What's depressing you today? [Archive] - Page 2

User Deleted

June 30th, 2011, 07:11 PM

My dad and what I said to him. I feel bad for saying it, but I am beginning to crack. I couldn't stop myself, I'm a smart kid but I was still a dumb ass today. Even with all the things he says I still feel bad for the one thing I said. I don't want him to die. I just want him gone. Out of my life. Somewhere far away.

PoseidonX43

July 1st, 2011, 10:07 AM

1. not being able to sleep
2. bf never gets on and talks to me( 2 weeks)

thats all.

Hershey's Kisses

July 1st, 2011, 12:44 PM

I have no Onr to talk to .

Magenta

July 1st, 2011, 05:24 PM

The fact that my wrist hurts... my back hurts... I hurt in general.

Blah. Oh and I'm a nervous wreck.

Lethe

July 1st, 2011, 11:20 PM

The fact that I'm so fat and I can't seem to lose it...why can't I be pretty and normal? I'm never going to have a life.

Magenta

July 1st, 2011, 11:32 PM

So gross and fat and jiggly and I gained weight again. Need to lose another nine pounds at least.

Nancy Boy

July 2nd, 2011, 12:36 AM

2 weeks is a really fucking long time :(
i miss you, come home already ;(

User Deleted

July 2nd, 2011, 12:39 AM

My situation with my dad escalated ten fold. then by ten fold. then by ten more fold................... you get the point, I could be in deep shit because this is the first descion that could change my life and I don't know what to do.

Scoob

July 2nd, 2011, 04:34 AM

I lost my mom about a month and two weeks ago - just goes to show I can't even stop counting the days. It's been tough for me since although we did argue sometimes - I loved her very much. I miss coming home after working out or getting done from my job and seeing her smiling at me and asking if I'd like some of the orange juice she made today. It's just weird seeing an empty house now. My dad has always been busy and would often move me and mom to our new home in a new state and then take off and earn the money and send it to us.

Now, I practically live alone. It's just weird not hearing her talking on the phone anymore or asking if I wanted some of her home cooked meals. I guess I should of asked her how to cook before she died huh?

Now adays she just randomly pops into my head and I remember that she's gone - forever. Sure she's in my memories but that doesn't mean she's here. I'm not going to go cut or kill myself over it but damn even with all my friends I feel lonely sometimes without her here.

Kayden

July 3rd, 2011, 03:23 AM

School. I dont mind doing school work, i just hate my school.

Lethe

July 3rd, 2011, 07:10 AM

I feel like absolute crap because I just ate a Klondike bar. That's 240 calories and 20g of fat...I molded my daily food around all of that though, so I'm not going over my daily limits. Still, I feel like a fat monster...

Aelfwyn

July 3rd, 2011, 12:19 PM

Someone called me a b***h on Facebook last night, and I know that she is the real b***h, but it still hurt me. I couldn't sleep last night because I was worrying that everyone thought that I was one. What if people just hide their poor opinions about me? This has been a bad few days anyway because of some dumb boy, and all I want to do is actually be able to fall asleep without 1-4 hours of worrying-induced insomnia. Sleep used to be my haven away from crap in my life, but now I don't even have its comfort. I never want to talk to anyone again because I just say stupid, mean things to them that I regret later. I don't deserve the friends that I have.

NobodysCupOf Tea

July 6th, 2011, 06:59 PM

the demise of my social life.

Magenta

July 6th, 2011, 09:22 PM

NobodysCupOf Tea

July 7th, 2011, 03:45 PM

The rents. Been home for 4 days now and they're already driving me mad.

RockstarRocks

July 8th, 2011, 03:32 PM

Whats depressing me today is that for years over axziety I locked myself inside away from the world. A boy I liked asked me out I say no. Now I don't want to lock myself away from the world I want to change. I am in online school now haven't talked to the kid in 6 months. Wrote to him on facebook. I hope he goes out with me because I'm 17 and the thought of locking myself away and being alone kills me.

princess 101

July 10th, 2011, 02:37 PM

The fact I'm going day patient the whole fudging summer. >.<

hey can u add me

princess 101

July 10th, 2011, 02:37 PM

hey can u add me

Tristin.

July 10th, 2011, 02:42 PM

love

SosbanFach

July 10th, 2011, 04:34 PM

I don't feel well. My stomach is somersaulting. Must have been something I ate.

Aelfwyn

July 12th, 2011, 08:00 PM

My friend's mom just died. I missed the calling hours today because I just don't know what to do during them. I'm going to the funeral tomorrow, and I'll be sobbing my eyes out despite me barely knowing her mom. I'm so worried for her.

In lighter things, I lost my debit card today because the ATM machine took it due to me forgetting my pin. It was only my second time using my new pin, so I have some excuse. Tomorrow I have to go get it from the bank, and I hate embarrassing situations like that. It's not a serious situation, but I still get sick thinking about it.

Magenta

July 12th, 2011, 08:08 PM

People are bad, all of them. I'm depressed because I'm the worst.

nikkirulez

July 12th, 2011, 08:14 PM

well the depression i hav its goin to be a long 1 cuzz i failed my tests and i feel hopeless and my life to end

Bath

July 12th, 2011, 08:15 PM

I'm losing interest in a lot of people, I'm starting to want to be left alone more often. That's not fun when you're in a long distance relationship, and the other person starts feeling neglected.

