What's depressing you today?

[Carlyle]

I've had the flu for a couple days, but it hasn't shown until now. I can't sleep for more than 30 minutes at a time without waking up and puking my guts up.. Was hoping I wouldn't get it this year too.

[XxEmoCheerleaderxX]

I have to spend the whole weekend with my mom starting today right after school :(...

[JournalDreamer]

I forgot my jacket at home today, and I had to ask my friend if I could borrow her jacket so no one would see the scars. She thought I had stopped.

[BrokenButterflies]

I relapsed and gave myself three cuts...:cry2:

[Mirage]

My friend of more than 5 years, once again, stormed off and said that he was no longer my friend. Hopefully he gets over it.

[AppealToReason]

Accidentally saw a SH picture. "Daddy fucked it and I love it. Kill me"
...Fuck it.

[Bmatlman]

my friends all not talking to me.

[Mara-chan]

everything.



agreed.....

[FullyAlive]

Eurgh. Most people.

[MaliciousBunface]

The fact that I have always been told that I am gonna do good, then disappoint everyone. Even now, I am lying to my dad cause I promised that I wouldn't stay up all night and it's fucking 4 in the morning. Such a disappointment.

[Ben4ever]

That my girlfriend is busy today and I can't see her!

[GummyBear]

Uncertainity about the future... Thats a biggy!

[dreaXoXo]

my boyfriend is to clingy and is sufficating me.....and my friend keeps texting me every 2 min. .... and i'v had a cold all week

[Kdude146]

the fact that winter brake starts in 2 days and I am going to have a lot of home work to do over it and I have a friend who might be exspeled from school cuz of a stupid mistake he made

[FullyAlive]

I wish I could change that one part of myself.
It's hard knowing that something you can't change might cause someone to hate you.
It hurts.

[Sire]

Falling to temptation, again.

[Dimitri]

The fact that my vocal rang has slightly decreased because I have not been practicing lately....

[AppealToReason]

"It is you that took my first away from me
It is you I set my standards to... to every walk of life
I haven't met another you since you were with me."
Pretty much.

[blacksheep]

Everything

[xXl0sth0peXx]

everything and everyone.

[leafgreenangel]

having to be around family that i dont want to see

[IasiahDC]

Receiving Christmas presents from other family and have my mom give them back because we dont celebrate christmas... Would like to enjoy it atleast one day just like everybody else

[kenoloor]

Christmas.

[xDarkAngelx]

Even with everyone around me on christmas I still felt down all day.

[AppealToReason]

2 slices of pizza at 3 in the fucking morning.

[Iris]

life life life life life life it never ends ugh

[Sire]

Seemingly unliked by everyone no matter what I do.

[AppealToReason]

The fact that I didn't take more.

[Sire]

The poster above me keeps making me remember debate fallacies, damn you! xD

[AppealToReason]

The poster above me lives near Houston and I miss Houston.
Damn you times two. :zap:



AAAHH. Post 700. Happy now. :3

[Charleigh]

My christmas was fucked but hey ho plenty more to come.
Lost my boyfriend 2 days ago the cunt.
Im going out with my ex and we started going out the day my ex dumped me :D
The fact the doctor still hasn't given me fucking phycho meds

[Magenta]

My existence is worthless.

[Mutibann]

life

[Sire]

Won't be able to see my boyfriend for 3 weeks due to F*cking debate tournaments.

[tak011]

Girlfriend of 2 years dumped me a while back, but now she's starting to see someone else. They went on a date and slept together. I was starting to feel a bit better...

[Kdude146]

found out my aunt has cancer at dinner yesterday and being all alone right now on new years eve

[Charleigh]

Im back with my ex and its depressing because its new years but old news
and im sat with bittle of vodka on my ones drinking for the fun of it

[Love.Hate]

What he did to me.

:(

[Iris]

Hope. it's such a little bitch. It plays with you and then crushes you like a bug.

[wattado]

being to scared to trust people :(

[AppealToReason]

Being useless to everyone I know.
...and to myself.

