What's depressing you today?

[CharlieHorse]

One of my good friends on VT got banned. :(

Who!? :(

[teen.jpg]

I like a guy who is doesn't like me back.

I have close to no friends.

Nobody cares about me, and I go completely unnoticed at school.

My insecurities make me sad everytime I look in the mirror.

I'm still in the closet.

I'm losing my best friends.

I think I actually am depressed.

[CharlieHorse]

I am a bad person.
The only reason why I'm on here is because I'm a lazy attention whore.
My problems are sad, and fucking stupid.
And I'm an ass for dragging everyone into my stupidity driven life.
I'm a stupid fucking fake.
I'm a slimy fucking leech. I'll suck all the care out of you and then dump you to move on. Then I'll use all the shit as pathetic excuses. I hate myself. I hate myself. I'm the worst person I've ever met. I'm such an ass to everyone who ever was kind enough to try to help.
I don't deserve the care, or the pathetic life I have. I don't deserve happiness, because of how much I've caused unhappiness.
I've fucked up everything. But then again, I never had any possibility, so I was always a fail; a weak, stupid, spoiled brat. I hate myself so much. I want to hurt myself again, but I'm too much of a fucking pussy to actually do anything.
I want to be thrown in jail and be hated by everyone, because I deserve it.
There's no going back. I'm a pain in the ass for everyone who knows me.
Might as well just die now. I'll give my life to anyone else. Anyone else deserves the opportunities and support and resources I have. I am the worst possible person to have these things. Please give them to someone else.
Might as well purge my impure stain on everyone's lives. It would be the only good thing I would ever do.

[jayyy-lmao]

My grandfathers death.
My dads cousins brain tumor.
his son's hip

[Pichu]

Just feeling like I annoy people without meaning to when I talk to them. Bleh.

[autismtwin]

My surroundings. People triggering me.

[Mob Boss]

Everything.

[Lyra Heartstrings]

My mom..

[Dooby the potato god]

Not being appreciated by people.

[awkwardbean101]

I made a huge mistake regarding a guy i liked, the way he ignored me today makes me feel bad. And the sad part is, if i say sorry for turning him down now realizing i really do like him, i will be embarrassed. and i don't know if hes mad, upset (most likely) or what..wtf i screwed this up royally... and really, this is why my day was depressing :(

[awkwardbean101]

atleast your honest about it.

[Skyline]

Idk just not a happy person atm

[Stronger]

Everything.

[Abyssal Echo]

my mom getting laid off

[Matt_2012]

Nearly got bashed and i bitched it hard.

[Mortal Coil]

Two words: Purging blood.

[Princess Ariel]

The amount of physical pain i've been in since Wednesday and this is only the beginning..

[CharlieHorse]

Dad being a bitch

[BenjiJoelCorrea]

It's my last year in high school and I don't have many friends,I haven't done anything this year that is interesting
I don't text most of my friends alot because i know they have more of a life than i do.so I know they are always busy
I feel alone

[Wrestler0821]

Too much I want to do at one time. Homework needs to be done but I want to watch TV. The weather is bad here too.

[Lyra Heartstrings]

I'm nothing.
Absolutely nothing.

[CharlieHorse]

Dad being a bitch again

[Princess Ariel]

I've got a competition in 3 hours that i'm scared for.
I've been up since 7am and its now 13:34 pm and im just getting out of bed.

[Skyline]

I'm home sick :(

[CharlieHorse]

Dad confiscated my knife that FINALLY came in the mail today. It is the most beautiful knife I've ever seen.
Took 4 weeks to get here, plus i've been tracking the specific model for 2+ years. It's the last of it's kind. It's a collectors item.
He's making me return it.
It will be gone.
After all the time and money I put into getting it...
...
I don't like living with my dad. Sometimes i really hate him.
He hates my mom ever since the divorce. I love my mom...
...
A shit load of projects were assigned and are due this week. Wtf school!?
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I saw my crush kiss her douchebag bf today. For some reason, this killed me. She deserves someone better. Not necessarily me, just anyone better.
...
I'm exhausted
...
I can't sleep
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Another friend moved away
...
I have no energy
...
Usual depression

[Cognizant]

I'm reading stories about suicides from the outsiders (in my case the train op's) perspective... it's really disturbing.
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I can never get the courage to get up to her.... it's bugging me.