Mynameisconner

July 12th, 2011, 08:18 PM

I can't decide what I want, and I'm a little lonely. I need someone to bond with.

nikkirulez

July 12th, 2011, 08:20 PM

I have no friends and I'm afraid to leave the house. I'm ugly and a freak and people are only going to see a monster. People will see scars and fat and I just binged. I gave up my five days. I'm not trying again.

i dnt think u r ugly u r very beautful and u aint even fat and im 100% honest if u gt any problems e-mail me: [email protected] :):):)

factboy01

July 12th, 2011, 10:22 PM

I'm so jealous of famous people, fellow males. They all seem better looking and better at physical workouts, strength. I think of it all the time. Right now, I'm about to cry. I feel so ugly. Nobody is like willing to help. I want to cut myself and just hide.

LiTTleBrok3nDolly

July 14th, 2011, 10:00 PM

my weight

December

July 14th, 2011, 10:52 PM

We had a killer storm the other day and all the trees fell down and my house almost caught fire and stuff was exploding and since I have been more anxious than ever. And that depresses me because I am so tired of feeling this way but I'm trapped

xdancing_for_rainx

July 15th, 2011, 12:40 AM

I feel terrible for letting my dad down >.< I feel so disgusting. Why couldn't I had just been more honest about everything...

NobodysCupOf Tea

July 15th, 2011, 05:45 PM

The guy I love gave me false hope, lead me on then let me down in a brutal way.

Fuck guys, and my life.

Tristin.

July 15th, 2011, 05:46 PM

life

Princess_Nerd7

July 15th, 2011, 09:07 PM

Everything. My parents are yelling at me about everything under the moon, I'm taking 2 classes this summer to get ahead, I have acting classes to get ready for and monologues to practice, my 6 brothers and sisters get on my nerves like CRAZY. In top of all that my boyfriend is 1000 miles away (literally) but he says it's not an "official" relationship even though we've been going out for 6 months. Yet he still wants to 'claim' me. Like wtf? I don't wanna be claimed! AND I'm totally getting sick of my stupid stepdads stupid chicken wings! I think I'm gonna barf. Oh and my period isn't exactly helping the situation.

P.S. Thank you for posting this thread. I needed to vent.

pageplant77

July 15th, 2011, 10:35 PM

The rain.

It just won't stop!!

-sigh- :(

xdancing_for_rainx

July 16th, 2011, 02:25 AM

I just feel so alone right now... it's really late... but my lovely insomnia is preventing me from sleeping >.< Nights like this don't always turn out so great. It's so tough for some reason...

Amaryllis

July 16th, 2011, 04:13 AM

Talk. Smile. Laugh. Love. Live.

I'm not going to complain. I'm gonna say: I wish all of you, all the best. I hope you'll all find happiness. I hope you'll find someone who loves you for you and that most of all, you will learn to love yourself.

I'm gonna say what's keeping me from falling into a horrible, sinking, depressing, low day instead. I finally have my own room with a lock on it. I donated 2000 grains of rice on www.freerice.com I'm not underweight and miserable anymore. I have people who care and I care about people. I didn't get all As this year because I missed a lotta classes cause of ana but I managed to get all Bs and 2 As. And most of all, I found this forum.

Sprinkle joy, spread hope and share love.

Faith And Trust

Bath

July 16th, 2011, 11:52 AM

I'm afraid to eat again, that's always fun...

Amaryllis

July 16th, 2011, 09:49 PM

I'm afraid to eat again, that's always fun...

You don't have a choice, Bethany. It's death or recovery. Ana is not your friend. Does being skinny fix all your problems? Does it make everything better? It doesn't. You are your own worst enemy. No one thinks you should stop eating or that you're fat except yourself.

Courage is not in never being afraid but in not letting your fears ever hold you back.

Love,
Faith And Trust

Voldemort

July 16th, 2011, 10:24 PM

the awkward moment

CyanideGoodnight

July 16th, 2011, 10:54 PM

Anxiety building up and I can't cut to release it like I normally do, family issues (luckily there not that bad) friend drama, and, although I love my job and it gives me something to actually look foward to each day, I worry about the kids I'm counciling. I really hope they don't end up like me...

Amaryllis

July 16th, 2011, 11:08 PM

Anxiety building up, family issues (luckily there not that bad) friend drama, and, although I love my job and it gives me something to actually look foward to each day, I worry about the kids I'm counciling. I really hope they don't end up like me...

You're counseling kids? Where? How? Sorry, I just really want to to :) And hey, you're not a very bad person to become. You're helping others, aren't you? You went through a lot and you survived through it all. You're someone I admire

Love,
Faith And Trust

PoseidonX43

July 16th, 2011, 11:45 PM

my bff told he was moveing to mexico :(

Amaryllis

July 17th, 2011, 12:16 AM

my bff told he was moveing to mexico :(

Ouch. That sucks. Well, you could talk to him online, I guess? My two BFs left for Las Vegas and Canberra too. You'll make more friends :) Life's about meeting new people, right?

