What's depressing you today?

[Tesserax]

It feels like nothing's going my way, and when it does it just falls apart eventually

[City Kid]

My new, sick routine. I'm alright during the day, then I'm depressed every single fucking night and then it starts all over again.

[The37thElement]

The INAPPROPRIATE amount of homework I have in the next two days.

[Professional Russian]

The fact that I can't help my bestfriend

[Hideous]

People, school, and my parents.

[WanderingHeart]

What ISN'T depressing me today?

[Let Me Be a Pony]

I keep dreaming of nutjobs being in my room with screwdrivers and 150GB hard drives in their hands. Then they keep knocking down my door. Woke up scared again.

[roadwarrior]

I food that I ate maybe it was now expired or what

[Cognizant]

I'm failing every single class I'm in, and my health condition isn't improving. To add fuel to the fire, my dad is being unreasonably apprehensive about scheduling a doctor's appointment and trying to find every excuse in the book to not do it.
I'm also lonely af and need a bf :)))))))

[The37thElement]

I keep dreaming of nutjobs being in my room with screwdrivers and 150GB hard drives in their hands. Then they keep knocking down my door. Woke up scared again.

OFF T: Dude, free storage! :D

ON T: I have the shits and am extremely nauseated for no reason whatsoever.

[Hideous]

School, ugh.

[Let Me Be a Pony]

OFF T: Dude, free storage! :D

ON T: I have the shits and am extremely nauseated for no reason whatsoever.

Dude, he stole my hard drive!
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Nothing much to do for today, I'm bored and will be for almost 24 hours.

[City Kid]

My anxiety.

[romes3]

Stress is everywhere.

[WanderingHeart]

I can't do the things that other people can do because of my parents...

[Andyyy95]

I can't do the things that other people can do because of my parents...
Like what? If you don't mind me asking :-/

[Andyyy95]

Constantly feeling lonely, and it won't go awayyyy :(

[City Kid]

Nothing. Wow.

[Dark_Desires]

I'm back in the same stupid situation and letting it all get to me.
Oh and the fact i'm fighting with everyone and i just want to try and kill myself again.

Oh add to the list the Animation Industry and the person i love.

[WanderingHeart]

I want to go out and have fun like everyone else but I'm stuck here.

[City Kid]

I keep procrastinating.

[Microcosm]

The passivity of life. Like always. I have this nagging feeling that my life will just end one day and, after that, what will matter? Will I be remembered? And even if I am, will that matter? After all, what is the worth of other people praising you? I won't even know them. Is it worthwhile to help others? Truly, is it? They, too, will pass as you will. Therefore, what is worth my time? What is worth putting my life towards if it is fated to end one day? I'm depressed because I have to live day by day not knowing where I should be going. I know what I want to do with my life, but I'm afraid that it inevitably doesn't matter what I do. None of it truly makes an everlasting difference.

[Let Me Be a Pony]

The sunrise i'll miss.

[City Kid]

Those fucking nightmares.

[Afroki]

School

[Tesserax]

I feel like my life is falling apart. I feel like a complete wreck.

Nothing but resent, self-pity, and just straight up depression on the inside

[Abyssal Echo]

My Uncle was in the hospital a couple of weeks ago. I thought he was going to be Ok. Turns out he's really sick :(

[WanderingHeart]

-My best friend is really sick, and she's stressed out with school.

-People in my school making cutting/depression/suicide/emo/etc jokes that aren't funny.

-People in my school talking about how LGBT is disgusting, etc.

-My motivation

-So much more...

[Tesserax]

Can't find a place on my body to cut that nobody will see, that I'm willing to cut...

[Let Me Be a Pony]

Thoughts from a few days ago: When I was asked about the scars on my hand, I had to lie on how I got them. Didn't feel natural.

[Let Me Be a Pony]

Out of food.

[xXoblivionXx]

the fact that if anything were to happen to my parents/family. I wouldn't be able to recover. They're the only reason I'm still alive

[The37thElement]

I have to miss three days of school to go to a conference that I don't care one bit about. I'll just do my homework during the middle of it because I can.

[Dalcourt]

my dad's laziness

[Let Me Be a Pony]

Another boring day, in which I got nothing to do, besides lurk the web.

[WanderingHeart]

I don't know whats going to happen to me next.

[rioo]

Not depression but I just feel a bit sad. I was in airport this morning and saw a boy crying when he was waiting for her mom coffin appear from airplane, that is so sad. Officer said he lost her mom right on mothers day few days ago in accident. Both his parent in crash. I'm sorry for him.
really can't imagine myself in his situation.:(

[Abyssal Echo]

School

[Babs]

Feeling alone.

