What's depressing you today?

[Djentleman]

The realisation that no one in this entire world wants me around, in company or alive.

[Stronger]

I've got a headacke and just feeling a bit lonely.

[BassSwagg]

I wanted to kill myself last night, My mom called the crisis line and set up an emergency appt. they sent me home "hopeing" i would be fine after i told them i wanted to kill myself, this has happend befor....

[project_icarus]

Psychiatrist is seriously considering putting me back in 4H (psych ward at the city childrens hospital) and asking me how I feel about being back in 4H.

[Hypers]

Dad screamed at me.. Don't know what I did wrong

[Rayquaza]

Family

[Desuetude]

Finding out that one of the boys I hate in my year is going to the same activity club as me.
Thing is I've always found this such a good place to be where I can just be anyone I want, be confident where no one knows me and now... it will be another place full of bad memories of me being made fun of.

[Princess Ariel]

My mum. Making me do something that I don't want to do..
Also knowing that my gym teacher now knows about my depression, and self harm. Not only is it a relief, I now know that'll never get look at the same again.

[XxfakexX]

The fact i keep loosing my temper with everything and finding out my parents are lying to me again after saying everything was going to be okay.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Knowing that this lack of sleep could kill me. And not being able to tell anyone about it. Oh well, does anyone know the record for staying awake the longest is? 264 hours or 11 days.

[TaylrJ]

Liking someone, that is the same gender as you (guy).. He never talks to me and I don't know what his sexuality is at all, or if he likes me back. What's worse is that he will move far away soon. This is my depression everyday.

[Iron Man]

I really thought I was over her. Why did I allow all of this to happen?

[Stronger]

Same old, same old...being lonely, bored, in love, etc

[Aquila]

Ugh. Things with her are finally looking up, but Im still not okay. Everyone else flirts or hangs out with friends, but not me, I never have. Im alone everyday, and im afraid im missing out on an important part of my life. Im lonely, and i may always be lonely. :(

[Mortal Coil]

being locked up because the medicine I'm about to go on may or may not have side effects :(

[rayraywa]

My Parents

[project_icarus]

There's one thing holding me back. One thing.
I can't fucking stand to be around my mother.
If my mother doesn't take her anger out on me, she'll take her anger and hatred of me out on my sister.

[Mirage]

I'm sick and tired of school. I don't want to go back ever again.

[project_icarus]

losing my fucking work. :@

[Mortal Coil]

hospital food. That's what's depressing me.
And not being able to cut :(

[Hypers]

Almost failed math...

[Princess Ariel]

It's a long weekend.

[project_icarus]

And not being able to cut :(
Alex, you know that you just have to keep strong, and not cutting, I know it makes things hard, but it really is a good thing, please stay strong.

Dumb fucks next door called the cops for a noise complaint as I tried to mask the screaming of my sister being beaten with music, I'm stupid.

[Desuetude]

My dad coming in and saying how "Your obsession with the computer is more than just an obsession." What the fuck do you know?
Oh and then telling me he is switching off the wireless
Thing is. He doesn't know anything about how much I need this and he doesn't even know what this is.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Still a week of holidays left. Eating and sleeping are turning into a twisted chore.

[Mortal Coil]

I can only charge my laptop when my mother is around.
I hate my mother. I need my laptop.
It's a fucking Hobson's choice.

[Stronger]

Watching Titanic...'nuff said

[Carlyle]

realizing break is half way over. I'm not ready to go back to school, testing is in the next couple weeks and my teachers are pushing me to improve.. My scores from last year were great, but I could do better and I have to. Just the pressure to improve myself. school ends in approximately 2 months and I'm getting tired of this.. How will I ever make it through high school if this is how I feel now?

[SolarSolexis]

The fact that my birthday is today and it's going to be sheer misery.

[project_icarus]

This quote
Always look on the bright side of death! Life's a piece of shit, when you look at it.

[Fractured Silhouette]

I tried calling the kids helpline again. I actually made it to when someone said 'hello'. Then I tried to say something but couldn't. I'm such a freaking loser.

[Princess Ariel]

I have to go out with my aunt lyne,
she triggers me, and I have to make it look like it's not bothering me.

[Erasmus]

That last night my aunt walked out on us, not really sure why, I think something
my mom said, but no one's mad at her, which is good.

[Mortal Coil]

My vertigo and my parents.