[Mortal Coil]

I've eaten so much...

[Skyline]

I have to go to school in 10 minutes... FML

[Princess Ariel]

Since I didn't go to school yesterday, I'm going to be yelled at by all of my friends.

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I'm wearing a dress.

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My lips are still severely chapped and split.

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I'm fat.

[Steve Jobs]

Blegh. Can't even explain :what:

[Desuetude]

Racism. Motherfucking racism. Why the fuck are people still racist? I feel so angry

[Coolboi]

I want to walk an I can't dam ankle got me down for weeks wahoo #%~|?€£><

[Dooby the potato god]

People. Lies. Hurt.

[teen.jpg]

Lost a friend after telling him I had a crush on him. He hates me now.

[Lyra Heartstrings]

Knowing I have school..

[Abyssal Echo]

life in general

[Jess]

Sometimes I just feel so alone, and it usually comes whenever I'm alone in some lab. Today was one of them

[Princess Ariel]

School.
Lunch and finding out some bad news.
Stupid hedgehog.

[autismtwin]

I binged, and someone I knew committed suicide.

[workingatperfect]

How much I dislike my dad. I don't understand why he makes me so miserable, and I feel bad that I can barely be around him.

My mom seems so oblivious sometimes.

I want to ask him something, but I'm so afraid that... Well, I'm not sure what I'm afraid of, I just am.

[Dooby the potato god]

Knowing I have plenty of time to do a large project, and still procrastinating. I'm going to hate myself tomorrow for not doing it.

[Princess Ariel]

School
Feeling like general shit mentally and physically all day.
Snow.
Flashbacks.
Someone found the blade in my phone.

[IcarusLives]

This is hell you don't ever have to fight fair.

[Magenta]

I feel fat. I want to cut. I just want to move.

[Abyssal Echo]

school
I am fat
really life in general

[Princess Ariel]

I didn't cut, but I came so close to it and i'm kinda kicking myself now because I fucking deserve the pain.

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Doing my family tree for careers.

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iaps homework ><

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More flashbacks coming home from tutoring.

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Terrified of whats to come tomorrow during the film test and math test.

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I'm so fucking fat.

[CharlieHorse]

I gave it my best. And I failed. Now punish me for failing because effort in this fucked up society doesn't matter.

[Mortal Coil]

Food. For most people it's just food. To me it's calories and fat grams and carbs to protein ratio and nutrient density and will this make me retain water and... why did I go and make everything so complicated?

[Bath]

I'm terrified of moving. I'm terrified of staying here. I don't know what I want. I'm too lazy to clean my stupid room. I have bad hygiene even though I pretend that I don't. I'm gross a good majority of the time. I can't figure out how I want to say things. I don't feel balanced. I'm fucking up my menstrual cycle. I'm running out of money.

[workingatperfect]

Scale says I've lost weight, and yet my jeans that used to fit me perfect are now tight... And what have I had to eat today? Pizza and fucking cake.

[xDarkAngelx]

Everything and had another flashback the other night.

[Princess Ariel]

Everything.

[xDarkAngelx]

Ate too much today.

[Abyssal Echo]

I'm still sick

[RunnerRunner]

the fact that my band lost our drummer. i cant get over it, he just decided to quit.

[Princess Ariel]

I made someone else cry.
I feel like I have been carrying bricks all damn day.
I feel like shit because I screwed up royally.

[CharlieHorse]

shit and more shit.
lack of shitlessness is depressing.

[Caver]

Discrimination in this place.

[SimSailorNick]

Being single :(

[xXl0sth0peXx]

Life.

[Shortie]

What is depressing me today? - all I ever do is upset people and there is no way out of it. Everyday is the same. I had a massive fight with my best friend (story posted in friends forum) over money, I haven't seen her in weeks and won't again anytime soon. Feeling depressed, used and shattered. =(

[Lyra Heartstrings]

i have to go to school.
again.