[LucieP]

There's one male white rhino left in the whole world. Because stupid humans keep killing them for their horns. Now this one white rhino has four armed bodyguards day and night. Sometimes I feel ashamed to be a human being for what weve done to Nature.

[Ridonks_CB]

More attacks on Gaza..

[WanderingHeart]

Not even the internet likes me, god damn.

[Abhorrence]

Ugh revising is literally killing my life.

[Ridonks_CB]

School school and school

[Uranus]

A conversation with someone

[Dark_Desires]

Another fight with my bestfriend and nothing changing.
Struggling to drag myself out of this depressive state.
That i don't have a gun to shoot myself with already.

[Croconaw]

I'm waiting for a message from my friend on YouTube and I didn't receive it yet.

[Vocabulous]

Very lonely in the last few weeks. Friends are few and far between, and I have no one to talk to, or at least no one who'll listen. coincidentally it is also prom today. I am not attending.

[Echelon]

Just...school. Just, everything in school. Especially those science essays where you have to get into the mechanics of everything.
Oh, and let's not forget about being in the closet and living a lie everyday!

[Babs]

The realization that because of my situation I can do nothing but pass time until it is solved, and there is little I can do to make the time until I can make a change count.

[Ridonks_CB]

Idiots that don't freaking listen.

[earl_hun]

Losing another friend, starting to get alone

[Abyssal Echo]

It's a beautiful day and I've got work to do

[WanderingHeart]

Everything.

[Cognizant]

i got dumped.

[WanderingHeart]

I just don't belong.

[Ridonks_CB]

Was reminded I pretty much shouldn't exist. Yay.

[WanderingHeart]

I keep getting looks...

[Bluebyrd]

My 85 year old neighbour died a few days ago :(

[Melkor]

Too much left over work that I can't force myself to do...

[WanderingHeart]

...nnn..everything...

[MeliWelli]

Hope everyone feels better, found out my best friend and her family are moving :(

[WanderingHeart]

Stupid family ruins everything...

[Professional Russian]

Surprising not a damn thing...now as always that's liable to change by the end of the day and it probably will

[GinaM]

My mom passed away last month, and I am missing her so much

[Abyssal Echo]

I got the news today that a long time family friend died.

[MasterOfPuppets]

It's just been a bad day. Nothing goes the way it should and I'm just watching it, not being able to do anything about it. Had my heart broken twice in a day. I feel like my own pride is killing me. Barely slept last night, had a nightmare. Woke up early, going to sleep late again. Have been studying for hours. Nothing makes sense at the moment. I'm at this point where I have no idea where it goes from here and I don't even know how I feel about it. I'm just trying to keep myself together but it's getting harder with each day. It's not like I'm going to break, but I'm getting tired of acting strong in front of the world.

[xXoblivionXx]

I'm hanging by a thread :(

[Chaotic Trickster]

The fact that I am sick.

[Chileanboy]

I moved back to Chile and I had just gotten off school and I have to enter to school right now due to the different school year schedule. :(

[Nick M]

I'm depressed because my grandma died a couple weeks ago and we were very close. She was like a second mother to me. Pretty much everything I own is from her. 3 weeks ago she died and I still can't even process this that she's gone. Everytime I go in her room I expect her to be laying there. I really miss her :(

[Mil1dreded]

My gran died last Sunday

[KMoon]

I've liked a girl for 5 years and I'm a girl ��
I'm closeted ^^ and I'm very scared that I might be bi
My ex boyfriend wants to commit suicide
My best friend is depressed
School is stressing me out
I haven't eaten for two days because of her...

[Primenumber]

I am lonely and always misunderstood

[Jaffe]

Being labeled and categorized and filed away.
Its not too late though. If I get outside real soon, I think I can stop it before it gets bad. Like multi-day bad.

[Aisha]

Really great thought

[Magenta]

Father's Day without a father.

[Miserabilia]

The fact that I can't replace my dead friend and I don't have much other friends

[Emerald Dream]

Just....today. I hate today.

[Beth]

Being rainy and dreary

[Hessy_323]

Not being able to hang with my best friends.

[Hideous]

Do people even care?

I do so fucking much for them.

[Primenumber]

I am worried
It's taking over my life
It stops me from enjoying today

[Beth]

Dads birthday is tomorrow and he has passed away 6 years ago.

[Fraidy Cat]

The fact that I have to wait 2 months before seeing any of my friends

[Cognizant]

I just wish I was somebody else.
Yeah, yeah. Everyone says that. But Patrick M. has nothing going for him. :\

[Abhorrence]

I just hate the seemingly eternal nothingness in my life.

