MyRedHeadWorld
April 24th, 2011, 03:26 PM
Ok, so I havnt been on here for a while, Maybe cause life got better then it was before, But now Im confused again...
Im a very trustworthy person, I deal with everyones problems and I help them, Im always supportive and because I have litrally heard it all I know how to help 80% of the time! But its hard because even though everyone thinks Im fine now (I use to dream of killing myself and I Cut myself but I stopped) I still Have those feelings at times and Now Im feed up of people back stabing me and my parents thinking Im an idiot and a few other things, I keep thinking of running away :/ And I try to tell people But they dont help!
one friend recintly broke up with this boy, and now shes actully just saying everything I use to go through and all my feelings, and saying its how she feels and shes going through it when she isnt! She hasnt go scares, she never had mental break downs and shes a genuinly happy person till someone say there upset, and now, after I tried to talk to her bout my feelings of running away, She said she wanted to...Oh and she had told me this story about a different ex that abused her and is in prison for rapping a bunch of girls, BUT NOW HES OUT ON BAIL! And pruposed to her ¬¬ It sounds fake but I dunno :S
My other mate Is dealing with actual crap! She might get beat up, she almost became pregnant, and police and all sorts of stuff! but we had an argument and suddenly when she falls out with people and this happens, She wants to be my mate again :/
This boy I know has been with like dozens of girls and now he cant get this girl and is pushing his mates away including me, but I always get back and help him, but when I want help, The responses "ohh " "ok!" "ohh, sorry" Its like, Ohh screw you ¬¬
One friend wants to break up with someone cause they dont talk but wont and asks me what to do, then I tell her end it, and she doesnt. One mate thinks he's to weird so I say, grow up a bit then if your sick of it, or screw everyone and be yourself! he then just egnores me for a week and basically type humps everyone (teehee XP) and then My one friend knows how much I like this boy, and how much I hate being his close mate cause we'll never be together and such, so she says to him she likes him and shit and then I find out cause he tells me and she trys to get back in my good books! ohh and him, the boy I like, He's sick of woman, but he still puts up with me and a few others at least ;)
I love helping my mates, But no one seems to help me or pay attention to me...ever?! I dont want constant attention or love, But at time I dont wanna feel like a left out loser and that someone does care, cause I am now loosing the will to live again, and Im very tempted on just walking out of there lives and my parents and since I got into a lot of money recintly, Im just gunna go where the wind takes me...
I dunno if anyone read all that or cares but, what should I do? do I carry on feeling like crap every day, or what? :/x
Im a very trustworthy person, I deal with everyones problems and I help them, Im always supportive and because I have litrally heard it all I know how to help 80% of the time! But its hard because even though everyone thinks Im fine now (I use to dream of killing myself and I Cut myself but I stopped) I still Have those feelings at times and Now Im feed up of people back stabing me and my parents thinking Im an idiot and a few other things, I keep thinking of running away :/ And I try to tell people But they dont help!
one friend recintly broke up with this boy, and now shes actully just saying everything I use to go through and all my feelings, and saying its how she feels and shes going through it when she isnt! She hasnt go scares, she never had mental break downs and shes a genuinly happy person till someone say there upset, and now, after I tried to talk to her bout my feelings of running away, She said she wanted to...Oh and she had told me this story about a different ex that abused her and is in prison for rapping a bunch of girls, BUT NOW HES OUT ON BAIL! And pruposed to her ¬¬ It sounds fake but I dunno :S
My other mate Is dealing with actual crap! She might get beat up, she almost became pregnant, and police and all sorts of stuff! but we had an argument and suddenly when she falls out with people and this happens, She wants to be my mate again :/
This boy I know has been with like dozens of girls and now he cant get this girl and is pushing his mates away including me, but I always get back and help him, but when I want help, The responses "ohh " "ok!" "ohh, sorry" Its like, Ohh screw you ¬¬
One friend wants to break up with someone cause they dont talk but wont and asks me what to do, then I tell her end it, and she doesnt. One mate thinks he's to weird so I say, grow up a bit then if your sick of it, or screw everyone and be yourself! he then just egnores me for a week and basically type humps everyone (teehee XP) and then My one friend knows how much I like this boy, and how much I hate being his close mate cause we'll never be together and such, so she says to him she likes him and shit and then I find out cause he tells me and she trys to get back in my good books! ohh and him, the boy I like, He's sick of woman, but he still puts up with me and a few others at least ;)
I love helping my mates, But no one seems to help me or pay attention to me...ever?! I dont want constant attention or love, But at time I dont wanna feel like a left out loser and that someone does care, cause I am now loosing the will to live again, and Im very tempted on just walking out of there lives and my parents and since I got into a lot of money recintly, Im just gunna go where the wind takes me...
I dunno if anyone read all that or cares but, what should I do? do I carry on feeling like crap every day, or what? :/x