[bena3217]

just the usual stuff...dad shiting me out about everything...ugh...just dont want to do anything anymore...

[Gordo]

nothing is depressing me, but i'm not psyched for school on wed.

[maramara]

The fact that my stepdad almost called the cops on me today and my mother won't even look at me..

[black thirteenth]

Every time I am going to see the girl I love something happens to stop us meeting and as its been 2 months and I get the feeling fate doesn't want us to be together

[OnlyByTheNight.]

What my mother said to me is making me feel like total shite :'(

[Iris]

I'm so lonely...

[Magenta]

The emptiness I can't cure... not with meds, or self harm or drugs or alcohol. Not with friends or family or anyone. Certainly not myself.

[Rayquaza]

I woke up late today. Im depressed.

[jimmyboy92]

I should've gone to a car meet today with a forum.........however I couldn't go because I'm effectively scared that I'll sh*t myself while I'm out. And ironically did have an IBS issue just before lunch so just as well that I didn't go. :(

Also had to pass up an oppertunity to go to a car show about 3hrs drive away next thursday, it wouldve been awesome but again, I can't go. Eurgh, FML!!

[trzxv515]

Loneliness... As always.

[Craig1995]

I start back at school tomorrow coz it's the end if Christmas holidays -___- My mum and dad are getting divorced because my mum 'can't handle me' my best friends eating disorder Is getting worse I need a cigarette I lost my I pod and I seem to be invisible to everyone at the moment.

[TheHumanSpirit]

One of the best friends and I got into a fight. Supposedly, I misunderstood something he said before, which was kinda the intro to the argument (which went beyond just something stupid he said). He ended the convo because he didn't feel like talking anymore.

[December]

I don't know how to help one of my good friends through this tough time he's going through and it makes me sad.

[jimmyboy92]

No money and no job.............fed up of looking for a job and getting nowhere. :(

[Iris]

never felt this worthless in my life.

[jimmyboy92]

Fed up of not being able to do stuff that most people take for granted.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

My mother just pretended today that nothing had happened, like she never had said those things. She's a cowerd if she won't say it to my face.

[Love.Hate]

How after five days im still sore and its not helping the urges.

[Jupiter]

yeah. thanks for caring, vt. it means a whole fucking lot. 45 thousand plus members and youd think someone would reply.

[Carlyle]

This is my last night of freedom before I go back to school and I can't even sleep. Why me?

[Nelson]

Everything, the past more specifically.

[caden048]

my mom and the fact that i feel like i will never find someone...

[OnlyByTheNight.]

My exam results will be out soon and I'm pretty sure I failed. FML =/

[Stronger]

Tbh, idk...I just feel down

[Carlyle]

I'm not tired at all and I have school tomorrow.. :(

[Abyssal Echo]

I thought I met a really nice guy.....the big bonus was he was cute tooo.....boy was I wrong.....I was stupid.....I believed he really cared......then he came off with all kinds of bs....wanting to send me nude pics of him.....man I didn't need this crap.....I wanted him...... All I wanted was to get 2 know someone who wanted 2 know me for me.... like is that too much to ask ???? guess so maybe I should hop a buss and go down there he says they shoot strangers and gay bois there at least my pain would be gone.

[jimmyboy92]

I can't do anything I want to do..........infact I don't even know what I want anymore, I've spent too long thinking about what I CAN do rather than what I WANT to do. :(

[deadpie]

Realizing over and over that I've been wanting to kill myself just about daily for the past seven years and spent four years depressed as a kid. Can't remember squat shit before the age of six and wouldn't be surprised if I wasn't a smiling bag of fucking rainbows then too.

Starting to realize now that happiness is temporary and only lasts for a few hours at a time. How the fuck do you stay alive living like this fucking piece of garbage? It's 3:32 AM in the fucking morning and I have an alarm clock at 6:30 AM ready to go off for my new semester of community college. I'll fail every fucking class too I bet.

