my friends they would accept me how i am, so f**k it, im jus gonna be me no matter how bad it is,yeah i know im gonna regret this soon, and this new 'self-empowerment' BS is going to go out the window, but il see how it goes, im not gonna even last 24 hours but i think il try, now to embrace everything in my head =/

[sarah newman]

Lifes a bitch, right?
Well all you can do is live life and see where it leads you.
You will make new friends, if your current friends don't accept you for who you are they obviously aren't true friends.
Message me if you wanna talk :)

[beag_amhain]

life is a total BITCH
im hoping it will all turn out ok
yeah i just hope thats true

[sarah newman]

Everything turns out okay in the end :)

[beag_amhain]

again thats what i hope happens

[Nevermore]

The problems in our life make us who we are, make us stronger. You wouldn't be here today as you are unless you've gone through something. Everyone has some sort of a problem, however it's the way they cope. Everyone's issue is different, everyone takes it differently. I had one friend who reacted to an arguement rather horrible and that was apparently the only thing going on in her life. Everything happens for a reason in the end. And things do get better. You're not alone. Self harm never resolves anything in the end. Makes things worse if you look at it. Now I have no clue what is going on in your life, nor am I going to pretend that I do know. However it's your choice what you do with it. Try changing your preception on life a bit. Things could be worse. Think about all the good things you have. Even the small stupid things like a funny memory or something. I can say this is making me the world's greatest hypocrite because I'm a huge pessimist, but in the end that's my choice isn't it? I could change it, I could try, but in the end I give up. Who's fault is that? Mine. I'm not going drill it into your head what happens when you self harm, you know, I know, everyone knows. It makes you anxious, now you have to hide it from the world, your now craving it more frequently. Well the cycle can stop if you don't do it. Obviously easier said then done, but distract yourself with things you love. However, I'm not saying well if you do this, this and this you'll have a smile on your face in no time flat. It's hard, you're going to have to work at it. And it probably won't take just the things I listed, but will make life perhaps a bit easier to cope with, who knows. I suggest seeing a counsler or someone to talk about the self harm and the low self esteem. Try saying nice things about yourself everyday (even if it's a lie). It might help, and it's worth giving it a try. I hope I was able to help a little bit. Message me anytime I'm here for you. <3