very confuseing.

[moondream]

in the past week i have started to cut, i dont like it, and i do, but its an odd feeling its weird, i dont know what to do, i am not trying to kill my self, but recently my bestfriend has just forgot about me and left me. i got to therpy and they say im scared of ppl leaveing me, its a constant patteren in my life. i feel this is very weird, i like the feeling of blood and pain to forget about the rest of the hurt feeling, is this normal?

[Tristin.]

cutting is hard thing to understand, as everybody's reasons are different.

i hated the fact i was cutting, yet i needed it as a release. it was something that made sence, i could contol it.

it sounds to me, that you find the cutting is something that doesnt leave you, the pain is there. and while i strongly recomend you stop cutting and talk to your friend, i can see where you are coming from.

it is normal when you start to be confused, but this time is the best to stop.

if you need to talk, message me :)

[Ambrosia]

You should tell your therapist then. I know that sounds horrible but hey, what's there to lose? You're therapist can help you can up with a new BETTER more HEALTHY release in place of cutting.

People cut as a way to release that pain that is just unbareable. Usually. And you do it as a replacement for the lonely scared feeling. It's stoppable. Especially if you don't like doing it.

[Love.Hate]

There Is no real way you 'should' feel about hurting yourself. Everyone is different.
But what I say is don't go there, it's easy to stop now before it all gets out of hand. Replace it with something else, like exercise, writing, drawing? I don't know anything.

I think you should talk to your therapist, they can help you.
It's not a nice thing at all, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

It's a very confusing stage, and i think most of us will agree that there is no normal part of cutting, but trying to forget you're emotional pain can be a big choice for first time cutters.

all i can offer is that advice to quit while you're ahead, before you become hooked and it gets dangerous.

i think its good that you've got someone to talk to, and would suggest tasking to them, that may be your outlet instead of cutting?

Hope you're alright wherever you are and feel free to message me :) x