[SimSailorNick]

He didn't reply...

[Princess Ariel]

The migraine I went to bed with, is still here.
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Pool today.
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I HAVE to go to school today because of my afternoon classes and re-shooting studio light

[Michael702]

Last week my best friend told me to never to speak to him again for other reason that are to much to type out right now, then my boyfriend wants to take a break, and now my mom wont let my dad get me a small car cause i'm not comfortable driving the big suvs I just want a cheap small car my dad said we would look and my mom wont let him, my parents want me to get a job without any transportation to get one. ugh i'm at the lowest i think ive ever been in my life and I just so frustrated that all these event are happening one after another.

[Abyssal Echo]

alot of things life,home, school, bullshit going on here

[Princess Ariel]

Life and the things that were keeping me here are starting to not make a difference.

[Abyssal Echo]

alot of things but mostly the bull shit going on here (VT)

[Jess]

the fact that I'm not going home and we're probably not going to my favorite restaurant, if going to any at all. and I was TOLD last week we would be going. ugh.

[Princess Ariel]

I've been moody as fuck and in agony and moody for the past 24 hours and people had to deal with me.. yikes!

[brandon1995]

cold weather.

[Princess Ariel]

Woke up an hour ago because ow.
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The amount of careers homework thats due tomorrow is horrendous.

[teen.jpg]

Really liking someone who doesn't like you back.

[CharlieHorse]

Liking someone who will never be with you :(

[unusedaccount]

Really liking someone who doesn't like you back.

Happens all too often. =/

[Abyssal Echo]

going back to school in the morning

[CharlieHorse]

going back to school in the morning

True that's

[candabear17]

On Sunday I had to tell a good friend of mine who's basically my second mom that I had sex with her son. I know I did the right thing but I know it hurt her. Now I'm getting even more and more emotional while dealing with my rape. She was the first person I ever told and it just seems weird to not talk to her especially now that I'm finally getting help for it and filed a police report on Friday. I just miss her a lot and wish she could be here for me :/ I know she needs time to get over what I told her (she had absolutely no clue it was coming) but I need her. I'm just so confused and upset and I'm not even sure what to do with myself. Ive had a lot of suicidal thoughts over the last few days and find myself wishing and praying for death. I just want this all to stop.

[xarvon1412]

A lot. Well first there's school, which is occupying a lot of my time now that I'm in highschool. Second, there's my relationship. Not with my girlfriend, but rather with my ex. My relationship with my girlfriend is fantastic, I have really high hopes for this one. However, my ex is ignoring me again. I thought that we were over this, I thought that she finally realized that she shouldn't ignore me (after all it was she that broke up with me) but she's back to it again. So, I just don't understand that. I really wish that I could make sense of her ignoring me, but it doesn't make sense to me. I mean, it's been two months since she broke up with me, and she seemed like she was going to talk to me again, but to no avail, she won't look or talk to me. I just don't get it...Then there's my new pills. Yeah, I don't even know if they're working. I don't think that they are. I mean, they might be, but I just don't think so. I guess I wouldn't know though...

[Princess Ariel]

School.
Grades.
Failing to stand by my familys expectations.
Realizing how screwed I am for the real life

[Lost in the Echo]

A big ass headache i've had since yesterday.
Also, i've been having a hard time keeping my focus and concentration on everything.
It's really pissing me off.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Debt
Emotions
Go Nowhere job
Having to walk an hour in a blizzard over a bridge because I can't afford a car
Being completely useless

[Breakeven]

life!

[Matt_2012]

The fact that basically every single mate I've ever made has taken advantage of my kindness.

[Princess Ariel]

Course selections this morning.
Phtotography homework wasn't completed and it won't end well.
I'm in pain and the pain woke me up.