Love,
Faith And Trust

morbidmonkey

July 17th, 2011, 01:23 AM

i realized i was getting fat and i still ate macdonalds. after took a sip of wine and wanted to start to smoke again. after i remember how pathetic my life is.......sigh

morbidmonkey

July 17th, 2011, 01:24 AM

oh and heard some chick say black people's skin is dark and ugly

Salvi

July 17th, 2011, 02:17 AM

My friend ignoring me and not calling me in over a week is depressing me. idk if I did something wrong...

Sebastian Michaelis

July 17th, 2011, 05:12 AM

What is depressing me? EVERYONE! I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE! Nobody in my family understands this. I want to be alone not because I am depressed, but because people make me depressed, at least the people in my family. I don't mind having a friend over or one family member over, but when they come in the hundreds and they want me to do stuff with them or they want to mess with my things, or they cling to my heels acting like I'm the most interesting person alive. It annoys the fuck out of me! I'm not even that interesting!
I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE! SOCIALIZATION IS KILLING ME!:cry:

Amaryllis

July 17th, 2011, 05:22 AM

oh and heard some chick say black people's skin is dark and ugly

That is SO not true! I would KILL to be black! I absolutely love your skin. It's beautiful. You're beautiful. You're definitely not fat either. I have 2 friends, one from Papua New Guinea and one from South Africa, they're like my black soul sisters :D At least, that's what they call me. I call the one from Africa my African Jewel haha.

Seriously though, what an ASS. I love dark skin. Can't get tanned for my life. I'm asian but I'm whiter than white people. I turn friggin pink in the sun. And did I mention I love your skin and that you're beautiful just the way you are and who gives a damn if you're stick-thin or huge or in between?

Love,
Faith And Trust

morbidmonkey

July 17th, 2011, 07:22 PM

That is SO not true! I would KILL to be black! I absolutely love your skin. It's beautiful. You're beautiful. You're definitely not fat either. I have 2 friends, one from Papua New Guinea and one from South Africa, they're like my black soul sisters :D At least, that's what they call me. I call the one from Africa my African Jewel haha.

Seriously though, what an ASS. I love dark skin. Can't get tanned for my life. I'm asian but I'm whiter than white people. I turn friggin pink in the sun. And did I mention I love your skin and that you're beautiful just the way you are and who gives a damn if you're stick-thin or huge or in between?

Love,
Faith And Trust
ur the first person to actually reassure me thanks :/

Amaryllis

July 17th, 2011, 10:05 PM

Morbidmonkey/ella,
No one can bring you down without your consent. I know it's hard but it's true. You're probably your own worst critic. Believe me. You truly are beautiful and you seem like such a nice girl. You went through a lot but you're really strong to still be here. Anyone who critices or bullies you, well, they're probably messed up themselves.

Stay strong. I'm here if you need me.

Love,
Faith And Trust

morbidmonkey

July 18th, 2011, 10:42 AM

Thank you again Z. Your words really do lighten up my day

CyanideGoodnight

July 18th, 2011, 07:48 PM

I found his name. I found the case... Good God, he really did get away with murder...

I don't know what to say or do right now. I'm at a complete loss of words at a time my head is full of them...

XxMurderedKissesxX

July 18th, 2011, 07:53 PM

I still dont know if im going to move back to hamilton where my bf and some of my close friends are. Im worried that if i go to treatment again,ill get worse bc ill start to remember things i didnt before again,and my bf will have enough of dealing with an already damaged insecure self conscious bitch,the fact that i miss him like crazy and were in two different citys. My own mother hates me,i cant seem to shred those last seven pounds,and slowly self harming isnt helping me as much as it use to,which scares me and makes me have more urges.

AddiLixx

July 19th, 2011, 04:39 AM

My best friend got her first kiss today. That means I'm the only one out of group that hasn't kissed anyone yet.. It really got me down and upset me, and I know it's stupid to be upset over something as trivial as that, but it just made me really upset. I should be happy for her, but so much stuff has been going on, that that just put the icing on the cake on my depression *I've been clinically diagnosed and have to take medication, though they don't really work..*. I had a good cry today after she told me, it made me feel a lot better, then I started watching romance movies... which isn't the best idea for me. So yeah, today was a bad day, and I really want to go dig out my old razor, but that won't solve anything, so I'm attempting to deal with it myself... let's see how that goes :/

bakrb448

July 19th, 2011, 04:50 AM

got rejected 4 askn for my friends sis numbr (dont ask long story)
and the othr chick i like is taken

Oh and a heat index of 103-109 kinda doesnt help

CyanideGoodnight

July 19th, 2011, 09:54 PM

It's not really "depressing" me, but it's making me have a mental breakdown causing anxiety causing more or less emotional distress, close enough.

I saw a huge fucking spider go into my closet, so now I'm paranoid about it going on me tomorrow, also now I'm just generally paranoid about more spiders, where theres one, theres more right? So now I keep thinking I feel one on me but it turns out to be nothing... all because of a bit of aracnophobia causing an anxiety attack. Joy.

also other issues came up and I'm just generally not a happy person right now...

Edit: Oh, and I want to cut. But I can't...

