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[IDon'tLikeUsernames]

Um, I read the Post about Depression and getting help, and I think I have Atypical Depression. I think it started in 7th grade and gradually got worse until 9th grade, where I started cutting. I've stopped self-harming, but now I'm afraid that I might do it again. Every little thing affects my mood and I don't know how to be happy on my own. I really don't know if I can talk to any friends or family, because they don't really talk much about mental illnesses, and the counselors at my school don't really seem very personal. I went to see a therapist once, but my family's kind of low on cash now...I really don't know where to go :S.

[sarah newman]

First of all, well done for not self harming. I know its hard but you have succeeded by not doing it so well done. Try and focus on a hobby to keep it that way. Go out more and meet up with your friends so you are sure you won't do it.
If you aren't comfortable with seeing a counsellor, go and speak to your doctor; they will tell you the right information on who to see and they will give you good advice on how to stay strong and feel confident in yourself.
Try and talk to someone you trust, because even if you get the impression that they don't care, I'm sure that deep down they do. And although it might not seem like it, there are people out there who care and love you.
If you ever wanna talk, I'm always here, so message me and I promise you I won't judge you and i will reply. Good luck with what you decide :)

[IDon'tLikeUsernames]

Thanks so much :). I actually talked to my friend on Friday. She came with me to make an appointment to see a guidance counselor. So, I guess you were right ^^.

[sarah newman]

Well done :) hope it went well for you, this is the start of you getting your life back on track :)

[IDon'tLikeUsernames]

I suppose so, but sadly, there was a festival at school, so I had to reschedule for tomorrow.

[sarah newman]

Oh, well stay strong until tomorrow then (unless your time schedule is the same time as ours lol) :)

[IDon'tLikeUsernames]

Thanks so much :)

[sarah newman]

No problem, I'm always here if you wanna talk :)

[IDon'tLikeUsernames]

Thanks. I think I may be feeling a bit better for talking about it, but I'm not sure. This usually happens, and I end up forgetting about getting any help, because I think that it's just a phase, but then I start feeling depressed again, and then I feel all swallowed up, as if I can't do anything. It really confuses me.