Just keep trying and pushing, expecting something still. It's fucking miserable. I keep going on, even though there's been instances when I've attempted suicide, but after those instances I keep going, only for more and more shit to happen. What really would make the difference is a shotgun. My dad recently bought one and I've been really thinking about how I'd like to blast my fucking brains out into a river with a brick tied to my foot.

I've cheated death so many fucking times - already once this year. I'm wondering how many rematches he's going to throw out. I mean, I'd gladly die, but something just fucking wants me to stay alive and feel like complete and utter fucking shit EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY OF THIS STUPID FUCKING LIFE. And I'm just fucking sick of it. Just fucking through with trying to smile, pretend everything is so UPPITY FUCKING DANDY like a Caterpillar on a fucking dandelion.

[SimSailorNick]

I posted a video and then my friends shared it. A lot of people liked and commented on his share while only 6 liked my video. :(

[AppealToReason]

Nothing and everything. Fuck, I feel lonely right now for some reason. School sucks, but I can't miss much more, so time to put on that fake smile...

[Carlyle]

The fact that the guy I like is ignoring me.. My day was fine other than that..

[Desuetude]

The fact that this bitchy girl in my options group was picking on me saying stuff like 'oh your so beautiful, i wish i had your face' yeah it was sarcastic. i just kept my head down whilst her and her mates laughed at me. I just wanted to fucking scream at her. Yeah what a way to boost peoples self esteem and it put me on a low as it brought back memories from the past :(

[AppealToReason]

My family. Can't fucking stand them and their lies anymore. Especially my brother and mother. FUCK, I keep asking for him to go home, but my grandma is like my mom's bitch. It's fucking pathetic to see her let her own kid boss her around.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I need to leave some way. Runaway, OD, die, I don't care. I don't want to be here anymore.
FUCK

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Everything :(

[Stronger]

How I see my "friend" in the hall....he doesnt even talk to me anymore....:/

[dark_soul777]

SOPA, PIPA and my 0 days :(

[Iris]

why is it so hard? why does something so beautiful constantly get beaten down?

I love you, don't let these things get to you ok?

[dark_soul777]

I have to tell my best friend I cut, there's no way I can back out now.

[Desuetude]

That no one understands me and im really losing hope in life.
I dont know where i stand anymore so really?, whats the point??

[Magenta]

My mum decided that I was psychotic and decided to scream it in my face. You know, she doesn't want to be the one to find me dead in the bathtub one day. Well, she just guaranteed she won't be the one to find me... doesn't mean I'll still be alive though.

[Ambrosia]

I'll be moving out soon, and today I've realized that I don't know if I can handle having to be responsible for my own bills.

[Princess Ariel]

The fact that my Mom did not seem to think that I had feelings.
That she could just scream at me, and that I would fix it when it was out of my control.

[insanity]

I trusted him, again.

[Carlyle]

The fact that I have school tomorrow and I have a class with him... being around you is so hard, but being oblivious about it drives me crazy.

[Jupiter]

school tomorrow. can't. sleep.

[AppealToReason]

I feel shitty and alone tonight.
School tomorrow. Doubt I'll remember most of it. Why do I keep doing this?

[Carlyle]

Its 2 am and I have school today. I haven't slept and I have to be up in 4 hours.. ugh.

[trzxv515]

It was the first day of classes today. The more I hang out with people, the more I feel loneliness. It's like a slap in my face that even though people are actually around me, I'm still alone..

[Princess Ariel]

The fact that when I turned my phone on, I came to find that it was flooded with death threats, and death wishes.

[Magenta]

I feel like I need to learn to stay out of other people's lives.

[Carlyle]

Him.. Why can't you just tell me? Please. I want to know..

[Jupiter]

i have solo and ensamble in less that 7 hours and i can't sleep.

[Magenta]

All I can think about are the cravings... to feel light-headed and giddy and everything else that comes with throwing away my sanity to chemicals.

[Rawiyah]

I am sick of my parents acting like it's a sin for me to be "different".

[Princess Ariel]

I was pushed around the school again by these bully's. They found where I eat lunch on Day 1's and they waited their for me.

[Carlyle]

Just today in general. I feel like its a test, but.. I don't care. End already.