[Cognizant]

I'm constantly misunderstood because people don't get the fact that I have no aspirations.

[rioo]

My parents fighting.

[The37thElement]

The only friend I have is 3,500 miles away from me and I may never see her again.

[Dune]

I'm quite depressed after looking at the education statistics and rankings of the United States. Switzerland here I come!

[Jaffe]

The world. And everything in it.

[WorldOfFun]

Crashed my new car today :(:(:(

[Vermilion]

I don't know I was getting better now I feel back to the start again.

[xXoblivionXx]

I was driving and I saw him running in practice. I saw him and I started to panic, why do I panic so easily? I brought this upon myself.

[Professional Russian]

Still the lack of my best friend being around. I miss her so fucking much. Everyday I wish I were with her. everyday I think about her. Wonder if she's happy or not. I miss you
..

[YouTube]

Why have a positive attitude when the feeling is immediately obliterated by someone having a bad day. I.E: Last night I was told to not tip the pizza man and he said "wow no tip for the pizza delivery guy? I feel the love" then threw the receipt at me and walked off. I've had just evil feelings since then because why take your anger out on someone(me) that honestly has no control over the situation?

[YouTube]

Still the lack of my best friend being around. I miss her so fucking much. Everyday I wish I were with her. everyday I think about her. Wonder if she's happy or not. I miss you
..

I lost a friend (she got accepted into a Dance school) too this past school year. I won't see her again and I really hate it. I talked to her almost everyday and she always made me feel great. Whenever I think about it ( the fact that we won't share classes nor will we even see each other around school) depresses me more and more. We'll get through this man

[Professional Russian]

That my now ex best friend treated me like shit when I was trying to help her. Wants be a bitch. Fine I'm fucking done.

[Desuetude]

My fucking binder still hasn't arrived and I'm getting increasingly more anxious going outside without it. I'm seriously debating whether to use bandages until it gets here.
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Pissed the fuck off that 3 years later trying to get my fitness up again and anaemia is still preventing me from doing that. 30 minutes doing lengths all the while trying not to pass out or cramp up in the pool, get out and actually fall over because my head is spinning so much. 20 minutes later and I'm still breathing heavily, having palpitations and shaking all over.

Just want to get my fucking stamina up but no, I can't do that if I'm about to pass out after doing the smallest amount of exercise.

(It's funny that one of my first ever threads on this site was in sports and fitness asking why I felt like I was going to pass out whilst I was swimming. That's one thing that hasn't changed since I joined VT)

[xXoblivionXx]

for the longest time I've feared falling apart... now I realize, I already have.

[Dalcourt]

I don't know what I want ...that's really getting me down.

[StoppingTom]

My ex is telling other friends that she "hates herself" for what she did to me, yet hasn't spoken to me at all, and this is coming a month later. It's put me in such a state that this is the closest I've considered ending it just because of how awful people are.

[Jason173771]

My ex is telling other friends that she "hates herself" for what she did to me, yet hasn't spoken to me at all, and this is coming a month later. It's put me in such a state that this is the closest I've considered ending it just because of how awful people are.
This is just coming from my perspective, but just tell her to screw off. She is an ex for a reason. If she wanted to do something about it then she should have done something a long time ago or just didnt do what ever she did to you. And dont end it. There are more people than you realize that will miss you. I hope this helps.

[Karkat]

I miss Charlie. A lot.

[Abhorrence]

Life, in general. I don't even know how I'm still breathing.

[Abyssal Echo]

We had to put one of my dogs to sleep yesterday. I got a big reality check this morning when I went to feed and water my dogs this morning. Not thinking I took him food and water..... :cry: RIP buddy

[Jaffe]

A friend of mine got into trouble and we don't know what will happen to him.
Makes me really sad right now, just the unknown, and the fact that it happened.

[Dusk]

Uhm...let me see....Everything.

[Karkat]

I'm actually feeling pretty good today. If anything, it's that I'm broke and my fingers hurt so playing guitar won't be so easy until tomorrow

[xXoblivionXx]

my brain wont stop thinking about everything.. how do i turn it off

[Let Me Be a Pony]

No one to talk to.

[Andyyy95]

Thinking about stuff / feeling lonely.

[Primenumber]

My mom's bad mood

[Celtics]

Getting a text at 1 am that wasn't meant for me and was talking shit about me behind my back and a friend blowing me off. Great summer

[Brellen]

Missing old friends, the good times we had.

[Desuetude]

Social and top dysphoria has gotten worse since I've been on holiday. Feel so uncomfortable and anxious being outside and even being inside with my family has been difficult.

[Magenta]

I'm probably going to try to kill myself again and it's hilarious because I've been lying to my doctor for months now about feeling fine.