Matt_is_Awesome

July 21st, 2011, 05:53 PM

Im depressed right now bc im trying to get over this girl i really like :( its so hard to dooo

Malcolm Tucker

July 21st, 2011, 09:41 PM

Just don't feel great. Just like everything is against me and it's all gotten too much. Making me feel sick. Lovely night so far.

Love.Hate

July 22nd, 2011, 04:25 AM

I feel like everyone is out to get me. People constantly looking at me like im some sort of freak. The fact he wont tell me whats wrong. And i wrote another suicide letter last night.. just to depress me more.

Angel Androgynous

July 22nd, 2011, 04:34 AM

It's trivial compared to what some other people are going through...
But... I just let all my feelings out in writing about my Bunny's death...and right now I miss him more than ever. It sounds stupid...but he was one of my most beloved pets. After his death, I have never felt a greater desire to hold him in my arms than now... I should stop reminding myself of him and keep him in my heart. I know that he is on that rainbow bridge...waiting for me...
Only people who have lost beloved pets know the heartache I feel now.. a type of guilty heartache knowing that there are people worse off...and yet here I am...

Jimmy Page

July 22nd, 2011, 04:35 AM

That i cant see anywhere around me without seeing ways for people around me die.And that i cant blink without seeing Erik lying in the woods with his wrists slashed :(.Im starting to loose my mind,again.

Clum

July 22nd, 2011, 05:21 AM

nothing today last couple of days were shitty but everything worked out for some strange random miracle :S

NobodysCupOf Tea

July 22nd, 2011, 08:06 AM

feeling fat again. well i always do, but going on holiday this weekend and had a big lunch...... Fuck sake.

PoseidonX43

July 23rd, 2011, 12:34 AM

ive been crying for the last 10 mins.

User Deleted

July 23rd, 2011, 12:54 AM

I don't know why. I just feel so worthless. And it makes me angry. And the anger makes me sad. And I just want to go away. Not die. I just feel like I am not worth the concern of others. Like I don't deserve a say.

WonderTastic

July 23rd, 2011, 04:46 AM

my grannys death

the_chef_of_your_lif

July 23rd, 2011, 11:15 AM

The fact that I gave my bf a bj a couple days ago, I haven't cut in 4 months because I can't let my bf know or he'll worry but I can't go on much longer. The fact that I wont really allow my bf to even have a beer with a friend bc I'm scared I'll hear he went home at 3 in the morning shit faced and he said it sucks. My bf and I do sexual things expect for sex and I'm scared if he doesn't clean his hands good enough when we clean up his semen that when he fingers me I'll end up pregnant. I'm not getting any info about a carreer center i'm going to and that i'm getting no information from colleges i'm requesting info from

Ace007

July 23rd, 2011, 08:32 PM

Hello friends... I have a few friends are drepressed, and they will not tell me.. I am abit worry about them really... I hope yu all will help me out...... If yu had the same problem as me?? Cya

Magenta

July 23rd, 2011, 09:04 PM

The fact I can't kill myself.

Harlequin

July 23rd, 2011, 10:48 PM

The fact I can't kill myself.

survival skills show themselves in weird ways

My depression today is that i am an abject failure. Sure i seem smart but i am really only smartbutt... used to love a girl who loved me back and she kept me down to earth with a less inflated head. now...now we are separated and i am failing again.

i need help

praise feels wrong but criticism feels good ti makes me try again harder and harder till i fail again...

xdancing_for_rainx

July 24th, 2011, 03:04 AM

prob1996

July 24th, 2011, 01:14 PM

I just feel terrible >.< There's someone I thought cared... but now I'm thinking otherwise. We used to chat for several hours every night, and now he's signing on later and later each night, and leaving earlier. I hate that I've made myself vulnerable again by even thinking about trusting him (or anybody else for that matter). I've harmed, and I don't care. I'm so sick of myself.

^^^ I know how u feel and I'm feeling the same way about trusting people right now. I just had a so called "friend" lie to me about a great many things this past yr. I'm tired of putting my trust in people only to have it sh*t on. Equally I feel incredibly stupid for letting this person in. I should've known better.

BOSS

July 24th, 2011, 01:42 PM

Same as always I have no one to love and hold and care for...ugh how much longer do I have to wait?

Magenta

July 24th, 2011, 01:46 PM

That I can't be with him... I'm destined to be alone.

Tristin.

July 24th, 2011, 02:26 PM

that im alone. and i miss the feeling of being held. :(

xdancing_for_rainx

July 24th, 2011, 04:41 PM

I can't stop crying (or at least wanting to cry) and thinking about what a b*tch i am. I hate faking how I feel right now...

Magenta

July 24th, 2011, 06:00 PM

I ruin everything. I am a broken, bitter girl. I push everyone away, I hurt people I barely know.

Tristin.

July 24th, 2011, 06:02 PM

im a paranoid person with no self esteem

Iris

July 24th, 2011, 08:42 PM

i want pills. but i can't let my parents know i'm depressed. :(. the thought of always feeling like i do now, without medical help terrifies me. i'm tired, the littlest things break me. Somehow I can still be broken. That doesn't even make sense. I never make sense. I feel like an idiot. Oh and my brother is leaving tomorrow. I'll be all alone with my mother, who I always fight with, which always makes me cut. My dad will be busy escaping his life by throwing himself into work. My life sucks. I'm miserable. I'm always depressed. -sigh-

xdancing_for_rainx

July 24th, 2011, 10:51 PM

He left... again.

