What's depressing you today?

[OnlyByTheNight.]

I feel like I'm being a bitch but it's not my fault, it's the fucking depression taking over me.

[Levi scott]

I just want to be held when going to sleep instead of being alone.

[Princess Ariel]

I've started smoking again.

[Djentleman]

Hell has been unleashed. Someone whom I knew would be bad at handling my situation, but my father thought was good to approach has done exactly what I thought he would and has asked the people that put me in this situation. OF COURSE THEY ARE GOING TO LIE! He's asking a bully if he really bullies people! By tomorrow, their accomplices will have been notified and I will be mentally and verbally forced from this placed.

[Magenta]

Suddenly the room feels too warm, I probably can't keep from crying and I'm just suck a freak. Everything about me feels wrong. I'm weak for crying.

Oh and I've already lied to my therapist today.

[Mortal Coil]

Everything. Just everything.
My nostalgic memories turn into flashbacks too easily; now I can't even think of my fondest memories

[Wolverine.]

Tomorrow.

[project_icarus]

Fucking up the thing I've planned and tried so hard not to fuck up, not only for me but for everyone else I was doing it for. Tourettes has made things more difficult, and panic attacks aren't any help.

[Princess Ariel]

I've already burnt my hand, and skin is peeling.

[project_icarus]

Help is so close yet so far away.

[Love.Hate]

Him turning my friends agaisnt me and making me out to be a liar :(

[kidkizzet]

Everything. Kill me now.

[Ace_of_Spades]

My friend and i are fighting x.x

[georgiamay]

Lonliness, if I'm honest.

[dark_soul777]

I haven't been to school in like 9 days and my brother and sister have decided they should start copying me :/

[Short Circuit]

Being stabbed in the back by so called friends :(

[Mortal Coil]

I had German today.

[project_icarus]

My mask is too good.

[Mortal Coil]

I know I posted like an hour ago but my mom. URRGHHHHH D:

[Princess Ariel]

everything..

[TeddyBearRock]

Hanging out with the girl I like, knowing she cant be mine. (she have a bf)

[Stronger]

Having a dream, being friends with people, who wouldn't consider being your friends in the real world.

[FullyAlive]

i'm so easy to leave

[xDarkAngelx]

Just about everything...feeling numb

[Joshh97]

Split up with my bf and started cutting again. So pretty much life.

[Magenta]

Everything just hurts so much. I can't live with this anymore. Especially knowing what it is. Well, parts of it. But knowing that the only small things I do know about myself are really only symptoms of a disorder? Knowing they have to change? There's nothing else here, who will I be if they were to change? I'd rather die. Maybe I will try again. Maybe that's why suicidal tendencies are a symptom too.

[Mortal Coil]

I had flashbacks during a timed essay in English.
I probably failed that essay.

[XxAssasiNxX]

Being alive, my parents are gettin pissed at me for being antisocial failing maths and everyrhing blaming it on computer......and the pain when your crush tells you to literally fuck off.......

[project_icarus]

The way people see me must greatly resemble a dog, that's how they like to treat me.

[Mortal Coil]

That fucking email.
Why me? He could have sent it to anyone in the whole school, why the fuck did he send it to me?

[project_icarus]

They don't even notice me.
I only posted, what, twenty minutes ago? Crap.

[Magenta]

My cleaning is getting nowhere, I don't know where to start, I missed my hair appointment because I messed up the times and didn't realize how long I've been cleaning, my mother isn't answering her phone, I'm covered in dust and I don't even have clean laundry right now so I'm sitting on the floor crying.

I should have tried harder, I should have ended it last night. I can't take the everyday stress and fuck ups as well as everything else.

[Princess Ariel]

I woke up and carried on living and scarring people with my hideous face.
Oh, and I was yelled at for sleeping in.

[xXl0sth0peXx]

The fact that I'm alive right now.

[Mortal Coil]

I'm going out :(
why???