[project_icarus]

My mother, my sister, and the fact I'm going to see my father today (it's midnight) which I really don't want to do, and I'll probably be too tired anyway.

[Mirage]

Have to go somewhere I don't want to go later. Call me selfish, but I REALLY don't want to go. At least they have an epic dog.

[Carly011]

Life in general. I just feel like a loser. I feel like there is nothing worth living for and that no one will care if im gone... I just hate life so much and i hate myself. ugh.

[Carlyle]

Getting my hopes up. Someone getting something handed to them after such a short time, but I've been trying to get the same thing for ages now.. I give up, why even bother?

[Mortal Coil]

Stupid drugs fucking with my brain.

[Stronger]

I feel like a horrible grandson that I haven't called my sick grandma, wtf am I so occupid that I can't even pick up the phone -.-

[Princess Ariel]

It's Easter.

[Smeagol]

Only the usual, chemical imbalances.

[project_icarus]

Got a text from my sister...
"Fuck you. Fucking bitch. I hate you."
Not to mention everything else.

[Kiss]

no one wants to talk to me, i'm too annoying.

[project_icarus]

a call to her will be $6 p/min. Fuck international call rates.

[Bath]

Probably won't talk to Brian much because he's a busy motherfucker.

Also, school tomorrow, fun fun. :/

[Erasmus]

That I have to leave tomorrow. :(

[Amlykax3]

I told my mom i need professional help with cutting...she told me this "phase" will pass..i cant waste time or money on that.

Im never going to get better....i feel alone..

[project_icarus]

Third night, no sleep, yay. And the rest of my bullshit.

[Magenta]

If I dissociate one more time today, I may just lose it. I've been floating in and out all day to the point I'm so disoriented I'm not going to be able to tell sleep from waking.

[Mortal Coil]

fucking drama rehearsals, my lack of willpower and the amount of evil in the world, just generally.

[Skeptical Bear]

My bestfriend still isn't really talking to me after getting his new mic for Xbox. He calls me hours after just to stay on the phone and not say anything while I listen to him talk to his friends over the mic. Then he legit calls to talk when he's done playing or everyone got offline. It's kinda getting me mad and I'm trying go be optimistic on this but it isn't working.

[project_icarus]

my optimism fails. People's comments hurt even when they're not meant to.

[Stronger]

Saw my Nanny today, shes not looking well at all, she's not eating, she looks sad, it's becoming more difficult for me too see her their in pain, but I'll never stop going, any chance I get, I'm going to see her, I just wish her health would get better, but she's a strong woman, so I know she will. <3 Love you Nanny

[Skeptical Bear]

The effort I put into it and he still talks to me like I'm some piece of shit. It honestly gives me the feeling to hurt my self. He left such a big place in my heart that I can't just cut him out of my life.

[project_icarus]

Can't get through to her*.

* More than one**.

a) Can't get through to her being a friend who I'm trying to call; the other being
b) She just won't notice me.

[Erasmus]

That I have to leave...

[Princess Ariel]

I'm going out with a friend today, and she's going to be asking me several questions, and constantly hugging me, telling me she loves me etc.

I'm also getting ignored by who I thought was my best friend, guess she has better things to do then reply to me saying either Yes, or No. It'll only take a second, but she cant even take a second out of her live to say yes or no..
I'm going to be giving her hell in french tomorrow, and I really don't care if I lose her as a friend, she's a bitchy, ignorant bitch.

[Magenta]

I give myself about 24 hours before I just have a full breakdown because no one can help me even myself.

[Princess Ariel]

Waking up..

[Mortal Coil]

my mother.

[Erasmus]

Being able to go home...

[Princess Ariel]

Throwing up during science today, stomach didn't feel good in third too.

Mum is almost home, and my high hasn't worn off yet... greeaat.

[MaximumR]

My crush flirting with other people. It just...crushed me

[Amlykax3]

I dont know what to do about...everything...

[Magenta]

So fucking sick right now and I'm petrified of throwing up.

[xDarkAngelx]

I'm tired of everything and not knowing what to do.

[Erasmus]

that he won't listen to me...

[Stronger]

Tired of these pointless feelings of love and jealously

[Fourth Dimension]

the fact that im moving today and leaving my friends......Again

[Mortal Coil]

Some asshole from my school, that's all.
Stupid, I know.

