feeling bad about who i am.

[polarbear]

i dont want to go on a whole rant so im just gonna say this, why do all us who like someone of the same sex have to go through all this? even when not being bullied, which has never happened to me, (im still in the closet) i still beat myself up and just want to CHANGE. did i chose this? why do i have to kill myself on the inside when i know i cant change who i am? i just dont want to do anything, im starting to fall into sadness...

[smitty35]

So why not let that monkey of your back? Since you are falling into sadness, I think its time to tell everyone and truely be happy. Or you can wait until you graduate. Its up to you.

And when you say "change" I'm assuming that you want to change your sexuality? If so then its not easy. I dont think that you should change just to be accepted by others.

[Sosaku]

I'm pretty much out, it doesn't make me happy...being gay, well it isn't easy...you won't be accepted...trust me...My school, they are tolerant...and accepting when i talk about it...but you will always hear, "I hope he finds the girl that's perfect for him..." (that's one i'm hearing about this guy I like, people know, and they still say it...

[tyler007]

Hey your right and i know how hard it is too, Being BI or (gay im guessing) is total hard and sometimes very unfair. I think that when you are ready you should tell come out, but i told a few freinds that I was BI and it helped alot... I know that alot of people now know and some are cool with it some are not. But I really think it helps just to tell a good freind, I have told more girls than boys but they are mostly cooler with it.

YOU are not alone in how you feel....

[Blind]

It is kinda hard to keep it in trust me I know. It took me a while to come out as a Bisexual but I did and I felt relived and happy. It depends on who you tell most people around here are pretty fine with me being the way I am. And those who make fun of I just ignore them. It's who you are and its not really a choice even though it may seem like one. Just think about it and think about when you will come out and how you will come out. It might take some time but im sure you will feel more confident once you do.

[JackShephard]

Take a lesson from Lady GaGa. Her song "Born this way" pretty much tells you that you shouldn't be ashamed of who you are. If your gay, then that's that. When you come out of the closet, it will really define your friends from your "friends". I personally think that the people that love you for who you are are the best kinds of friends in life.

So maybe some of your peers will think differently or you. Your parents might even disapprove. But the people that turn their back on you over one little thing like that, aren't even worth friendship.

Love who you are, accept it. Dont try to force the mask onto your face so that it might conform to it!!! I've had my troubles with this sort of thing. I used to be an addict. I was so afraid of what people thought if they ever found out. And I let it slip once. Some of my "friends" turned their back on me which hurt a little bit. But then I got over it when I realized that a fiend shouldent look on your surface. But on the inside.

If you have asshole parents that would reject you, then I say, fuck them. They shouldent be so worried about who you are, only worried about just you. If my mom rejected me for something like that, I will admit, it's gonna hurt.

Keep your chin up, accept who you are. I'm not saying you should or shouldent, but coming out of the closet will change everything. In short term, it may be painful, but in long term, I think it's going to be for the better.

[Never_Forget]

I know how you feel. The age-old question "why me?" was a question I asked commonly. Why is it me that has to be different, why can't I be normal? But over the last year (mostly thanks to my beautiful friends, I love you <3) I've come to realise that I am normal. I still have steps to take, eg. I'm still closeted, but I've come to love myself and who I am, in most aspects, at least. The way in which people are different is what makes this world beautiful. Imagine a world where everyone was the same - it's not a nice image. We only get one shot at life, so enjoy it and don't let other people ruin it for you. Don't be someone you're not. Fuck the haters, you don't need to live up to their expectations.
Don't hide yourself in regret, just love yourself and you're set, you're on the right track baby, you were born this way.