Tommy.10

July 25th, 2011, 01:58 PM

The corruption of the society and the disorder of the traffic system makes me depressed.

xdancing_for_rainx

July 26th, 2011, 12:28 AM

I just want to pull away from everything... completely detach myself from emotion so I don't feel so terrible >.<

Calex

July 26th, 2011, 07:20 PM

The lost of my best friend and my whole dad side of the family hating me for no reason

BOSS

July 26th, 2011, 07:21 PM

Same as always just super lonely

xdancing_for_rainx

July 27th, 2011, 12:35 AM

Being sick all through today, and just feeling lonely in general... I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry earlier.

Matt_is_Awesome

July 27th, 2011, 12:41 AM

nothing at the moment haha hope it stays that way! :)

xdancing_for_rainx

July 27th, 2011, 08:35 PM

Someone I'm trying to avoid won't quit calling me obsessively. It annoys the heck out of me, but also makes me feel like such a b*tch for not answering >.<

Magenta

July 28th, 2011, 06:02 PM

I have almost no one now... I can't be who I want to be... I'm hopeless.

I'm about to binge.

LittlePaperStars

July 28th, 2011, 10:20 PM

My parents keep yelling at me and expect too much out of me. I feel like I'm never good enough.

Alexithymia

July 29th, 2011, 01:08 AM

People being. Well. Not idiots. People telling the truth.

It's kind of sad.

Amaryllis

July 29th, 2011, 06:00 AM

I want to be beautiful.

bambino

July 29th, 2011, 06:02 AM

I want to be beautiful.

you are beautiful.

that I have a load of work and no motivation. Also I'm desperate to change my body and gain some weight- takes so long

Amaryllis

July 29th, 2011, 06:32 AM

I know. I mean, I WAS. I think I was beautiful. But now, thanks to the every day binges and the hair that is not on my head, I'm not beautiful. Okay, no. Gotta stop that. It's only temporary. Oomm... I KNOW it is. It's just... Sometimes I feel like I'm just gonna be stuck here forever.

And I'm so proud of you for wanting to gain weight :) We'll all get through it

Kayden

July 29th, 2011, 08:11 AM

Watching her with another guy.

Magenta

July 29th, 2011, 04:29 PM

Being treated like I'm worthless. Being told nothing is wrong but then being blamed for not helping enough... seeing people say that it's a relief to be rid of me...

Not having the courage to finally just end it.

Amaryllis

July 29th, 2011, 09:54 PM

Too scared to end it because I'm scared I'll regret it. What if there's still hope? What if if I just waited a little longer, someone would have come and made it all better? What if I really could become a singer? I want to be a singer so bad.

And what if I could have helped more people?

Magenta

July 29th, 2011, 09:54 PM

CyanideGoodnight

July 30th, 2011, 08:42 PM

No one will let me break. I miss being able to cut all I wanted to without having to worry about who I was hurting besides myself...

Aelfwyn

July 31st, 2011, 10:37 PM

I'm sick of seeing boys flirting with all the other girls and ignoring me. Do I have to dress like a slut and be a size 0 to get any attention?

CyanideGoodnight

July 31st, 2011, 11:54 PM

The fact I STILL can't break... *Sigh* Maybe I should just give up on giving up...

ShadowGirl

August 1st, 2011, 08:48 PM

I'm ugly and no guy ever looks at me. I feel like I'll be alone forever

LittlePaperStars

August 1st, 2011, 08:55 PM

The girl who doesn't love me back because she's not bi, my parents high expectations, my past, my self harming has gotten worse, I cried trice today because I was thinking about last Saturday when my best friend told me she didnt want me to go through what she did. I remembered all our happy moments and I cried because I thought I was ruining it...

Amaryllis

August 2nd, 2011, 09:13 PM

I'm still struggling with food. And I'm so tired of struggling. I want my hair back. I want to be as I was before anorexia. I hate this.

CyanideGoodnight

August 3rd, 2011, 10:12 AM

Today is the five year anniversary of the death of my childhood friend Mariah, she was 10 at the time. I hate everything this day represents.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 3rd, 2011, 08:23 PM

Feeling so abandoned and being alone... again. I hate feeling so abandoned >.<

I want to cut so bad right now...

Magenta

August 3rd, 2011, 08:24 PM

I want her back.

Bath

August 3rd, 2011, 08:31 PM

Everything.

Amaryllis

August 4th, 2011, 08:06 AM

My parents. I want them to die. Or at least me.

judgeofsin

August 4th, 2011, 09:59 AM

My parents are making me feel completely useless.

the_chef_of_your_lif

August 4th, 2011, 10:04 AM

that i can't get over the fact that I want to cut, that I know I can never come out to my family as bi because they will treat me different, that my boyfriend told me he wouldn't say anything if i told him my depression was getting worse because he can't do anything about it so I keep the fact that I can't have a real smile. that whether or not I go with my bf and his dad to the family reunion i'm probably not gonna be in the best mood

andrew_

August 4th, 2011, 10:33 AM

broke my foot and it wont heal for 3 months school starts next thursday and i cant go out for fall soccer for the firs time in 9 years

Ben Michael

August 4th, 2011, 12:35 PM

I can't see my best friend anymore due to a church split and he's on the right side of the aregument but my parents force me to stay :/

scuba steve

August 4th, 2011, 01:23 PM

I have been away camping and it's been a full week since I've been to the gym, I feel so small and weak.