[candabear17]

I just don't understand why I'm alive. I've almost died so many times. I tried to overdose on 22000 mg of ibuprofen, woke up the next morning with a stomach ache. I put a 12 gauge in my mouth and pulled the trigger but it jammed. I've been beaten half to death, survived multiple accidental drug overdoses, been raped and choked to the point that I passed out. I don't want to be alive. I want to die. I know know why the world won't let it happen. Ive begun to think that God either forgot about me or he doesn't want me. I gave up on life years ago and I just want it to end.

[Princess Ariel]

everything.. Im just so numb.

[CharlieHorse]

I didn't do anything today...
I feel especially lonely today.
Dad being a dbag again.

[Princess Ariel]

I had to pry both of my eyes open.

[CharlieHorse]

VDay wasn't that bad actually
But i'm not happy today. Why do I suck at being happy?

[evie_rose]

Life in general depresses me.. haha, but you've got to laugh at the circumstances.

[Princess Ariel]

I have to get out of bed.
My eye itches, but I can itch it.
I had to pry my eyes open again.
My lips still have that fucking ring around it.
It's freezing out and I have to dress all fancy to go to the theater downtown.
Wizard Of Oz tickets that i'm scared will make me go insane from everything they did wrong.
Scared for a friend and the awkwardness she'll have to deal with today.

[Breakeven]

thinking , life

[Princess Ariel]

i want to talk to her, but im too scared to send even a simple hi
life has turned to shit.
i binged.
i'm going to be busy everyday until Thursday (Though Wednesday and Tomorrow, i'm not complaining) which will lead me into a pissy mood on friday when I get my leg looked at before my operation.
My eye still freaking itches.
I'm almost done a TV series that I got really into (17 episodes left)

[Abyssal Echo]

life in general
reading the thread about Richard brought back alot of really bad memories
one friend talking about suicide another just left VT
what a fucked up day

[Princess Ariel]

Woke up from a nightmare.
I got maybe 3 hours of sleep on the night when I needed it the most.
I'm in a horrible mood and I don't know how long this is going to last.
My headache is a bit too much for this early in the morning.
And just life and the shit that its had to deal with as of late..

[ThatGayishKidFrom98]

Everything....:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

[Princess Ariel]

Everything. And its only going to get worse.

[Sordid Saint]

I'm so confused and tired of what to make out of my life. I dont even have anyone to really talk to about it either :( like I feel like I can't do anything right at all, even my friends who do the same shit that I do are succeeding faster than I am. I don't even know which route to take in my life anymore, it all seems to lead to me fucking up in a different way. I know no one really reads this thread really but there has to be someone that feels the same as me right? :/ I feel hopeless and worthless at the same time and I'm really tired

[MrMundane]

The oscars got me really depressed. These are people who chose to be other people for a living, to never be themselves. And what does hollywood do? They flaunt it, like an expensive dress. Look at all the fucking perfect people we have here. Depression still going strong even after 4 years. Hopless and worthless, sure I feel this all the time, I have done nothing to feel better and everyone just wants me to get better. I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life and if that isn't sad enough, I have no idea what i even like anymore, in all sense of it. I am doing nothing, plain and simple, nothing. Sleep is horrendous and nightmares plague me.

[Princess Ariel]

Everything :/

[kiltipkid]

Life as normal wanna die

[loverboi]

What's making me depressed is my cat who's not even a year old is being uthenized BC she had kittenns two of the three died and she wouldn't let anyone but me near her and the kitten and my little sister.wouldn't listen and she agent after.her

[TedMoz]

well, my girlfriend is going abroad for a long time =(

[Mortal Coil]

Basically everything.

[Princess Ariel]

Life and how fucking meaningless it is and how meaningless I am to the world and everyone and everything else.

[Jess]

....myself, how stupid I am and how I'm not good at anything and how I don't deserve to be in Pitt x_x

[CharlieHorse]

My dreams taunt my loneliness every night.

[Magenta]

The fact it's taken me this long to realise this is the last time I put up with this crap from Sadie. I'm just so fucking done being treated like I'm some emotional toy and having my feelings tossed aside and invalidated the way they do.

[WalkingOnDisaster]

My big brother and best friend died in a car crash...... I'm so..... I don't even know now.