[Fiction]

This world makes me tired. When i'm not being attacked mentally by my own mind, i'm being attacked physically by my own body.

But this is better than being attacked by my own mind any day :)

[Princess Ariel]

Everything hurts, and I have the worst hangover i've ever gotten.. BLLLAAAH.

[Hypers]

14 pages of homework due tomorrow...

[Djentleman]

Work, people at work, myself and not being at home.

[project_icarus]

Feeling so numb.
Friend's dad doesn't realise what kind of an impact he's having on her.
My psychologist asked me "what would make you feel better?". I couldn't answer him honestly (I just said that I don't know, one of the things that would really make things better would be actually being spend time with the people that really matter to me - they all currently live overseas and knowing the geographical distance between, really hurts)
Everything, I'm still (surprisingly) alive.
I couldn't help cutting.

[Desuetude]

My family laughing at me, feeling myself well up and get angry but I couldn't get away from them. I asked for a shower first because apparently it's meant to make you feel better (also it's the only place where I have any privacy and even then i'm hurried) only to find out my sister wants one because she wants to watch the fucking apprentice at 9.

Im being told off for being in my room. Who gets shouted at for keeping out the way and making no fuss. When Im with them they get me so angry I can't bear to listen to them but they make me anyway.

[Magenta]

Cleo had to go to the vet, I have to face the fact she's getting old and may not be the healthiest cat anymore and that she will eventually... well, I don't even want to think about that. If anything happens to her, I will completely lose it. She's kept me from running away and killing myself, that cat means everything to me.

[Stronger]

Received yet more bad news from the nursing home that my nan is in. This sore in her back, isnt healing correctly due to her not having nutrient since she won't eat, it's causing her skin to rip off of her and is causing her so much pain, that they are going to give her a ton of pain meds to help it, but that in turn will cause her to no longer reconize us; they also say shes starting to turn yellow, due to liver malfunction. To think I was feeling hopeful about her getting better eariler today.......

[Carlyle]

Hearing my parents complain about "the real world". I don't give two shits mom. I love you and respect you above everyone else in my life for what you've done for me.. But I'm 13 right now and I enjoy doing what I do. Yes I know I need to get a job soon. Looking at things now though, who the fuck is going to hire a teen with no experience? Yeah, nice try. Think of a better excuse, I know you want me out of your way, you think I do everything..

[Quercus]

My parents fighting over stupid shit, being away from my girlfriend, work, being succeful when i get out of the house, family issues, and other shit thats to long to explain... So yea fml.

[Princess Ariel]

Finding out that my friend ran away, and killed herself. R.I.P. Melissa <33

[Mirage]

The fact that I have to go to school for yet another day, call me selfish but I HATE that place.

[Cognizant]

I failed my Swim test:cry2:

[MaximumR]

Realizing how much I'm really gonna miss him :'(

[Wolverine.]

I'm so alone.

[double r]

I have to move back to my native country. Green card expired some how:)

[Djentleman]

Overhearing a colleague whom I thought to be a friend, tell another colleague that they wanted me to stay the fuck away from him and the only reason he pretended to be friends with me is because he didn't want me to look like a complete loner. Thanks...Cunt.

[Cognizant]

I'm crying for no fucking reason at all

[Mortal Coil]

being such a fatass.

[Carlyle]

My dreams. They're nice and all, but its like my my mind is teasing me

[project_icarus]

My supposed friend decided to go through my phone.
N.... told me that I could contact her any time if I needed to. I really needed to talk to her. I had no credit last night and the stupid landline wasn't working, my sister wouldn't give me her phone (yet she knew damn well why I needed it), so I took my mum's phone from her room at 2am to call three numbers of which were all overseas (it' not like anyone here actually gives a crap about me). She was the only that I knew I could get through to, but the stupid smartphone (irony?) couldn't get through. The second person I called, who also told me I could contact her any time, I was 90% sure I wasn't going to get through to her, I called and it rang (normally) but it was 3am and she's on sleeping medication so what could I expect. The third number I rang about three times, I called and got through. I really feel bad... I couldn't understand her accent, and she couldn't understand me when I asked her to be on Skype.

being such a fatass.
I know you're worried but you really look great in that outfit ;)

[Princess Ariel]

I have to read a triggering book, and disscuss with the class if I have a connection.
Should I be honest?
or act as if I have a friend, or family member going through it.
Naaw, I'll skip second.

