Give up!!

[moon_lit_angel]

Ok don't know if this is in the right forum. If its not then please move it thanks.! :)


Ok so for those who haven't read any of my other posts i'll tell you the story..
I'm not going into detail because i'll be triggered and others may be too.!!!


Six years ago, someone started to abuse me.. this went on for about a year and a half to two years.
Three years ago, i was raped by 3 guys and became pregnant.
I had a miscarriage four months into the pregnancy.
I've been through several bad break ups since then.
Last November, I was attacked again.

Now its april 24th.. three years and a week after my attack,

i'm still getting flashbacks, reliving the pain and memories.

i self harm and i have an eating disorder.

i was at the doctors last tuesday and asked her about stuff but she just said we all have days like this and i'll get over it.!!

The fact is.. I won't. I can't move on.

I've been constantly depressed for the past 3 weeks and nothing has cheered me up.! I pretend to be happy in front of my family because they don't know anything about any of it.!!!

My friends are useless, just spreading shit and making up stuff for me to feel worse!!
Its my ex best friend's brother's birthday today.. He died last august the day after our debs.


I just want this pain to go away...!!! I feel like giving up..

:/ :(


Merged, please don't double post. ~ georgiamay.

[georgiamay]

:hug3:

If you give up now, you'll never get better. Sure, it might seem like there's no light at the end of the tunnel, but there always is. If you keep fighting it, one day you'll get through this, and you'll be able to look back and realise how strong you were to be able to get through it all.

Giving up really does seem like the easy option, I've felt like giving up so many times before, but I didn't and I'm glad I never gave up. I might not be over it all yet, but maybe one day I will.

The doctor that said that... Well, she shouldn't have said that. Maybe you should go and see a different doctor and ask for help.

We're all here for you if you need someone to talk to. :)

[Russ]

If u giv up then the ppl who did the horrible things 2 u win so d't giv up!! focus on the gud things in life!

[moon_lit_angel]

its hard to focus on the good things when theres very few :(

[georgiamay]

If you honestly think that you've hit rock bottom, that means that the only way you can go is up. Things can always get better, no matter how bad things seem now.

[moon_lit_angel]

I dunno hun. everything is just so dark atm :(

[Fiction]

Your doctor shouldn't have said that, and I suggest going to see a different doctor about this. Are you in councelling or any form of help?

[sarah newman]

I'm so sorry, that must have been awful for you.
But speaking to a doctor is a good thing, it gets it out of your system. But your doctor should know how much this has effected you. Maybe speak to a councillor instead?
I know this will have a massive effect on your future and I'm sorry to say that you will never forget about this, but it will ease in time, I promise.
If you wanna talk about it, I'm always here. Message me whenever you want.

[Cynical]

It's hard, but you can get through this. Be strong and pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Try getting a councilor so you can talk about your problems I know that helped me out. I wish you the best of luck, and hope you feel happy extremely soon.