[Riley2015]

Being grounded :(

[Abyssal Echo]

Two more of my dogs are sick.

[xXoblivionXx]

I feel so empty

[Let Me Be a Pony]

Insomnia is not improving, sigh.

[StoppingTom]

My ex (see my thread if you aren't familiar with the story) sent out this long twitter rant how she wishes I'd unblock her and she misses me and still loves me. It's all bullshit but I'm so tempted to believe it's true.

[giles2603]

Everything, the past few years have been bad and it just keeps getting worse. The only reason I'm here is because I can't put my family through the sudden pain. They have no idea how I feel and what I've been through. I try but nothing improves.

[dxcxdzv]

I have no VT diary. :'(

[Abhorrence]

The fact that simple conversation still proves difficult to me. I fricking hate anxiety.

[Meh Guy]

My job :c

[xXoblivionXx]

I've run out of words to describe what I'm feeling

[BlackParadePixie]

My boyfriend leaving for college a week from today...

[Abhorrence]

The stupidest little things can change my mood so fucking drastically.

[xXoblivionXx]

being so alone

[Zynicker]

This
The fact that simple conversation still proves difficult to me. I fricking hate anxiety.

...and this
being so alone

....and my girlfriend who got pissed at me for a joke about a mutual friend, didn't speak to me for about 2 weeks, apologized a few days ago......and is doing the same thing again for the last 3 days. I know, fun.

[xXoblivionXx]

tension at home, I keep thinking about him, & I'm anxious about my workload this school year

[Dalcourt]

that I started smoking weed again

[Abyssal Echo]

Another one of my dogs is sick.

[Abhorrence]

Life in general.

[xXoblivionXx]

barely got out of bed today :(

[tovaris]

This is the longest summer i will ever have and i aparently eint doing nothing with it...

[Let Me Be a Pony]

Sprayed the floor with bug spray cuz of roaches, and my dog got poisoned because of that.
Hope everything turns out fine.

[Abhorrence]

Thinking about everything. The past, especially. My friend mentioned "memories" earlier and it's made me think about so much. I hate the past and I hate memories, I try so hard to erase them but it never works.

[itschilled]

What's depressing you today? Girl who i wanted to be with found a guy, Tomorrow would be my ex's and i's anniversary, i still think of her alot even though its been months since we broke up. im planning a trip to the beach with some of the lads and im stressed about how we gonna get there since i dont have my licence yet, and im taking the test in september. And Of course EXAMS, my final ones, but iv been depressed about the ex ^ and yeah with that depression i dont really have self confidence to actually talk to girls and hang out.. but yea life goes on i guess..

[davdev17]

School starts in a week.

[leskas]

there are so many stupid things that make me feel depressed
rain, for example :(
and what about you?

[Rocketsnail]

What's got me down today? The same crap that gets me down every other day. I feel very lonely, and on top of that my sexuality just hurts for some reason

[Interstellar]

I'm just so stressed out about everything...life in general really. I overthink even the simplest things way too much and it's to the point now where I know that I'm the only one who can do anything about it. It just sucks.

[Chriskey2015]

Im so depressed with my school projects :/

[xXoblivionXx]

XC is making me anxious and sad but it's in my control, unlike my depression which I have no control of

[atifsinner]

My upcoming exams

[Dalcourt]

the stupidity of people I have to deal with.

[Januarist2000]

People messing with me, my mom going through a lot

[Hideous]

The fact that I have social anxiety. I can't even order food or talk on the phone.

[lliam]

I'm just depressed cause nothing depresses me.

[Professional Russian]

Because I still miss my old best friend...I found a replacement but its not the same. I miss her so fucking much. I wish she knew....

[Abhorrence]

Results SUUUUUUUUUUUUCKED.

[SethfromMI]

idiots that is what is depressing me today

[xXoblivionXx]

realizing that I fell for a fuck boy :/

[Januarist2000]

Wishing he'd know what I'm helping

[Abhorrence]

The fact that I just woke up at 3am, threw up and still feel drunk.

[Cognizant]

realizing that I fell for a fuck boy :/

Worst feeling ever.

I'm depressed on the note that I was only hanging out with literally my friend and his sister, but it still made me too uncomfortable. I cried quietly and stealthily after.

[xXoblivionXx]

I saw him today and I got real defensive and anxious. I hate myself when I see him because I see how stupid and desperate I am. I wasted my first kiss on him... and some other firsts :( I fucking hate him, the concept of him. that I fell for him but more importantly it was just as much my fault as it was his.