[Situations]

What my friend Casey is doing to herself.
She told me earlier today.

[Magenta]

That I'm hungover and sore for who knows what reason.

[Djentleman]

Still being ill and in pain. The weather outside is no help either.

[Wicked_Syn]

My new cell phone wont come in the mail until either Saturday or Monday!! To much waiting!!

[Princess Ariel]

I have to do everything myself today. Plus, I have tutoring and have to show a person the way to the house even though I don't speak to her.

[dark_soul777]

School go's back tomorrow. I already feel pretty horrible and just the thought of it makes me want to die. I should be asleep now, but once again I can't; I just know I'll be awake all night.

[Mortal Coil]

Everytime I close my eyes all I can think about is saturday night.

[Love.Hate]

Every single thing.

Cant find anything that isnt really :(

[xXl0sth0peXx]

Everyfuckingthing. and last night's OD.. >_<

[xDarkAngelx]

Everything really.

[Stronger]

Got the worse news today, that my Grandma isn't well and shes taking a turn for the worse and her time is running out :( :(

[Princess Ariel]

CAS got to involved and i'm freaking out

[Desuetude]

That a friend is in trouble and hurting and I can't do anything about it.
I really want to help him but i don't know how :'(

[Carlyle]

No one's realized it like I did. If they did, they don't care enough to mention it. Why?

[Bath]

Anxiety over growing old one day. I really don't want that.

[Princess Ariel]

That I keep on missing out on my fun subjects because i'm talking to so many people.

[Stronger]

Saw my nan just now, shes was so tired or so out of it she barley spoke to me, which never happens :(, she kept mentioning death and dying and that upset me and my sister, shes not in pain so that makes me happy, I just want her to be happy.

*~Love you Grandma~* <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[Kdude146]

the fact that someone I thoght was my friend is starting drama and making up lies about me

[Princess Ariel]

That I have to go home at lunch for "Daughter , mother counselling" But I don't know what's going to be said to mom before I am allowed in the room.

[Mortal Coil]

That my friend told me about her suicide attempts. Mercy, if you can see this, I'm still here. If you commit suicide I'll see you in hell, I won't be that far behind.

[Love.Hate]

Going to spend a weekend with no wifi and just my mind :S

[Stronger]

That I don't know how long my grandma has left :(

[Say It Aint Tim]

Not shit!

[Kdude146]

got my hours cut from 10 to 5 a week at work

[Iris]

I am going to kill myself tomorrow if this keeps up. I'm fucking sick of this.

[Princess Ariel]

I lost one of my friends that I trusted with my life.
She decided that I was being selfish since I'm not telling her every detail of my life.
Sad thing is.
I can't avoid her since we see each other both first and last class every school day.

[Carlyle]

The twist to getting my phone. Fuck.

[Bath]

I find myself wanting to live and I feel so vulnerable.

Nonchalance toward death is so freeing, but recently I've been feeling a bit more hopeful and it's bittersweet.

[PoseidonX43]

everything.. TT~TT

[Desuetude]

That when my mother says she loves me I can not say it honestly back...

[Magenta]

I'm wishing I could go buy more... I'd rather be high.

[Mortal Coil]

I have class tomorrow, which means I will get bored. and when I get bored my mind starts to wander.

My mind always wanders to the same place, and all I want to do is burn that place down.

[Shamwow_Me]

My mother is being a asshole today like everyday. I ask her if i can get some shampoo outta her room so that i can wash my hair and she tells me no beacause the shampoo belongs to her and she does'nt want me to use it a. SHAMPOO?! who bitches about shampoo! IT'S SOAP, YOU CANT BE SELFISH WITH SOAP ! sotimes i feel like she does things on purpose just to hurt me and see me feeling down. i think she likes seeing me in pain... FML :(

[Magenta]

It hurts so much seeing her so sad and I can't do a thing.

[Princess Ariel]

Worst.Hangover.Ever.

[Situations]

A better question is what isn't.

[Rayquaza]

These fucking exam results.

[Fiction]

The fact that happiness is all one big fucking lie.