[project_icarus]

Watching a depressing and triggering movie/TV show about a girl who was abused and went through shit as a child, long story short, she and her husband overdosed and only her husband died with a really emotional and fucked up depressing scene at the end.
I honestly don't know if I'll make it through the night.
I don't know if she couldn't give less of a fuck about me or she just couldn't even text me... With that, my optimism, absolutely, fails.
Psychiatrist is going to put me back in 4H, but I'm not sure about anything about it other than I know I'm going in. And that I probably won't have contact with anyone else while I'm there.
The counsellor at Kids Helpline that I spoke to won't be working nights again until Monday, so I have no professional help until Monday, which won't help too much anyway.
My mum doesn't trust me at all.
I can't find my blade, Nicole's hidden all the pills and mum's drunken all there is to drink. An entire fucking fridge of vodka to herself in 4 days!?

[Magenta]

I have a report due today that I haven't written and I really just want to hit myself in the face with a brick.

[Mortal Coil]

Watching a depressing and triggering movie/TV show
Which one? And I'm really sorry about not being there for you :(



Me? Knowing that the best night of my life is over. No matter what happens, I always manage to spin it into a negative: I don't have a good time, life sucks. I do have a good time, my life is complete so I might as well die while I'm still happy, right?

[Desuetude]

Putting myself through watching them even though exactly like last time I knew I'd go into panic mode and detatch myself.
Apart from feeling sick and lightheaded I'm a fucking robot.

[Mind Blank]

Realizing that soon, the generation of fantastic musicians and actors will die, and I'll be left to grow up in a world full of Nicki Minaj and Justin Bieber bullshit.

[DJX97]

Nothing.

[Hypers]

My mom called my home room teacher... And they talked for an hour...

[Erasmus]

Robotics...

[Princess Ariel]

Failed attempt, sex Ed class, seeing hunger games for the THIRD time, and I may have a couple infected cuts.

[project_icarus]

I'm really confused.
I pissed everyone off.
I know I'm in for shit when we get our phone bill, even though I couldn't care less about the costs.
I want to be with her, even though I probably will, my plans definitely aren't at all realistic. Not even the most thought through one.
I can't really explain the feelings I have for her.
I'm torn, and I absolutely hate it.
My subconscious mind is taking over and I have absolutely no control over it.
I'm so fucking cruel and emotionless.
I couldn't give less of a shit.
I need to stay strong, I'm just not so sure how I'm going to.

[Mortal Coil]

Lying to my therapist, triggers, wondering if people are talking about me when they say stuff.

[Princess Ariel]

It's the weekend.

[Mortal Coil]

a very triggering conversation. And I really don't trigger easily.

[project_icarus]

a very triggering conversation.

I'm really sorry Alex, I really am.

Not really sure on anything.
My latest facebook status' are an indicator.

Not being able to be with the people you really can't be without.

Sigh. Finding out some of the closest people to you know absolutely nothing about you.

People not even fucking talking to me after last night.
And no, people complaining and yelling at me telling me I'm a worthless piece of shit doesn't count.

Waking up to nothing but disappointment. Not seeing it, it probably won't be there anyway. Great one, Matt.

In reply to this (after a friend had commented "???")
My morning. Up 'till three thinking very thoroughly about shit, passed out, came around at eleven, where I just heard Nicole saying your name telling you your mother had arrived, I rushed to get up and at least say goodbye, I couldn't even keep my balance I was that light headed.
Besides you can't say you weren't pissed off at me anyway. I'm so stupid and sorry for last night, Mike.


On facebook at 2am again, please forgive any stupidity among my posts.

So, yeah. Lot's of things, which are getting too much.

Decided for the first time, to confide in someone about an attack on me from years ago, finally. Talking didn't really depress me, and it's just expressing my hatred.

[DerBear]

The fact that I should feel something for someone who could be suffering but what his actions have done has lead me to not feel anything for him and this in turn makes me feel bad about myself.

And now to put the cherry on the cake the person who is making me feel like this has noticed a change in attitude and he keeps wanting to help and asking me what's up and I can't tell him that he is a part of the problem now can I?

This is making me feel really bad.