[Princess Ariel]

Seeing the mother of the friend who seems to think I'm the reason why her daughter is dead and that I couldn't save her.

Life has turned to shit.

[Magenta]

I have to see her in class today when I just want to cry and move away to a different city even sooner.

[Lost in the Echo]

School.

[hero98]

nothing today :)

[MrMundane]

my lack of self restraint, fucking coke

[WalkingOnDisaster]

Today's my brother's funeral... That's depressing me.

[Princess Ariel]

I'm in a shit load of physical pain and I just want to curl up in a ball and diiiieeeee.

[CharlieHorse]

absolutely nothing!!! im gonna dance! :P

[Desuetude]

This looming English assessment is stressing me out. The B that I'm currently on is going to drop pretty drastically.
My parents are messing me around with the living arrangements again.
Getting my Science results next week.
Feels like I'm getting bad again.

[xDarkAngelx]

Everything, I really should just kill myself, make everyone happy.

[Jean Poutine]

i miss her.

she said her heart was mine.

but i miss her so so much.

[xoxoMaAn1o]

Final term requirements. Ugh. Just ugh!

[Princess Ariel]

having to come home..

[xXl0sth0peXx]

death.

[Sordid Saint]

So much, I wanna lay down and die :/

[Emerald Dream]

two instances of guilt, being labeled as something I'm not, fear of unexpected emotions, and heartbreak of watching someone else's pain

[CharlieHorse]

Ran across the street and in front of a car to get to class on time.
Driver was pretty pissed.
:|
Never again.

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it's all coming back again.
The feelings eating me alive. Anxiety, depression. I knew that my recent happiness was too good to be true...
Im under so much stress. I cant take it. I'm bound to break down soon.
I'm lying and faking all day. I'm so tired, and im dying inside, slowly. :(

[Princess Ariel]

All I could think about today was Liana and her death a week ago.. not to mention every single horrible thing about myself.

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I've become paranoid of going on facebook, for several reasons.

[CharlieHorse]

5266

5267

5268

:'(
:miss:

[Jess]

several things - one of them is what happened to my computer. stupid thing to be depressed over :/

[CharlieHorse]

Every fucking thing is against me.
I'm going to be offline for a while again.
I don't think I can go to school tomorrow.
I hate myself so much I just want to stab myself in places that won't kill me. I deserve nothing, no, less than nothing.
I'm done.

[Abyssal Echo]

Life in general

[MrMundane]

mental distortion

[xDarkAngelx]

I don't know what i'm doing anymore.

[metallic_pink]

The thoughts of not being able to see, hug or be with my Pops no more...

[SevenHells]

School. Tired. World weary

[PoseidonX43]

my weight.

[Princess Ariel]

Homework over spring break.

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Doctors today - stupid cramps and making me throw up..

[Jess]

stupid family and something else

[Akasuki]

Literally everything

[muffin with a knife]

the possibility of being pregnant after a rape :| i just wanna die....

[Princess Ariel]

Turns out I have an Iron Deficiency..

[Sordid Saint]

There's no one to talk to that can cheer me up. Also, Supposedly there's supposed to be a truancy officer to look for me if I don't go to school tomorrow. I don't know if I believe it or if they're just trying to get me to go to school. I can't be bothered by school anymore, that means I have to sit in a room all day with my own thoughts and nothing to distract me from myself. Half of my friends don't even go to school anymore. Maybe I should just drop out like them and become a full time junk box. Sigh

[workingatperfect]

She barely knows who I am... I just can't wrap my head around that. I've spent hours wondering how she's been and what's happened to her the last 4 years. I've cried about how much I miss her and I've resented my mom for making me lose such a good friend. And she doesn't know me. She doesn't remember.

[Desuetude]

My friends doing her IT project on eating disorders is triggering.
My head of year has contacted CAMHS about me without telling me.
This burn is probably infected.
Finding it harder to deal with the bullying.

