i dont know ?

[beag_amhain]

i dont know, i know i shudn cut but it seems like its all i can do, i dont want to but its like i need to, i hate it sooooooooooo much n wish someone would catch me so i can go bak to my therapist without feeling its my own down fall that i have to, i want to go bak to her but i convinced her that i was fine that i didnt need her help, but i do, but i dont want to go bak because then shel know i lied, which is worse then knowing that i actually need someone, i should be ok on my own, i shouldnt need anyone to make me better, i should be able to do it myself, but im not able to even though i know i shoud be able to, im cutting worse then i ever have n i want to be able to fix myself, but i cant, but i cant tell any1 cuz then it shows im weak, i need help but i dont deserve it cuz i lied n now i dont know wat to do cept cut, which is only short term help, so i dont know wat to do...

[bleedoutlove]

Trust me, she won't mind. I promise you with all my heart, she will not mind. She'll be so happy to help. If you don't want to say that you "lied", say you thought you'd be fine but you need her afterall. There's nothing shameful in asking for help, I promise you <3 I'm here if you need to talk :)

[anonymous53]

She won't mind you lied to her. As bleed said, tell her you thought you could handle it, but you really couldn't. There's nothing wrong with needing her help at all :) all that matter is you get better :)

Also, telling someone doesn't show you're weak, it shows you're strong and want to get better :)

[Fiction]

I'm in a similar situation to you. I was discharged from my coucnellor because I managed to convince him I was fine.
She won't mind, she'll be happy that you where honest in the end. They understand that sometimes it's hard to tell people these things and she won't hate you for it. If you think you need help then go back to her, before things get even worse.