[project_icarus]

I'm living and breathing, that enrages and depresses many people.

I checked the non sh calender to remember last time I cut, only to find that I cut last night :|

[XxAssasiNxX]

My parents mostly...and im still kinds deppresed about the girl telling me to fuck off. being a teenager uts not that great. the first signs of depression are starting...it dosent seem like much...oh and i have to get up at 7 tomoro WHY!!??

[Princess Ariel]

I don't know if I should stay in bed, or go out.

[Erasmus]

that this winter we got virtually no snow. :( i love snow.

[xDarkAngelx]

Being alive at the moment, so tempted to overdose now then I'd hopefully be out of this life that i'm hating.

[Lethe]

Being fat despite dieting...being ugly despite makeup...being worthless despite the fact that I'm nice and friendly and easy to get along with. Why exist?

[Desuetude]

My dads not letting me go to my grandmas 75th because I refuse to wear a dress.. Who the hells he to tell me what I should look like?

[Mortal Coil]

The brother of someone in my school committed suicide.

[Short Circuit]

Everything

[project_icarus]

Not taking enough.

[Mortal Coil]

being fat, ugly, stupid and alive.
And aware of all the above.

[Princess Ariel]

I have no choice but to go out with my friends today for dim sum.... I just want to stay in bed, and die.

[Erasmus]

That i can't go climbing today. :(

[Demetri08]

Had a great dream with a girl I know (but forgot who) only to wake up and realize it was just a dream and I was alone. :(

[project_icarus]

Him.

[Erasmus]

That i may have to go.

[Itzzjasonblaahho.O]

Um nothing at all... Hehehee i feel so happy todayy :)

[xxx.xxx]

My uncle died 2years ago today and i miss him :(

[BassSwagg]

I have no one. Nothing to live for.

[Cognizant]

Another friend just turned on my back, over MY opinion on something.

[Iris]

that awkward moment when you want to go downstairs to get some food but need to wait for the cuts on your arm to stop bleeding so you don't leave a trail of blood on the floor. sigh.

[project_icarus]

He decided to try and kill himself after my failed attempt. Fuck

[Stronger]

Sucks liking someone, tht is straight and who your friends say is an asshole, fml.

[Princess Ariel]

Waking up to a yodeling grandfather

[Desuetude]

My mum's foundation doesn't work on scars... fml

Though it does work wonders on more recent cuts thats not what I need it for >.<

[Magenta]

I did it again but I'm building up a tolerance I didn't think I had.

[Demetri08]

Thinking back on my life, realizing how little I've done with it and how I'll probably be alone for a very, very long time. *sigh*

[project_icarus]

I'm a complete retard.

The only people worth being around for a good reason and I like being with them, I probably will never speak to offline.

[Princess Ariel]

Well, for starters. I have school today, and I lost a page of homework
I have a memorization test and half of the the people in my group, aren't back yet from spring break
and I woke up, and realized how much I shouldn't be here.

[Mortal Coil]

I went to school hungover. 'nuff said.

[project_icarus]

I'm a freak. My mum's a complete bitchcuntniggerfacedouchebag. I keep having flashbacks. I can't apply myself, concentrate or focus for the life of me. I can't get certain things out my head, a girl, a guy (I'm confusing and confused), work, some other people, and every single detail about every fucking hospitalisation, especially my three hositalisations this year. And to think that my third, was only two days after the second, a month after my first. FUN!

[Mortal Coil]

I was a total coward today.
Why can't I be brave?

[Desuetude]

My Dad's "girlfriend" talking to me of facebook.
Im not sure whats happening, they had a massive fight and now she is saying I will see you soon and I'll love you always, missed you and she has never done this before.
I think they're breaking up?

She has been in a bad way and I didn't want to seem rude so I told her I loved her as well. I hate myself for lying.

[Short Circuit]

Just found out people are talking behind my back

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Nobody even knows who I am or cares if I'm alive and I'm being yelled at all the time.