[Abyssal Echo]

said some stupid shit to my best friend on Skype now he wont talk to me

[Princess Ariel]

everything. and I just want to cuddle :c

[West Coast Sheriff]

Losing a relative

[Jess]

Mom, classes, myself. ugh.

[CharlieHorse]

Classwork.
My crush likes someone else. She came to me asking for advice on how to ask another guy out.
So we just talked.
She doesn't know how much I care about her. She doesn't know I still love her. :(
But I know we can't be together.

[bloodshot_eyes]

Being alone. I feel like I can't talk to anyone seriously.

[Skyline]

I am really procrastinating on my english paper...

[xXl0sth0peXx]

Bella went to the emergency room tonight. And I'm terrified for her life.

[workingatperfect]

That my boyfriend is so far away.

[CharlieHorse]

Argh. I has homework and I'm too lazy to do it. Lol :D
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I realized that all things will end eventually... :(

[Horatio Nelson]

My girlfriend fighting for her life everyday in a hospital room.

[workingatperfect]

I'm afraid something is wrong with my bird. His beak and nails look a little weird and he was acting weird earlier. :(

[Sordid Saint]

I feel so worthless.
Everything is catching up to me. I wish that I could just reset my life. Why did I do all that shit? :(
And I don't have a girlfriend

[CharlieHorse]

I'm pathetic.
I'm a failure.
I want to die.

[workingatperfect]

The fact that I have stretch marks, and not just a couple little spots.

[norcaldude18]

I lost every single photo of my life from my computer today. I was stupid and didn't back them up.

[AbbaZabba]

What always gets in my way....myself.

[West Coast Sheriff]

Loosing people close to me

[Abyssal Echo]

my VT friend got banned

[CharlieHorse]

This> 5294

[workingatperfect]

This> 5294

What?! Aw :(
I didn't get to talk to my boyfriend for very long. My kitty just scratched me (playfully, but it still hurt) and I didn't get much of a dinner because my mom and step dad went out. I didn't go because my dad was supposed to pick me up, but he didn't.

[Free_Music_Bird]

The fact that i feel like I'm never going to accomplish or fulfill my families expectations of my life... </3 Like I'm not going to amount to anything to what my brothers and sisters do...I'm one of six kids..

[sprouse530]

Free_music_bird I'm always here if you need to talk, you know that, talk to me or PM me if you need to talk if not then drop me a post on my visitor blog remember some times it helps to just smile

[Free_Music_Bird]

Well Sprouse, I always talk to you about things, and when I need to vent your there. We talk, text, write, almost every single day. You keep my head straight, and stabilize my emotions when they get out of control. You are my BEST friend ever, I talk to you about everything. Matt you literally are my savior. You get me through depression, but its still there.

[Princess Ariel]

Im starting to think its the end..

this hangover thats only getting worse as the day gets on..

[Abyssal Echo]

my best friends new puppy died :( I tried to help him feel better but as usual failed miserably

[Princess Ariel]

The taste of iron in my mouth really only makes me want to cut more, even though I really want this tattoo. But it's never been this tempting.

[crepesuzette]

people in general tend to withdraw from me. i don't know what i've done. I've checked all my motives. I have been polite, and I have joked around with other people, which is something that a person does normally but that's not the message i'm getting.

[Eagle1]

My best friend just said she has "no more positive feelings for [me]". All because we got in one argument where for the first time I stood up to her. Then claimed she still wanted to be friends. The amount of friends I've lost defending her time and time over just for her to end it like this.

[Princess Ariel]

everything.

[princessholly]

everything.

It will get better :3 just remember what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

[West Coast Sheriff]

My sucky ass grades

[xAlfredo]

My sexuality was

[CharlieHorse]

School and missing a friend.

[Incompris]

I still dont have any friends.

[Rainbowfairy]

That even though I have lots of attention from boys and I love the sex and thrill of doing stuff like giving a cheeky flash while going commando - deep down I just want to be loved in a happy relationship

[outruncone8116]

It always helps me to vent anyways.

So, what's depressing you today?