[Januarist2000]

Someone I talk to, whom I'm there only friend went off on me because I asked if she had moved. I thought or was a bit rude, but just shoved it off

[xXoblivionXx]

I don't deserve love

[SethfromMI]

Jordy Nelson pretty much got a season ending injury

[wolf g]

good and exiting to know what will happen to me today

[Januarist2000]

My neck hurting

[PoseidonX43]

The fact I'm feeling like total shit, being heart-broken sucks....

[Uranus]

Family

[Januarist2000]

This guy...

[Let Me Be a Pony]

Didn't get wrecked with my high school friends today.
Was told there may be a reunion and that I'd be called when there's more information about what time of the day we are meeting.
Instead, I spent the day in home, waiting for a call all night.
I guess it wasn't time to get schwifty.

[impan1019]

quite honestly the fact that im a shitty writer

[xXoblivionXx]

I don't really have friends

[everlong]

I haven't done jack shit all day

[Dalcourt]

bad memories

[Januarist2000]

http://hostthenpost.org/uploads/c537a2a716ec4ca9d9c5f32095932ff1.jpg (http://hostthenpost.org)

My phone...... is gone(until it gets back in stock to be replaced)

Fell out of my pocket on a ride at the state fair

[ObliviousCat]

I'm pretty sure my relationship is fucked over...or at least we aren't and possibly won't ever be the same again. Worst of all it's my fault because I couldn't and maybe can't get over something he's done in the past and I can't move forward. My mental illnesses (depression and anxiety) don't help us in the slightest...only hurt us.
I always fuck relationships up. Especially the ones that are the most important to me. Last night I cried for hours, woke up crying, feel like crying now. I feel horrible in every sense. No appetite, no motivation to do anything, etc.

[DamWayne]

my mother telling me i wouldnt get any birthday presents. yeah, im that childish.

[Arantor]

Well, I went from sleeping beside my girlfriend nearly every night to not seeing or talking to her in the last 4 days in just a matter of days. So that kind of sucks

[Desuetude]

This fucking time of the month. Dysphoria heightened, as is anxiety. Lay here in crippling pain and can't even think/concentrate through the pain to get any of my college work done. I hate myself.

[xXoblivionXx]

Im pathetic and lonely

[Abhorrence]

Friend trouble. I say that but I'm the real problem. I'm a fucking maniac.

[James Dean]

My family is really getting on my nerves.

[Perfectly Flawed]

My only friend is ignoring me after she destroyed our relationship. I'm also very confused about my gender identity.

[Fractured Silhouette]

I feel so stupidly vulnerable. I'm having trouble focusing on anything.

[Chileanboy]

I just moved and we had a test of stuff I didn't cover and so I studied so hard and it went horrible. I just keep trying hard on history and it's just so complicated and it's so damn strict and ugh.

[Abhorrence]

I've got a migraine but it's like going through my entire face, which sucks.

[CharlieHorse]

only a lack of sleep XD

[Malcolm Tucker]

Myself, but I'm really hoping it is just exhaustion, though I am nearly sure it's not.

[Babs]

My house is so cold and empty and everything is changing and I've come to the realization that it's entirely possible that I will outlive all of my siblings.

[Dark N Chantment]

Life. I mess everything up and it's all my fault.

[Abyssal Echo]

Life in general :/

[Abyssal Echo]

The weather
Someone Brought up some shit I've been trying to forget.

[Vermilion]

The weather
Someone Brought up some shit I've been trying to forget.

I'm here to help and I hope it wasnt my question

[KidWithTheHeadband]

Someone completely forgot the only thing I was looking forward to ever since I was told about it on friday, and completely brushed it off. I even reminded them about it before they left. On the inside, I'm crushed.

It feels so trivial and stupid to me but I just feel like junk now.

[Kuroshiro]

The mobile app for YouTube changed its lay out again (it's only been day for about 20 mins so there isn't a lot to be depressed about)

[West Coast Sheriff]

My mom found out about a speeding ticket and got mad.

[ObliviousCat]

History keeps repeating itself, I'm sick of dealing with this every day and I'm sick of it having such a huge affect on my entire life. I'm losing my love over this. I've already lost everything and now that I'm probably losing him, I'm giving up. I don't want to do this on my own anymore. I feel like such a failure. I hate myself more and more each day and I just want it to end already.

[Abhorrence]

I feel so sick and so tired all of the time and I have nobody to even talk to about it. I've got so many new friends but I'm so alone. I don't want to tell them about my depression or anxiety or my self-harm. They all think I'm just this funny guy who loves parties and music and stuff. I need someone to talk to.

[Emerald Dream]

The inconsideration of some people I have to deal with.

[Miscreant]

A bad relationship

[West Coast Sheriff]

Life