[Magenta]

I'm alone, scared to go to class tomorrow and I can't skip.

[WickedWeekend]

My mom wanting me to do something I have no ability or want to do.

[Mortal Coil]

I never expected it to get this far...

[Amlykax3]

I miss my grandma more than words... :(

[User_Does Not Exist]

the results

[project_icarus]

My mum, people at school, a few people at school especially. I'm falling more and more behind at school. Everything. I have no life.

[Princess Ariel]

I've read everything, and I'm scared to go to a class since I'm going to lose someone who I could trust, Funny thing is, I've stopped talking about me, it's all been him.
I'm already crying.

[Turtle007]

homework -.-

[Mortal Coil]

My mom again.
My parents are totally violating my privacy. I want to kill her.

[project_icarus]

I haven't the ability to be normal.

I overdosed yesterday (it's 0108, so, yesterday now). The hospital decided to discharge me out of 4H (after keeping me in a room in 4H for, what, four hours), have a neurological consult (for another problem), see a psychiatric registrar, get a review of my antidepressants, and be prescribed more pills.
^ That definitely solved all my problems. I thank the obnoxious paramedics for being absolute douchebags. And not only did the doctors give me more reason to kick the bucket, they actually gave me more pills. Guess what I'd like to do now, it's not obvious or anything.

[Amlykax3]

I totally failed...

[Bpwoods97]

Assholes who dont accept people for who they are cause they're the "popular" kids, even though i was just playing chinese checkers with some kid, cause i finished work early in school and there was nothing else to do...

[Mortal Coil]

my mom wet into my room. I'm scared.

[project_icarus]

I can't approach people socially.

[Desuetude]

The Physio did nothing apart from make me ache even more. Sitting, standing, laying down, stretching. I can't get away from it.

[Magenta]

I'm having completely silly conversations with people but I'm actually sobbing behind my computer screen rather than laughing.

[User Deleted]

Unable to breath well, not enough sleep, disappointment, excess of homework...

[project_icarus]

I have no freedom.

[Mortal Coil]

Getting stitches last night and having two teachers come up to me separately and both basically accuse me of being a depressed cutter.
OK, I am, but that's for me to know, not them.

[SolarSolexis]

The fact that I literally don't have any friends and my birthday is rapidly approaching and I have no one to invite...

[kai99]

It's not friday D:

[Princess Ariel]

The fact that my Science teacher said I looked like a slut today. Then he complimented me, which was awkward.

[alex4nder]

Unable to breath well, not enough sleep, disappointment, excess of homework...

This..

The fact that I literally don't have any friends and my birthday is rapidly approaching and I have no one to invite...

..and this.

Oh and the fact that i'm (still) in denial about my own sexuality. :(

[Mortal Coil]

I'm alive.
And I have 2 tests today.

[Magenta]

I'm done doing all the work in my friendships. I don't want to be the one always saying hello first.

[Princess Ariel]

My cat woke me up on a day when I could've slept in a whole 2 hours >.<
oh, and she's sleeping now.

And now it's raining -.-

[Magenta]

My mother had been up for two minutes before storming into my room, yelling at me while I hid behind the door because of the obviously ignored rule to get out while I'm changing and now she's slamming doors and screaming.

What's this over? Cold water.

[project_icarus]

Being at my biological father's house, hating it, and being treated like shit as usual, just by everyone, including my sister and her boyfriend.

[GothicTsukiyomi]

Cool

[Magenta]

I'm pathetic.

[Short Circuit]

I am all alone with no one to turn to again

[project_icarus]

My actual friends are over the other side of the world.

[Mortal Coil]

I don't have the willpower...

[Princess Ariel]

Performance today, and i'm nervous.

[Desuetude]

Finding out my dad's girlfriend (oh no, ex girlfriend) doesn't "agree" with being gay. I got so fucking defensive I had to literally put my hand over my mouth to stop from arguing even more.