[Love.Hate]

Hurting him :(

Wish I could wear a real smile for once too! That's getting me Down :/

[Desuetude]

Im now SH for other people and it doesn't even bloody help them!

[Mortal Coil]

Every time I try to drift off to sleep I get bombarded by the same image:
Me choking on his cock. I hate him so fucking much. I hate myself even more. And I can't fucking sleep.

[Princess Ariel]

I burnt my self straightening my bangs.

[Love.Hate]

People being so creul and calling me horrid things. They just dont get it :(

[Seang246]

The fact that I've never had a girl friend and I'm now 19.. I don't know if it's my looks or what but it seems pretty well impossible to get a girl to even look at me. Maybe I'll post a pic and someone can judge.

http://m377.photobucket.com/albumview/albums/sean2446/IMG_0425.jpg.html?o=1&newest=1

[xDarkAngelx]

Everything really at the moment.

[Carlyle]

I did shit terrible tonight at my County's Spelling Bee..

[BORZME]

Life.
It does it for me every time

[Stronger]

Oh jeez, what isnt depressing me today, ummm school, family, my lack of friends, my looks, I feel no one cares :\, oh well

[Princess Ariel]

Everything.. Every fucking thing. Huge panic attack during last period today.
I come home and get told that on Monday I have to get a shot, meanwhile TOMORROW I'm getting one.
That's not even getting somewhere.

[Carlyle]

Picking freshman classes, so close to high school.,,

[Electra Heart]

Well, I looked outside... It's snowing... and now I'm sad... weird shit happens like this all the time...

[Iris]

Things are finally beginning to go right, and I'm so miserable. Why am I always miserable. I want to die but I'm not supposed to want to. I don't know what to do. I just want to sleep for a week and wake up to the only happiness in my horizon. But instead I have to endure shit all day and push myself to endure shit the following day. Life's a bitch.

[Iron Man]

I'm in agony because of her. I can't go a day without her in my mind. I think its safe to say she broke my heart. What's done is done, though. She is happy with him, and I'm in hell.

[Princess Ariel]

I have to get a shot today and the doctor might see the cuts on my arm. ><

[Mortal Coil]

my brother went into my room out of "boredom" and fucked my shit up. All the hings I hid have been found. I have no privacy left.
I feel like the one part of my life I had some control over has suddenly disappeared.

[Breakeven]

normal bs and the fact i should study cham and im soo not in the mood for studying i just want to relax ^_^

i change what i wrote earlier , my mom and her not ending talking and judgment and the fact i cut again after i was trying to stop -_- and i thou i was having a good day turns out NOT!

Merged, please don't double post, use the edit button instead. ~georgiamay.

[Desuetude]

I make everyone elses lives more difficult or just miserable.
They would have it so much easier if i had the courage to give up completely.

[Mutibann]

School - It never ceases to depress me

[Love.Hate]

My break down.

[Fiction]

I'm scared as fuck that i'm pregnant :/ And yes i'm aware i'm a whore.

[Princess Ariel]

Everything. Just everything.

[canadaski]

I'm extremely attracted to a friend that has no idea I'm into him. Along with that, noting else seems to be going well.

[Fairytale]

My friend messaged my mom on facebook and told her that I'm suicidal and that I cut. :/ I'm so SCARED to leave my room. I just want to disappear.

[Bath]

It's 1am and my mom isn't home yet.

I'm giving her until 5:30am (the time I usually wake up for school) and if she's still not here I'm gonna call her, if no answer, I'm calling 911, I'm legitimately nervous, she was just visiting my aunt and has work tomorrow (today lol) and she doesn't do this :/

[Desuetude]

ARGH, i hate the feeling of being something my parents can just throw to each other whenever they feel like it. My mother is having friends round in half an hour and because we are inconveniant being here we are beng sent to dads early. It annoys the hell out of me that she says "im trying to make it easier for you" YOU ARE NOT, you just make everything worse so please, just stop trying, please...

When do we get a choice in this, when do we get to decide whats conveniant for us?