Bath

August 4th, 2011, 03:42 PM

I feel gross.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 4th, 2011, 05:26 PM

Really just hating myself at the moment >.<

ShadowGirl

August 4th, 2011, 08:41 PM

I hate driving because I'm scared of crashing and hurting someone. Today my mom told me that when I turn 16 I have to drive myself everywhere and neither she or my dad will drive me places.

Suicune

August 4th, 2011, 08:57 PM

My separation from my friends and from the normal life has been taking it's toll. I feel so alone.

MonsterBear

August 4th, 2011, 09:13 PM

taking a nap and thinking i would wake up on time to go out with my boyfriend.
He was going to suprise me by taking me to the beach.
i havent seen him in a week and now i have to wait for next week.

villain

August 4th, 2011, 09:20 PM

My Ex-Bestfriend's Friend (Are we on the right page?) talked to me on facebook saying so r u gay and i would say no ............. so long story short he kept saying "I hate gays and i hate u b****h" It made me cry a little

xdancing_for_rainx

August 4th, 2011, 11:06 PM

Feeling so alone right now :( Like nobody cares and I should just disappear. Thanks for not having the time.

music is my soul

August 4th, 2011, 11:10 PM

My girlfriends not replying to any of my texts.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 5th, 2011, 04:00 AM

He left... and now I'm alone... again. I've got the music blasting right now to block out my thoughts.

WonderTastic

August 5th, 2011, 04:31 AM

My sexuality

Amaryllis

August 5th, 2011, 07:50 AM

I feel hopeless. I feel like I will never be good enough. I feel like nobody will ever love me.

But i know otherwise :)

CyanideGoodnight

August 5th, 2011, 03:49 PM

I want an escape. I need an escape. And I can't find an escape that isn't self damaging...

goodguy123

August 5th, 2011, 06:17 PM

every-bodies suffering is depressing me today. The fact us Humans are creatures of suffer the fact that mental illnesses exist and that we don;t know much about them that effective treatments for them need to be improved. That doctors want to drug us with potent antidepressants and related drugs that we yet have to understand what effect they place on the brain. What causes anxiety????? all this depresses me. But besides that we have to be strong and realize we have a purpose and we need to live our lives and let the fear drop.

NobodysCupOf Tea

August 5th, 2011, 06:55 PM

The fact that somtimes I just need a hug.

Just some support, some compassion, to show that there's any point to being here at all.

Bath

August 5th, 2011, 07:32 PM

I just feel really, really lonely.

CyanideGoodnight

August 5th, 2011, 10:06 PM

I didn't see Kate today, and now I wont see her for two weeks.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 6th, 2011, 01:16 AM

My mother visited me today >.< Gah... how can she not see how much I don't want to be around her. She came here completely unannounced and expected me to be excited to see her. Just leave me alone. She's hurt me too much. I can't forgive her. I just can't... not yet. Wrecked an otherwise great afternoon.

JackShephard

August 6th, 2011, 04:05 AM

My sexuality, I think my friend knows. And I'm being treated differently. This is a load of shit. You know? You build up something great and years down the road, you find out your bisexual, then this awesome relationship you have with someone is all fucked and down the tubes. I KNEW THIS KID SINCE FIFTH GRADE!!! :'( I need to talk to him about this. Clear some things up. Maybe I just shocked him and I'm being oversensitive.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 7th, 2011, 05:25 AM

I feel so stupid right now. This isn't gonna leave my mind anytime soon...

hhhfiuashfosihdf

August 7th, 2011, 07:20 AM

There's always something that worries you/depresses you. When you solved one issue thats bothering you , another one always seems to crop up. But i'm just depressed about the school holidays , i would rather stay in all day everyday on my laptop rather than going out with my friends and socializing. But i socialize online so it's all good! :D

MyRedHeadWorld

August 7th, 2011, 04:04 PM

The fact I am kinda in love with my best mate (a boy) and I feel like Im alone in this world O_O

Frnds4eva

August 7th, 2011, 04:58 PM

The fact that I'm far away from my friends and my dad. The fact that I don't feel pretty enough nowadays. The fact that I don't feel special now that my best friends are not here with me. The fact that even though i will see my friends again in less than a month, i can only be with them 4 a few days. The fact that I miss thursday shopping with my dad and mom and sis. The fact that no1 good enough has asked me out from my new school yet, when there are 2/3 guys behind my friend. All these depress me :(

xdancing_for_rainx

August 7th, 2011, 06:48 PM

Can't stop thinking about how worthless I am. I just wish I wasn't such a painful person to be around.

Tristin.

August 7th, 2011, 06:51 PM

my highly cynical mood. it is leaving me in a state of wirthlessness and what may come a cross as mean persoanlity

AppealToReason

August 7th, 2011, 06:52 PM

The fact that I started taking pain killers and smoking/cutting again.