[project_icarus]

Going over and examining tapes, videos and basically everything related to 9/11. And news reports.

[User_Does Not Exist]

Hearing my bloodwork is going to take another 5 freaking days and that I haven't had an offday in roughly a month now....

[Short Circuit]

I overheard mum and dad talking about me - awkward!

[Princess Ariel]

I have no motivation to get out of bed.

[Lethe]

I ate three cupcakes yesterday and a big piece of cake for my birthday. Oh, and only two friends gave a shit that it was my birthday. Yay me. How pathetic and worthless I am.

[longdicjohnson]

Nothing it's sunny n warm. Love this time of year. So happy

[Desuetude]

Oh shit! I left my iPod in the car and it's too late to to get it so I can't charge it.
Im going to have to go a day without music tomorrow ahh fuck.

[Sudds3]

Spring break is over and I have like 30 more school days in my stupid, shitty, restiricting, over protective, dumb piece of shit school! We get and f ing detention if we talk in the halls, if we dont respect everyone then we get grades lowered! I F*CKING HATE CATHOLIC GRADE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE!

[Amlykax3]

My best friend relapsed on heroin....i have to be smart and remove myself from this. Its a powerful drug and i had to deal with it with her before she went to rehab...and i cant go thru it again. Hardest thing ever....

[Jabbawocke]

No friends.

[Princess Ariel]

I'm shaking, I also have to deal with my boyfriend in the library today...

[Stronger]

That I can't find love, that lives here....typical rant

[Magenta]

I'm struggling so much right now.

[Lethe]

I'm still fat. I'm still ugly. I'm still alive. Shit.

[Mirage]

Still dealing with the same relationship issues. Ah well, hopefully it will get better soon.

[Princess Ariel]

I feel sick. I actually woke up from a nice sleep because of the pain.

[project_icarus]

Heard my drunken mother shouting about me at my sister "Well I don't even want him in my fucking house any fucking more". People won't even keep their opinion of me to themselves. At least ten people decided to walk up to me and confront me about my tourettes. I can't help but lie about "getting better". My mum is punishing me for being suicidal and self harming. Nobody trusts me enough to leave me alone at home. Fucking hell.

[Mortal Coil]

I have my chinese oral exam tomorrow.
Shit.
And my mom won't stop bitching, my hallucinations are getting worse etc.
In other words, I'm just being a whiny emo bitch and should probably take my self-pity somewhere else.

[project_icarus]

Police were called to my house about a "noise complaint" after someone who lives in the lot behind us was yelling at me to shut the fuck up with my TS.

[Love.Hate]

Chest/throat infection, headache, lack of sleep and a cold. I don't think there could be much more wrong with me.. :/

[Fiction]

Oh so where do I fucking start.

My grandad is hallucinating and his illness is getting worse. He's making no sense, and is getting paranoid. My great-grandma is in hospital too. My grandma can't cope, my mum's having to go down to help her.

I'm a horrible person. The worst kind. I'm not who any of you remember. I don't put others first, I don't even care about people. I'm psychopathic and feel nothing. The thought of killing someone seems fun.

I'm failing my A levels. I have a coursework deadline on Thursday. I've not even started correcting my coursework and I know it's shit. I have so much revision to do.

My boyfriend goes away tomorrow and I don't see him for almost 3 weeks. I'm pretty much co-dependent, it's going to kill me.

I may as well be dead and I fucking know it. I've put it off too long now.

[Sudds3]

Today, nothing! Ive had a great day.......that never happens

[Stronger]

School, family, life, whatever

[Mirage]

Having like three projects to get done in two days, for some reason keep putting it off. Also, have to deal with a teacher who expects us to know everything and yells when we ask a question. You know; same old, same old.

[Princess Ariel]

I have french today, I have to deal with a bitch for two classes today...

[Mortal Coil]

Not the fact that I failed my Chinese Oral exam.
The fact that I don't care about it.