[Desuetude]

Dozing off for 9 minutess having a dream that either implied I was blind or mentally retarded. Also not being able to move or open my eyes because everything was too heavy.
First dream I've remembered a dream in years -.-

[Mortal Coil]

I'm really sorry Alex, I really am.

Don't assume it was our conversation, Matty. Like I told you, conventionally triggering things don't actually trigger me, and instead the most mundane things do.
And do NOT apologize. I've probably triggered you much more than you've triggered me.

School tomorrow :(

[project_icarus]

counsellor from Childline kept going on and on about how I was a sperm. And his answer to everything was "believe in yourself".


And do NOT apologize. I've probably triggered you much more than you've triggered me.
You really haven't, I actually don't trigger easily by things like that, just pressure, stress precursors/roots, etc.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Saying really stupid, annoying things. No wonder I don't have any friends.
And
Being me.

[FullyAlive]

So much work to do i've been up two hours yet still have not started

[Hypers]

Got screamed at again.

[project_icarus]

Going for my mother's favourite (and somewhat demeaning...), vodka cruisers.
And how ironic that is in so many ways.
Dunno if I should call again...

[Desuetude]

Those words she said going through my head over and over again. I need them to stop, please let them stop.

[Magenta]

I can't handle this. I can't do it anymore. I swear the meds are messing with my head more. Not too much but enough to be pushing me over the edge a bit more.

[Smeagol]

A little kid pointed a nerf gun at my pony. And in my current mental state, she is all I care about and for a second I thought he would kill her DX

[Princess Ariel]

Myself..

[Amlykax3]

I feel so alone...

[project_icarus]

Kids Helpline counsellor, blah blah blah "we might need to contact the ambulance service for you". The KH call centre is based in Brisbane, QLD, so their QAS doesn't cost. Whereas, SJA WA (where I am) costs $800 every fucking time. So, last night was another that-close kind of night.

[Mortal Coil]

counsellor from Childline kept going on and on about how I was a sperm.
lololololololol
I know we're not supposed to reply on this thread, but Matty, that is honestly pretty funny.


I went to school.

[project_icarus]

Lost a lifelong "friend". Oh well, I guess it was inevitable. Not to mention the way he fucked with me... :mad:

[Desuetude]

For the most part of the day I've been remotely "happy" or at least busy so as not to think about things now the feeling of alone and dread washes over me.
_________
Also his computer died. I don't know if the ChildLine person sent an ambulance or how he is at the moment.

[Ventus-]

my dad passed away on 2010 and I cant move on up until now. Just missing him so much.

[Smeagol]

I am sick. Not strep throat luckily, but now I suspect the flu...

[Princess Ariel]

I had to deal with so many liars today >.<
Ugh. They piss me off.
and just.. so much more, that i'm not going to get into grave detail.

[Stronger]

My room is so freaken hot, and I don't have my A/C in yet so I'm melting. D:

[HahaWaitWhat]

The fact that like none of my friends have talked to me outside of school in a long time (happens a lot.) and something else that I can't quite figure out.

[Mortal Coil]

I've been having flashbacks all day :S

And realizing how desperate I can be. Is this what I've come to? Pathetic.

[Coolboi]

just think about mom that just passed away !

[Princess Ariel]

Thinking about my dad and how devastated he'd be.
and that I have to deal with someone's bullshit, in class, and then through lunch.

EDIT : I'm finally opening up to someone telling them how I feel, and she yelled at me to leave her alone..

[Mortal Coil]

Their lack of faith.

[XxAssasiNxX]

My parents, schoolwork, when people say that u get everything be gratefull. dont THEY say money dosent buy you happines. so even though u get things it dosent buy u happines

[Hypers]

Don't know if I passed a very important English project...

[Smeagol]

My joint pain and muscular pain that makes me think that I should be 70 or 80 instead of 14.

[Fiction]

My best friend is leaving college :/

And i'm still fucking ill.

[Stronger]

When you mom tells you your grandma is dying.....

*edit* then when you talk to your sister and she tell you that my grandma has a fatal ultcer that when diagosned the person lives only for another 24-48 hours.......:(

[Fiction]

Being invited to a party but being told you're not allowed to drink because you get annoying and suicidal when you drink. Thanks for that. Fuck everything.

[Drew5]

Retards sometimes

[Coolboi]

moms funeral !

[Bath]

I have to do a one-page essay on Steve Jobs with index cards of notes on them due tomorrow. It's 8pm and I'm tired as fuck.