[Princess Ariel]

I gave 2 hints to the person I liked and it didn't seem like she cared for it.

[Jimmy Page]

Everything... : /

[fire and water]

I just really, really find that i hate everything about myself today.

[Magenta]

I could write a whole long post about what's depressing me today but I'll sum it up in one word: her.

[xDarkAngelx]

Among other things, knowing just how worthless I really am.

[Abyssal Echo]

Am kinda depressed over having to get rid of some of my dogs. I adopted out one today
she went to a super home. On one hand I'm happy she got a good home. on the other I am super bummed out that shes gone. Only been gone about an hour I miss her already.:(

[Princess Ariel]

My grades.

[Carlyle]

That decision..

[Stronger]

That my mom, could have cancer yet again, its sad cause shes just sick of these tests and well being sick. She told me that my dad actually cried alot, which is very very rare. I just try not to think about, I do hope the results come back as it being just a normal [insert word here](kinda like tumor but starts with a "N" non-cancerous.

[Breakeven]

being sick n life n that fact my life is pretty fuked up

[Mortal Coil]

The fact that I'm huge and fat and it's obscenely hot out so people were looking at me funny for wearing long sleeves.
I wer them for a reason, but only one person understood it. Everyone else just thought I was stupid.
Oh, wait. That too...
I'm just a stupid bitch who gets in the way of everything and everyone.
I destroy ebverything I fucking touch, that's what's depressing me.

[Dark_Desires]

My hole fucking life.And also my family not caring if i cut.Ahh well guess il go back to cuting and been the shit person i am :(

[TeddyBearRock]

my mum has a bf and he just keeps bothering me when i just want to be left alone

[Princess Ariel]

Waking up at 1 45am today, and the day has just begun..

[Sonic Boom]

The weather. <sigh...>

[Mutibann]

It's my birthday...I hate my birthday

[Desuetude]

Everyones arguing, nothings going right, i tried to kill myself and failed miserably.

Probably the worst day yet.

[Mortal Coil]

The fact that I'm the ugly duckling who is always surrounded by people like this:http://www.musicasia.net/wp-content/uploads/2009/07/girl-generation-02.jpg

[Djentleman]

The thought of knowing that I'm back in the predicament of being a social outcast.

[Mortal Coil]

grades.

[Bath]

I cut.
I feel myself shutting down.
Everything feels slower.

I feel very numb and uncaring and apathetic.

[Love.Hate]

How he can live without a care in the world, party, drink and be happy after what he did and I'm still terrified of leaving the house.

[RAWWR]

Breathing. I don't want to breathe anymore. The fact that my heart's still beating but i'm in so much emotional pain that it physically feels like it's breaking...

[TeddyBearRock]

my dad made me walk home in the freezing cold last night

[Mutibann]

My grandfather is coming to visit today and he always makes fun of my weight :(

[Princess Ariel]

Hungover.. again..

[Djentleman]

I couldn't get one bit of help when I needed it most.

[RAWWR]

The fact that nobody seems to care unless i'm hurting myself...

[Djentleman]

that Thrice are calling it a day.

[Magenta]

I'm up so fucking early for a useless reason.

[Mortal Coil]

I broke down and cried in school today, and I'm fucking ugly when I cry. I'm ugly anyway, but it's worse when I cry. I had to go to class with my splotchy crying face on.

[Princess Ariel]

I did not sleep at all last night, and I have to get Blood Work done this afternoon..

[Desuetude]

Dads switched off wireless and taken all the leads so i can not get onto the internet. To bad that he underesimated me and i just took the one from the TV.
Urgh, he thinks i have no social life and am some loner because im always on the laptop but really its because id rather talk to people on the internet instead of "socialising" with family.
How i love my parents not understanding one thing about me!

[TeddyBearRock]

mum want to restricted my laptop time

[beebs]

Had a massive argument with my bestfriend. And now i just want to die.

[Jupiter]

my dad has cancer.

[Djentleman]

my dad has cancer.

Grim man, sorry to hear that.

[Princess Ariel]

Everything. Just. Everything.