[project_icarus]

The counsellor finds her phone more important than me.
I have no idea when my next CAMHS appointment is.
I'm having flashbacks from my last two hospitalisations (although something I thought about was somewhat comedic... A&E nurse couldn't pronounce CAMHS)
I can't be honest to my psychologist. And my actual psychologist is away.
I can't stand this fucking antidepressant... A childish thing about this point too, I hate the taste of it, I cut the tablet in half to take half a tablet, and it tastes... bleh :eek:
Too many more to list. What isn't today?

[Short Circuit]

When someone who is supposed to be your best friend, says he will do something for you today, but does not do it!

[Princess Ariel]

I have a sudden urge to drink, but I already did that last night so I can't. I also fucked up on my science test, AND I have a french test on futur simple/futur proche on friday.. Friday i'm going to be too busy trying not to have a heart attack from stress.... GRREEEEAAAT..

[Mirage]

Have two projects due tomorrow that I haven't started, got an F on a math test, and everyone thinks I like a girl that I do not.

[User Deleted]

Loosing some stuff and bad grades

[Magenta]

The giant fucking hangover I went to school with.

[Stronger]

Boring school day, did nothing, feel depressed this evening :\

[project_icarus]

I've barricaded myself in my room to stop me from getting beaten, ironically, killing myself is the only realistic way out of this.

[Sudds3]

Ummmm, well yesterday I posted on here around 4 o clock that I wasnt depressed at all, then my friends house caught on fire and it made me rly sad! But i found out a little bit of good news and I know I must stay strong and help them...thats what depressed me then made me feel better and gave me a goal to strive for!

[Princess Ariel]

I have a huge ass test that I
1. Don't want to do.
2. See no point in doing it.
3. Haven't practised.
I also have to do a beep test in gym today, don't want to do that either.

[Magenta]

Believe it or not, this actually is depressing me: my hair is curly as fuck (even though I dried it with a hairdryer rather than leaving it) and won't behave. ><

[Mortal Coil]

My mother. Doesn't come as a surprise, does it?
Also drama.

[project_icarus]

Well one highlight, what the US government is doing to me.

[Mortal Coil]

I'm going crazy.
God, I'm going crazy.

[project_icarus]

Knowing more and more about what the government is doing to me.

[Hypers]

Someone spread a false rumor about me.

[Jmihas]

My pathetic life.

[Hypers]

There will be school on Saturday. And Sunday.

[Breakeven]

life!

[Mortal Coil]

my weakness.

[xDarkAngelx]

Everything at the moment really...

[PoseidonX43]

Another night spent alone.. bottled up emotions..

feeling like crawling into a hole..

[KarkatLuv]

not being able to decide if i'm bi or just completely gay
not having a boyfriend to find out
not having someone to hold me and kiss me in the middle of night
that i can't be everywhere to cheer up everyone that's depressed

[Mortal Coil]

Oh god. Don't even get me started...

[Wolverine.]

I spent all day doing school work. I feel so lonely.

[Princess Ariel]

The fact that I couldn't leave my blades at home when I'm on a weekend getaway on Niagara On The Lake.

[Desuetude]

I just spent £30 on fucking makeup and all it does is emphisise the scars. FML!

[double r]

The Rain. And nothing to fucking do.

[Mirage]

Gotta go to karate today...maybe I can talk my mom out of it!

[Stronger]

The typical usual, and the fact that I'm bored.

[Bath]

Ryan (setbabiesonfire) is one of my most favorite people on tumblr, and recently he posted a picture of his girlfriend and so I commented saying that she looked like his ex.

Then I get this.

http://files-cdn.formspring.me/photos/20120401/n4f77da940effb.jpg

Bleh. Made me sad. He's like an inspiration to me and of course I fucked it up :')

[Mirage]

4152

I practically shattered my fingernail. At least it looks like Patrick from Spongebob.

[Mortal Coil]

The day is just crawling. I have to do this for 2 weeks.