[Stronger]

Seeing my grandma laying there, in so much pain, and trying to fight back the tears, I thank all those good nurses that are there for her keeping her as comfortable as possible.

[kenoloor]

My girlfriend's mother thinks I'm abusive.

[Mortal Coil]

Uhh, let's see:
-needed to cut all through school, punching walls had to suffice
-someone got pissed at me cause I have a fucking disability
-I'm hungover
-I failed at making myself puke
-I was fucking careless this morning and left evidence lying around (that I cut)

[Magenta]

I'm exhausted. First I wasn't getting enough sleep and now these meds are making me too tired to function. I'm lonely when she's not around, even though I'm used to it, and quite frankly I still feel extremely suicidal 90% of the time.

[Stronger]

Knowing whether or not I'll see my nan again :\

[Princess Ariel]

I'm seeing War Horse today.

[Darkness.]

The fact that I don't want to sleep even when I'm ment to sleep.

[Mortal Coil]

the fact that I can't do anything right.

[Hypers]

Had a really hard test... Think I failed it...

[Desuetude]

How fucking ironic it is that I was on the student interview panel for a school guidance counselor.
Asking all the questions and listening to the answers like they didn't apply to me.
"Confidentiality is very important, the only time I would breach a childs trust is if they were causing themselves harm..."
Just brought up the fact that I still have no one.
___________
and I thought my day couldn't get any worse...
Mum finding a bottle of Vodka in my room that I forgot was there and she's already told my Dad so I'll be having the same conversation again next week.
I'm fucking dreading going to his on Friday anyway.
I'm such an idiot.

[Stronger]

When your sister texts you I <3 you B, I dont like the sound of tht........

[PoseidonX43]

looks like i failed. again. :( ....

[Magenta]

Biology tomorrow is going to be a nightmare for me. Two quizzes, one of which I know nothing about because I only got to look at the powerpoints tonight, and our fetal pig dissection which makes me feel sick even thinking about it.

And I'm not seeing her until Friday which so far has been the only highlights of my days. I'm so fucking busy this week I may just break tomorrow.

[Stronger]

Seeing my nan tomorrow, could be the last time I see her, if she makes it through the night. :(

[Princess Ariel]

So many things...

But mainly my drama performance all morning..

[maramara]

Feeling used by every single guy I remotely have a relationship with

[Coolboi]

me an my brother haven't gone to school this week cause mom died an funeral an stuff but what's bothering me right now is I'm looking at Jeffs (my lil bro )face an he looks so alone ! i must must comfert him

[Stronger]

Trying not to breakdown and cry :( :( :(

[Drew5]

Pollen

[Princess Ariel]

My "friend " who told her mum something that she shouldn't have said.

[Stronger]

So depressed right now, im in tears, I love you nan <3

[Mortal Coil]

Everything. Just fucking everything.

[Stronger]

I just want to get out of school already.

[Mortal Coil]

Listening to my teacher ask me, "How much hatred do you have in your heart" and "why are you so unhappy all the time?"

Gee, I wonder. I mean, really? I have more hatred than most people can imagine, and I'm so unhappy cause I have fucking DEPRESSION. Idiot.

[Love.Hate]

This constant feeling of sadness that wont shift

[Quercus]

Yeaa... My girlfriend being rude to me then ignoring me half the day... Like... Seriously what did i do?
Then having to deal with all the shit in the family and work... Again... Someone tell me the reason to live?!?!?!

I just... Cant give a damn, cant talk to anyone anymore!!!
I think it s because im afriad if i talk to someone i might feel an emotion i dont want to feel? Fml

[Short Circuit]

The small cracks in a friendship now seem to be a huge gulf - i dont know what to do to get it back to how it used to be :(

[Desuetude]

This boy in my class making cutting actions on his wrist for no reason then when I look at him he goes "Hey, Nikhila, this is you in 4 years..." (he doesn't even know anything, it just put me on edge for the rest of the day)

Being at Dads, this week is going to be bad.

[StoppingTime]

This boy in my class making cutting actions on his wrist for no reason then when I look at him he goes "Hey, Nikhila, this is you in 4 years..." (he doesn't even know anything, it just put me on edge for the rest of the day)

Being at Dads, this week is going to be bad.

