The truth.

[ashleighhxbby]

When I was little, I was *deep breath...
Molested.
THERE. I said it.
I've never told anyone..other than my mom. And the counselor. But I want you all to know that it's not going to haunt me anymore. I'm breaking freeeeee.

I don't forgive the man who did it yet, but I'm getting there.
*sigh of relief.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Admitting something like this takes serious strength Ashleigh. It's a good thing to try and not let it haunt you, and forgiveness of a sick crime like that isn't easy either. goodluck :)

[JackShephard]

I was molested when I was 4. I haven't told a soul but my best friend. I was using the bathroom and my babysitter's husband came in to "help" me. It's very disturbing for me to even think about it and now I constantly have trust issues with adults. I have these hypothetical situations in my brain that usually involve someone backing me into a corner and it's hard for me to have sex sometimes even though I want to. He gave me such a trust/sex complex and if I saw him again, I'd fuckin punch him repeatedly in the face. Then I'd forgive him, not for his sake, but mine.

Basically I'm telling you that, yeah it sucks and it is going to follow you weather you let it haunt you or not. But forgiving is for you, not the abuser. It's to set YOU free. I'm glad to hear your letting it go. I'm still having trouble with that but I'm working on it. If it comes back and hits you in the face, just don't let it define who you are. I'm not trying to tell you what to do or anything. It's up to you, but forgiveness will help you let it go. I've had to forgive people for very heinous ethical crimes and I feel better about it afterwards.

Props to you for coming out on here. You've taken a good step.

[Quick_Sylver]

:hug:

One of the hardest things to do when it comes to that knowledge, is saying the word. If you want to talk to me, feel free to VM me, whenever. But know this, you're extremely strong for telling people. Forgiveness doesn't come easily, ever. The fact that you're working towards it.. That's amazing. Good luck hun.

[ashleighhxbby]

Thanks guys. It seriously has affected me. I originally came onto this site for the self harm forum. I'm working on that also. He won't control me anymore. I'm praying for all those in similar situations to mine. I've felt so relieved when I realized I wasn't the only one who went through this. Thank God for all the people on here. Y'all seriously give me hope.