For me, I just feel extraordinarily tired, and there's still another school day and a Saturday track meet to go until I can rest.

every 1 makes fun of me ALL THE time i just wanna punch'em in the face but i can't :(

[bored4evah]

The fact no one cares about me

[outruncone8116]

It always helps me to vent anyways.

So, what's depressing you today?

For me, I just feel extraordinarily tired, and there's still another school day and a Saturday track meet to go until I can rest.

I AM SO LONELY WaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAA:(:(:(:(:(:(

[CharlieHorse]

I feel tired and bad and I don't get any work done.
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I got home and was greated by yet another report card displaying my failure. I don't really care anymore.
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Tomorrow is gonna suck, I have 3 tests and a presentation to give that I have done hardly anything on. :/
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I can't believe how stupid I am sometimes.
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And every time I see a couple sharing a kiss in public, I get really sad. It's just another reminder that I'm probably never going to find anyone that can love me.
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I feel really lonely. Every little joking comment like "hey Charlie, quit crying like a baby and go get a gf. You need one lol." and "Charlie, why dont you go get a REAL gf? I'm sure there's lots of girls that like you (sarcasm)."... they sting. Really... badly... :cry:
Do they not know that I've tried?
Do they not know that I'm useless? Do they not know that there's no point for me anymore? I am nothing, and nothing matters anymore.
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I miss Andy.
A friend of mine.
I know it's weird to say, but I love him. He's such an amazing guy.
I've never cried in front of someone before then, but on the last day he was in town, I just cried like a baby in front of everyone. It was really embarrassing.
I'm probably never going to see him ever again.
He was so good at helping me feel good about myself. I could tell him anything,and he'd hug me and help me through it.
He never judged me. He never lied to me. He was always there.
But now he's gone.
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I hate myself.

[Abyssal Echo]

I tried to do something nice for a friend.....I dunno why I keep trying... it seems I've failed again.

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Crushing on my best friend.

So much homework to do.

Family drama.

[CharlieHorse]

I just feel like shit.


My birthday party.
I hate having so much attention.
It's really stressful. :/
And I know I sound like a bitch for saying so.
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People think I am ungratful for my gifts, but I'm not. I'm very grateful, I was just really tired and I felt sick the whole time.
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My aunt cracked a few jokes about me not having a gf. I tried to smile. I almost decided to run away and cry. :cry: It was really hard to hold it all back again...
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why am I so pathetic?
Why am I ever here?
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I ate too much cake. I'm getting fatter... :(
I have school tomorrow.
My middlecollege application is due by the end of the week, but I don't have enough self esteem to write anything good about myself. I guess I won't get in...
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I tried to troll my brother (saying the original of the song playing was so much better than the remix) to lighten the mood driving home, and he just got really pissed and now he just hates my guts.
I don't know why.
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I had a dream where I was alone... again.

[Princess Ariel]

I've got a psychology unit test tomorrow that i'm so ill prepared for.

I never want to go to improv, but more so today since a friend hacked an ask site and sent questions off anon and we don't talk.

[Bethany]

I have no real friends.

[CharlieHorse]

I will fail my middle college application miserably. It was my last chance to become a better person.
I'm pretty much doomed to be a miserable, lonely, fucked up failure.

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Not being able to tell my best friend that I'm bi.

[Spectro]

I messed myself up so bad that I don't know if it can be fixed or not.

[Erasmus]

How much homework I have -_-

[Harry Smith]

I feel tired

[PoseidonX43]

I feel like i'm close to a relapse.. :(
this just all to much emotions.

Edit: i was right whooray...

[Danny Phantom]

The fact that I feel left out and out of place no matter where I go. online or in person. I feel unwelcomed and not wanted.

[Darkness.]

The fact that life feels like it is on autopilot, nothing changes, nothing out of the ordinary happens. It's just the same thing over and over and over.

[centropede]

I just feel,...weird, i have nothing to do...
Dont have best friend...

[crepesuzette]

i don't want to be depressed at all, but some stupid songs in my head won't freakin go away.
another thing that depresses me is that i have no place to go cuhs it's spring break. I'm not going out at all and my friends are all home studying for their AP exams.