[Wolverine.]

I have my year 12 exam tomorrow and I'm stressing out.

[project_icarus]

Barricaded myself in my room. Again.

[Mortal Coil]

Dinner. (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/blog.php?b=38090)

[Sordid Saint]

How I fucked up

[Desuetude]

Getting ignored, it's not like I want that much attention but when no one listens it just pisses me off.

I just feel as if i'm a ghost sometimes, always there in the background but no one really seeing or listening.

[Djentleman]

I reach out. I get if ignored. FML.

[Princess Ariel]

My blade fell out of my phone case, and mum saw..

[Stronger]

I would have said, I should have went with my sister to her friends house, but I didn't but actually, its no even bothering me anymore.

[Iron Man]

My iPod got washed :(

[project_icarus]

I break everything I touch. I ruin everything. I fuck up everything somehow, everything.

And the fact I'm quoting people when I say the above.

[Necachi]

love.

[project_icarus]

I told her that I love her... All she said was "Aww thankyou", "who?" and "sorry".
AND the only person who I have a consistent supportive relationship with now only has contact with me via skype, yet he blocked and deleted me.
What he decided to send me.
Our friendship has been fun. I enjoyed your company (No Homo :) ), but due to your recent actions, I have came upon the decision that your not worthy of my friendship. This shows your level of trustfulness, which to me appears very low. When you realize how to treat a friend, you may re add me on skype.
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? He just randomly fucking sent that. I actually have no idea what I've done. Yeah I swapped a few jokes, but seriously?

[Carlyle]

Being at school. Its loud and a lot of the people are morons who should be sent back to the first grade.. I just want to sleep, only got 2-3 hours and it was not enough.

[Mortal Coil]

Just had a generally shitty day...

[xDarkAngelx]

Very shit day.

[Princess Ariel]

Everything I did, and said, and heard was just a reminder I shouldn't be here.
I almost broke down in tears 3rd period, but when the bell rang I ran out.. Only to be questioned why my eyes are red in science..

[scottnesss]

that even after alll this time, i still cant get over him.

[Stronger]

Watched a scary movie, hope I can sleep tonight.

[Mortal Coil]

oh, I don't know... being diagnosed with clinical depression maybe...

[Mirage]

Tired as hell, worried if I will grow up normal since I'm a vegetarian.

[Desuetude]

Waking up at 6:30 only to find out I had ALL my clothes on and my contacts still in. I fucking ache so much, nothing I do gets rid of it.

Mum and Aunt are fighting, it always happens this way. That's why I have no family on her side.

[KarkatLuv]

that I'm apparently really good at writing depressing, and I can't see that helping to be a novelist

[Princess Ariel]

Being me.

[Stronger]

Seeing how people struggle daily to get food, because they have no money; really hits you hard. :\

[Mirage]

Sick on spring break.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Being tired because of lack of sleep.

[Magenta]

Even my eyes lie. They look happy. I don't understand...

[project_icarus]

I just electrocuted my face. Literally.

[Princess Ariel]

I have tutoring tonight, I have French, I have to go to the photography room at lunch today, and I've been up for two hours and I'm still curled in a ball... My cat decided to come and be with me, and she normally never does in the morning.. But nOw Shes licking my hair

[Hypers]

School tomorrow + loads Of homework

[Mortal Coil]

I failed.
I can't do anything right.

[Stronger]

Worrying at not knowning how one of my close friends is doing. :(

[Kiss]

i'm insane

[Aquila]

I snapped at her, I yelled at her and took out my entire frustrations on her. Just when things were looking up...

[Mortal Coil]

I have a VERY high chance of being hospitalized. :cry2:

[Iris]

I can't deal with one day. It's selfish and he needs to study but I need him to be with me I need it. Ugh I'm going to end up crying myself to sleep. Fucking ridiculous. Why can't I just be fucking happy with what I've been given. Fuck.