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April 30th, 2011, 07:10 PM
......Okay, so lets play through from the very beginning. My mom and dad divorced when I was merely a child. Court (as always) gave me to my mom (the mother) and shes a Christian. Heres where Christianity brings me over the edge. Most Christians believe the child must obey the parent or it's sinning. My mom has become a control freak since as a child I bought into that and listened. So, recently I decided to take a stand.
......She had her boyfriends kid over and he was being an annoying brat. He was making annoying noises with the gum (which i gave him). So I took him to the bathroom and told him to spit it out. As all Five year olds, he refused to spit it out.
......Heres the angering part everybody. She told me to say sorry. I refused since that would be lying. I also thought he didn't deserve the satisfaction of winning my acknowledgement. So little miss dictator mom decided to take my phone. It was in my room so I put my arm in the door. she tried to go under so as a reaction I guess, as I am told, grabbed hard (shes fat so it hurt all night, heh). So she yelled and her face turned red. I was too angry to listen so when she chilled...not red... I heard her yell "I will call mark and he will beat your face in" (marks a cop) So she denied me dinner and tried to send me to bed. Go figure mark was busy (didn't know that until today). So I took a bath despite her demands (We all do strange things in stress) and emptied out all the soap. I drained it what felt like ten minutes later. Sat with her yelling at me to go to bed every half hour until ten-o-clock (normal bed time) waited another hour until eleven. At that point I took a shower because I was so greasy. Then, I went out, turned the lights on, and she got mad (I was getting food and got some anyways) So this morning I was expecting her normal apology and, bam, back to normal. Way off. She was just more stubborn saying stuff like "I took your phone for good reason" heh all I did was avoid lying by not saying sorry.
......Since she stole my phone (she knows this) I cant meet with my group on a huge history project due next Friday (yes, this Saturday is the only day we three can meet) Now thanks to her ignorance, I'm screwed. I stole her ring from the divorce and hid it as a sign of rebellion. She doesn't know... yet... And that brings us up to date. I don't know how I will go about this
......Theres the main story. I felt I needed help because its gone downhill since then. We have been fighting, arguing, and yelling. I just fell into depression and don't know where to turn. Now I have begun having thoughts such as: cutting myself, shooting her, poisoning her, drowning myself, you would never guess we ever got along. I also just feel like she took advantage of the so called religion "Christianity" to control me because its "a sin to disobey your parents." I don't know what to do, these thoughts, what to believe, and no matter what I do I cant bring myself to trust her. I can't stand going to church tomorrow or school on Monday. I just want to lock myself in my room.
......She had her boyfriends kid over and he was being an annoying brat. He was making annoying noises with the gum (which i gave him). So I took him to the bathroom and told him to spit it out. As all Five year olds, he refused to spit it out.
......Heres the angering part everybody. She told me to say sorry. I refused since that would be lying. I also thought he didn't deserve the satisfaction of winning my acknowledgement. So little miss dictator mom decided to take my phone. It was in my room so I put my arm in the door. she tried to go under so as a reaction I guess, as I am told, grabbed hard (shes fat so it hurt all night, heh). So she yelled and her face turned red. I was too angry to listen so when she chilled...not red... I heard her yell "I will call mark and he will beat your face in" (marks a cop) So she denied me dinner and tried to send me to bed. Go figure mark was busy (didn't know that until today). So I took a bath despite her demands (We all do strange things in stress) and emptied out all the soap. I drained it what felt like ten minutes later. Sat with her yelling at me to go to bed every half hour until ten-o-clock (normal bed time) waited another hour until eleven. At that point I took a shower because I was so greasy. Then, I went out, turned the lights on, and she got mad (I was getting food and got some anyways) So this morning I was expecting her normal apology and, bam, back to normal. Way off. She was just more stubborn saying stuff like "I took your phone for good reason" heh all I did was avoid lying by not saying sorry.
......Since she stole my phone (she knows this) I cant meet with my group on a huge history project due next Friday (yes, this Saturday is the only day we three can meet) Now thanks to her ignorance, I'm screwed. I stole her ring from the divorce and hid it as a sign of rebellion. She doesn't know... yet... And that brings us up to date. I don't know how I will go about this
......Theres the main story. I felt I needed help because its gone downhill since then. We have been fighting, arguing, and yelling. I just fell into depression and don't know where to turn. Now I have begun having thoughts such as: cutting myself, shooting her, poisoning her, drowning myself, you would never guess we ever got along. I also just feel like she took advantage of the so called religion "Christianity" to control me because its "a sin to disobey your parents." I don't know what to do, these thoughts, what to believe, and no matter what I do I cant bring myself to trust her. I can't stand going to church tomorrow or school on Monday. I just want to lock myself in my room.