snowbab
May 1st, 2011, 12:38 AM
Hey guys my first post here. Basically I was wondering if any of you in recovery from anorexia or any eating disorder ever restrict on days when you know you'll be having alcohol that night?
I did this yesterday which I know is a bad thing to do while in recovery but if I don't I just feel guilty :S It got a bit out of control ai started yelling at my poor mum when she told me i wasn't eating enough-i was still eating just not as much, you know?-and I was in a depressed mood all day because of what I was doing and kept crying and ana kept creeping in and saying how ugly i looked and why don't i just stop eating all together if i'm going to restrict? Not going to happen again ana!
As you can tell I was already having problems with my body image too which didn't help, and i was therefore nervous about going to the party in case the people there judged me and how I looked. Hence i felt the need for the alcohol which i usually just avoid. And ideas on how to reduce these feelings about bad body image and getting anxious around people you don't/barely know?
I did this yesterday which I know is a bad thing to do while in recovery but if I don't I just feel guilty :S It got a bit out of control ai started yelling at my poor mum when she told me i wasn't eating enough-i was still eating just not as much, you know?-and I was in a depressed mood all day because of what I was doing and kept crying and ana kept creeping in and saying how ugly i looked and why don't i just stop eating all together if i'm going to restrict? Not going to happen again ana!
As you can tell I was already having problems with my body image too which didn't help, and i was therefore nervous about going to the party in case the people there judged me and how I looked. Hence i felt the need for the alcohol which i usually just avoid. And ideas on how to reduce these feelings about bad body image and getting anxious around people you don't/barely know?