ShadowGirl

August 7th, 2011, 08:48 PM

My mom blamed me for our family falling apart

AppealToReason

August 7th, 2011, 08:56 PM

My mom blamed me for our family falling apart

Really sorry to hear that. Please know that you are not the reason for that happening, no matter what she tells you.

the_chef_of_your_lif

August 7th, 2011, 09:36 PM

That i'd rather be drunk and fool around with my boyfriend right now and having to make a decision about how early we're gonna have sex considering we're only juniors and I dont wanna end up pregnant like my sister did.

NobodysCupOf Tea

August 8th, 2011, 03:49 PM

xdancing_for_rainx

August 8th, 2011, 06:20 PM

My mother stayed with me for about 3 hours this afternoon... I wish she could just understand I want her to leave me alone...

LittlePaperStars

August 9th, 2011, 06:48 AM

Another bad fight with my mom -.-

the_chef_of_your_lif

August 9th, 2011, 10:01 PM

Wear a condom. Sorted.

i have extrememly bad luck

xdancing_for_rainx

August 9th, 2011, 10:26 PM

The fact that I am so completely worthless and alone.

music is my soul

August 9th, 2011, 10:43 PM

I cant find my way out of the same routen ive had for the past ten years.

Kayden

August 9th, 2011, 11:26 PM

Was told about how my bestfriend lost her virginity to a guy I hate. She had the perfect opportunity to tell me, but I had to be told in the middle of the day by someone that I barely talk to. I had to act like I didn't care.

PoseidonX43

August 10th, 2011, 07:04 PM

....

1_21Guns

August 10th, 2011, 08:17 PM

I feel lonely, I have for several days on the run now. I can be surrounded by people, and still feel alone.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 10th, 2011, 10:06 PM

My dad made me eat... which is good health-wise, but I just hope I don't gain any weight from it >.<

music is my soul

August 10th, 2011, 10:07 PM

My gf wont talk to me if i ask her out.

Maxxie

August 10th, 2011, 10:09 PM

It's like he doesn't even notice me...

Eagle63

August 11th, 2011, 11:34 AM

i wish things could just go back to the way they were 9 months ago.

morbidmonkey

August 11th, 2011, 05:42 PM

somebody made fun of my race again, yay me

CyanideGoodnight

August 11th, 2011, 11:11 PM

I wanna get out so bad... I just wanna move... I need a fresh start. So bad. I've known these people since I was five practically... I didn't fit in then, I don't fit in now... there's nothing I can do about it, it's a predetermined thing... my aunt and I were talking about it and she said it was because of my "Condition" (aka I have ADD/ADHD) but half the kids at my school do too, and it's like fucking shit I just need to fucking get the hell out and I'm rambling now...

Point is, I need to move, somewhere, anywhere that's away from here, I just need to meet new people, get out, explore the world, whatever. I have absolutly no one here... My entire childhood was literally just a big waste, yes I know highschool is just something you need to get through and then it's okay, but I feel like I've been going though highschool my entire fucking life. Drama, people bitching, everything, I just can't wait for this shit to end already...

I just wanna get out... :(

Magenta

August 11th, 2011, 11:54 PM

My existence.

God, this hurts so much. I can't take any of this anymore. I can't... I can't even begin to explain. I need to vanish. I need to not exist.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 12th, 2011, 03:41 AM

Ignorant people making stupid comments and joking about real problems. It hurts, and it drives me insane.

PoseidonX43

August 13th, 2011, 04:28 AM

....

JackShephard

August 13th, 2011, 05:28 AM

I know it sounds selfish, but when is anyone in my life going to start giving two shits about me? My mom is pretty much trampling over me to reach her goals, her shitty boyfriend is constantly trying to fix my life and fuck with me. And my mom lets him walk all over me. I'm done. She broke our relationship. I'm leaving the house, getting a job and focus on me.

SimplyTom

August 13th, 2011, 05:47 AM

....

CyanideGoodnight

August 13th, 2011, 03:22 PM

My aunt looked at my stomache and told me to stop eating so god damn much...

And here I was finally getting comfortable with my stomache and weight and eating two, sometimes three meals a day... now that's all fucked up... Back to one meal a day for me again now...

Thank's auntie... :/

xdancing_for_rainx

August 13th, 2011, 04:28 PM

My mother called >.< *sighs* She has my phone number now too... which I tried to put off as long as possible, but she still got it.

EDIT

I think I'm headed toward breaking down.

music is my soul

August 14th, 2011, 01:17 AM

Found out my gf well ex gf found another guy

PoseidonX43

August 14th, 2011, 11:35 AM

i feel so alone, help-less, broken, i feel like ive lost all hope for my self, but i still have the running passion to help other's, while my self is in pain...

SimplyTom

August 14th, 2011, 11:37 AM

ive been lied to

xDarkAngelx

August 14th, 2011, 11:58 AM

Difficult to put how I feel in words but here's one... I just feel so alone all the time, even when people are talking near me they just seem so distant all the time.

Lethe

August 14th, 2011, 01:54 PM

My weight, my ugliness, my worthlessness. Lots of shit.

Magenta

August 14th, 2011, 02:04 PM

Not being able to help someone. People keep telling me that, if anything, I give good advice and help people. It doesn't seem like it lately. It seems like it's a waste of time.

