My parents read my journal and think I'm crazy.

[iamlauren]

Life is at its lowest point for me right now.

See, I don't exactly cut. I scratch my skin and scratch off the scabs. I only do it on my legs and I never wear shorts so most people don't know. But my parents consider it cutting. They think I'm mental, and I'll explain why later. They think i have OCD, depression, anxiety, and self harm issues. Truthfully, I'm perfectly normal but its my parents who are making my life living hell.

In March I wrote a journal/diary. Well, actually, I typed it. Three pages every night. I also had a secret email account I had made so that I could email my friends without my parents reading my email. (Yes, I'm in eighth grade and they do that.) Also, I am gay, but of course my parents had no idea. then one day my parents somehow got my password and read all of my emails and read my entire journal. Before they read it, they were really mean to me. Now they just hate me and I hate them too. They make me see a therapist regularly and plan to send me to an inpatient facility. They also hate that I am gay. They don't understand that I am not depressed or anything. I am perfectly normal, except for the part that I reallllly love Sarah. But that doesn't make me crazy. They invaded my privacy and I think they are emotionally abusing me.

Everyone at school thinks that I love going to school because i am weird and love school. The real reason I like school is for two reasons. One: I'm not at home. Two: I get to see Sarah.

What do I do to make my parents see that I am not mental? The scratching is just a bad habit, I can stop; I am almost healed. I don't want them to send me away. Then I'll never see Sarah again.

[Love.Hate]

I think you need to sit your parents down and talk to them.
Tell them straight, talk about how your openly gay and you want them to accpet you for who you are. Tell them that your not cutting. Just scratching- but be careful yeah because it does start from there. Tell them there is no need to send you away.

They sound quite intrusive, i would hate my parents to read my diary. Maybe they just care a bit too much? They are probably shocked to find out your gay, but most parents are shocked.. so it maybe just be the normal reaction.

I also think you should talk to your therapist about how you feel, they might give some good advice on how your parents must be feeling, and how to deal with them.

VM me if you need anything or want to talk, oh and welcome to VT im Fran :)

[Cutting-Me]

I had a similar issue once. My neighbor told my prents I cut myself and that I only hang out with 'emo' kids, so they made me take off all my bracelets and show them. We handled it...sort of...i was forced to stop. But they still havent found my diary XD. You really need to talk to your parents, and do it when you have a good day because they will have ALOT of questions when you finish talking. Talk to them when your ready though, not when they are. If your not open about being gay right now, its okay! Your th only person who can make the decisions in your life. Dont let anyone make you think otherwise. You are YOU. Lots of people will love you for who you are. No matter what.

[Fiction]

Surly if they try to send you to an inpatient unit, they'll be professionals there that can see there is nothing wrong with you?

Have you told your therapist about this? About how they are treating you because she may be able to talk to them and help make your situation a little better.

It sounds to me as though they are in the wrong and you need a way to get through to them about this and as I said, if you can't do it yourself get your therapist or whatever to do it for you.

[georgiamay]

I remember when my dad read my diary... I was so angry it was ridiculous. He made me see a psychiatrist who refered me to see a therapist. I don't mind being in therapy tbh, because I know I'd be much worse right now if I didn't see a therapist, I don't even want to think about what I would have done.

If they try and send you to an inpatient unit, they'll give you an evaluation before they admit you. If they think you're okay and there's nothing wrong, they won't admit you into the unit. But if they think there is something going on, maybe they'll admit you.

What makes them think you have issues with OCD, depression, anxiety etc? People that have these things aren't "mental." They have a problem, yes, but they're not "mental." If you do get diagnosed with something one day, it doesn't mean you're mental, please stop attaching that word to everything involving psychological health, it makes you feel even worse.

They were in the wrong to do this, and maybe you should talk to them about it, or ask your therapist to talk to them if you don't want to.

[bleedoutlove]

~Sorry if this isn't at all helpful...I hope it is, I just can't word these things well~

I know how you feel. My parents know I have OCD, and my Dad actually makes fun of me for it. I'm also bi with a gay lean (I'd never want to date a guy), and if he found out I'd be kicked out my house.
If you can talk to your parents about this, and I understand if your parents are homophobic it'll be incredibly hard - but maybe you can convince them that you are normal, you are who you are, and you're still their same daughter.
About the scratching - tell your parents it's literally a bad habbit - as part of my OCD, I cannot help but scratching and peeling scabs so I have scars all over my arms, legs, knuckles, wrists - you name it - tell them you don't do it with intentions of harming yourself.
Sorry I couldn't be of more help.

Much love, best wishes :)

Removed E-mail. Please don't give out contact information. ~ georgiamay.

[sarah newman]

Aww I'm sorry to hear that. They shouldn't of invaded your privacy like that, and most of all they should understand what your going through. I think you should sit and talk to them, show them that you are normal, and you just want them to trust and love you. Pm me any time if you wanna chat, good luck with what ever you choose xx