I know exactly how you feel. There's a few kids in my class who just say, "Go cut yourself" at just about anything that pisses them off. They just don't get it.

[Princess Ariel]

I don't think that there wasn't one part of my day that sucked.

Migraine all day, and I forgot my pills at home. thankfully I'm going back home soon, back to my regular shit.. I was really bad during photography class, I felt faint throughout the whole class.. it would be bad if I passed out in the darkroom eh?

[Fractured Silhouette]

My parents. Are really annoying. And will not leave me alone. Or stop calling me a weirdo.

I've been extremely anxious all day, I'm really tired, I screwed up cutting and I feel nauseous.

[Mirage]

I scratched the skin off of my...umm...genitals. Yuck.

[Mortal Coil]

I scratched the skin off of my...umm...genitals. Yuck.
I did that once. Hurts like a motherfucker, hope you heal up soon.



I miss him.

[Princess Ariel]

Mum's coming home and shes going to be over my shoulders as I do my project.

[Hypers]

got screamed at...again...

[Mortal Coil]

How quickly it all happened.

[Carlyle]

Oh god. My great grandma was just rushed to the hospital, they're afraid of her having a heart atack.. please please be okay, I can't lose anyone else..

[Thunduhbuhlt]

Oh god. My great grandma was just rushed to the hospital, they're afraid of her having a heart atack.. please please be okay, I can't lose anyone else..

I hope your great grandma is okay. <3 If you need to talk, you know where to find me. :)

[StoppingTime]

Oh god. My great grandma was just rushed to the hospital, they're afraid of her having a heart atack.. please please be okay, I can't lose anyone else..

I wish you and your family the best, and hope everything turns out OK.

[Bath]

I can't go over Brian's tomorrow and that's all I've been looking forward to.

[Mortal Coil]

My flashbacks.

[Sudds3]

Stupid research paper! Cant do anything and part of it is due on Monday.....sounds like an all nighter doing some useless shit! Woopee

[Weeping_Angel]

My mother just almost hit my brother. Hard. Now he is hiding out in his room. My mom is making hell break loose. And I feel so bad for my brother. He is so young, and experiencing all of these things. My whole day is going into my pile of the fucks that I don't give

[Wolverine.]

Everything.

[Stronger]

My nan just won't give up, she's fighting but we want her to be at peace already, so that she doesn't suffer anymore.

[Coolboi]

missing mom I must stay busy

[Ambrosia]

When I woke up this morning, he acted as if last night never even happened. I'm wondering if this is what it's come to. Him accusing me, hurting me mentally and physically, then us acting like it's nothing? I don't want this.

[Princess Ariel]

everything..

[TeddyBearRock]

I have had a sore throught* all day

[Magenta]

My biology teacher hates me and is making my life a living hell; my school hates me because I'm not doing well and I'm trying to drop courses because I can't keep up and obviously my mental health issues don't matter to them or my parents; every time I apply for a job, I never get a response so it's obvious I'm not good enough for fucking any job which means I can't move out.

Oh and I haven't stopped crying today and my mum finds it fun to yell at me because her life is shit because she split with yet another boyfriend. It's not my fault no one wants to stay with her.

Right and I forgot that the city's idiot mayor wants to stop funding the fifth year of high school we can take. I've planned everything around that and guess who is destined to become a high school drop-out because of him? Congrats, mayor, you'll make it into my suicide note when I kill myself because I have absolutely no future.

Better question is what isn't depressing me today? I give up. I have no way out except to kill myself at this point.

EDIT: My mother came home. She's yelling at me for trying to get a job.

[LucasRobert0897]

My best friend being really Ill... :\

[Mortal Coil]

I almost got caught today. How conspicuous can I be?

[Carlyle]

Its monday.. go away monday..

[Stronger]

It's Monday and I wish I was with my nan instead of going to school. :(

[Mortal Coil]

I haven't gotten to day 1 in over a week.

[Princess Ariel]

Drama and watching our performances and realizing how annoying my voice is.

Yoga in getting triggered.

Getting in trouble after going to class when the bell rang because a friend needed someone with her. (But I don't care, she needed someone)

Coming home and getting yelled at by mum...

[Stronger]

Losing my nanny today... :( </3

[Weeping_Angel]

Me cutting, again. I vowed to stop, for everyone. I can't, but I need to start sometime,or it's never going to happen. I just feel like drowning and dying