Love.Hate

August 14th, 2011, 02:50 PM

Having nothing to cut with.

LittlePaperStars

August 14th, 2011, 02:55 PM

The fact that I told my parents and I lost my privacy until I stop cutting...

Bath

August 14th, 2011, 05:04 PM

- Got into a fight with my mom in the middle of JCPenny about shorts. I just wanted one pair of shorts, I don't have any, and she was like NO WE'RE GETTING SCHOOL CLOTHES YOU'RE NOT GOING TO WEAR THOSE TO SCHOOL! and I just got really upset. We ended up getting the shorts though, so that's good I guess.

- I left my boyfriend a sweet message before I left in the morning, hoping that by the time I come back from shopping he'd have said something back. But nope. He's not online and there was no message back, and I'm pretty sure he had to go see his mom today, and I think he left already. I'm confused and sad. I haven't talked to him all day and it's 6pm. The fact that we were in a huge argument last night (even though we made up,) and how I don't have my phone until tomorrow, really sucks too. My anxiety is through the roof.

- I'm just really unhealthy in general right now, mentally and physically. I ate pretty healthy today but for the past few weeks I've been binging and and it's not fun. And mentally something's wrong because my emotions have been all screwed up again and I thought I was done with that bullshit.

- I just really really want to talk to Spencer and I can't. I don't know if I'm going to talk to him at all today.

- No distractions. Restless and paranoid and can't stop it. Thinking of something to numb myself with other than cutting. I'm really trying. No sleeping pills or alcohol.

- I feel really, really lonely. And this is all I've been feeling lately.

xdancing_for_rainx

August 14th, 2011, 08:09 PM

That fact that I am who I am.

Magenta

August 14th, 2011, 10:14 PM

Feeling fat when I know I'm not. Fuck sake, I'm skinny and I know it. So why do I feel fat? Why don't I feel satisfied by what I see in the mirror or the number on the scale?

Kyutekyu

August 15th, 2011, 05:49 PM

The fact I'm how I am and that my physical apperance isn't exactly stunning.
I hate my body and I feel fat, I also feel lonely and unloved and to top it all, I never do anything right.

Bath

August 15th, 2011, 07:11 PM

Total, complete unjustified rage.
Completely.

I have a boyfriend that I love so much. He's the second boy I ever loved. I found out today that my ex, the first boy I ever loved, got in a relationship with this girl I was intimidated by while we were going out.

I CAN FEEL THE VENOM POURING OUT OF ME.
And it's so unjustified, I know, there's NOTHING wrong with it. It's been 8 months since we broke up, too. But I can't help but be upset. I can't DO anything about it. And I'm an overemotional person.

But this just sucks. I know he wouldn't stay single forever but still.
RAGE.

Magenta

August 15th, 2011, 07:43 PM

My stomach hurts so much... but I can't eat. I can't make the hurt go away. I have to suffer to be pretty. Why can't I just be pretty?

xdancing_for_rainx

August 15th, 2011, 09:07 PM

Having to talk to my mother. I know it's the only decent thing to do... but still, I moved out here to get away from her.

Unsolvedmind

August 15th, 2011, 09:23 PM

The fact that I had to break up with my girlfriend cause I moved away (far from her) and I just feel really down cause it was like we were meant to be together and we've known eachother since 5th grade and she was the best friend cause she always made me laugh and always helped me when I needed it I really miss her <3 and I am not sleeping very well cause I can't stop thinking about her and sometimes I feel like to overdepressed

Curiousasian

August 15th, 2011, 09:57 PM

football practice

Dark_Desires

August 16th, 2011, 03:58 AM

My girlfriend dumped me the only girl i ever had a atraction to
im home alone all week and my depresion has come back worse than ever

xdancing_for_rainx

August 16th, 2011, 05:26 AM

Flashbacks. Nightmares. Self-loathing. Guilt.

Joshh97

August 16th, 2011, 06:22 AM

Having to eat a slice of toast for dinner as theres nothing in the house whilst my mum treats my sister and her friend to dinner. And being home alone once again with a pen knife less than a metre away from me.

Imaussie

August 16th, 2011, 07:28 AM

Not much sleep,fucking teachers, school and above all failing my assessments fuck all this shit when I'm getting the levying cert fuck school, fuck the people that are the biggest retards that fuck with me all the time so Im going to join the army I think it comes natually to me love the way of life in the army and then people don't fuck with u anymore.

Amaryllis

August 16th, 2011, 08:27 AM

My sperm-donator is here

the_chef_of_your_lif

August 16th, 2011, 12:27 PM

i can't find a job. There's not much out here for jobs that dont sell liquor and I need a job for clothes and pay my phone bill and help out my parents for bills but i can't because i have no money from a job

xdancing_for_rainx

August 16th, 2011, 04:20 PM

Having no reason to get out of bed and go through the day.

xDarkAngelx

August 16th, 2011, 04:36 PM

Feeling constantly alone all the time even when people are around me and talking, useless, pathetic, worthless, can never do anything right. It doesn't help when my boss has a go at me and I feel 2 inches tall inside. Along with frequent suicide thoughts and cutting is the only thing really that helps me to cope.