Need help :/

[Travis Is Losing It]

So to throw in a history lesson i went to the same elementary school from kindergarden to 8th grade and was always called the kid who would shoot up the school... i was always with the same 20 students the entire way. In 7th grade i started cutting, this was just like small little nicks and stuff nothing deep at all. 8th grade came and they would last for two or three weeks then heal... now as a senior i have 18 words/names carved into my body. I no longer have a family to fall back on cause they kicked me out on valentines day and can't even afford a therapist and have nowhere to really get help :/

[sarah newman]

This must have taken you a lot of courage to write this. I'm sorry you feel like you can't get help, but you can. Go speak to a doctor, a friend, a counseller, anyone you trust. It will be harder as you don't have a family to full back on, but are you sure you can't go back to them and ask for help?
You have taken the first step by writing this, now go a bit further and try and find someone to talk to.
Sometimes talking on the net is easier, I know it's easier for me, but it is very rare to find someone who prefers speaking on the net and it is preferred if you can talk to someone you trust.
I'm always here if you wanna talk, good luck with whatever you decide.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Thanks, but no my folks basicly hate me cause ive hated them since i was adopted... they couldn't wait for the day i turned 18 to kick me out but i found as many law loopholes as i could to stay till i could get a job and find a place... And I know go to a giant highschool with 8,210 students and i'm worried if i tell anyone that they will go and tell the whole school :/.. We even have an open campus (8 buildings) and im in clothing that covers almost every inch of me to hide it all on my neck wrists legs fingers so its really hot and i dont need more people giving me crap :/

[sarah newman]

Well try and see a counsellor or a school counsellor, it's highly confidential so they won't be spreading it around.
Try not to cut yourself, it's best not to. Try and find a hobby to do hun, you can do without it.

[Travis Is Losing It]

I draw alot which is the only reason I'm not right now.

[sarah newman]

Well if that makes you happy, carry on doing that.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Just got two drawings done actually
dont know how to host them though x.x

[sarah newman]

What do you mean host? x

[Travis Is Losing It]

like put them up in a post

[sarah newman]

Aww awesome, do that :)

[Travis Is Losing It]

I did in the art section

[sarah newman]

I'll have a look now x

[Travis Is Losing It]

ok :/ there not that good in my opinion but ya it kept me from cutting again so thats whats good

[sarah newman]

Exactly :)

[Travis Is Losing It]

But now im out of inspiration to draw so now i have nothing to distract me anymore :/

[sarah newman]

Well, go out for a run? Do something that you love doing :)

[blacksilverandgold]

You should try and talk to anyone, a trusted friend, counselor, anyone you trust, and are close with.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Thanks guys :) glad to see there are actually people in the world that actually care