i don't want him to go....

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

i don't want to have to sell my horse. or put him down. but my aunt and mom have put a deadline on him. he's just a deadweight. he's got navicular disease, he can't be shown or worked hard. but i don't want him to leave. i know it means i could get a horse i could actually ride, but.... i don't know. i agree with them, but at the same time.... i've asked everyone i know, i have ads up, i hve sent out emails.. nothing.
i wish i lived in a place where he could just be turned out somewhere and live his life that way. but i don't. i have to live in the most densely populated county in the whole fucking state. why can't i just fucking live in the country with my cousin! she's living the life i want. i'm stuck here, in prep school surrounded by people who will never fucking understand me. they wear designer jeans, i wear camo. fuck them. they can suck it. :mad: i hate it here. i've hated it here since i was 12, when i went to Wyoming and realized that was the life i wanted. to be surrounded by horses, and open space, and live on a big piece of land. but that's nearly impossible now. everything is so expensive, and the kind of life i want just isn't around anymore. besides, you kinda have to be born into it. i was born into the wrong culture entirely. there's no hope for me to make it there. i don't understand why life and God and whatever is out there had to make it so fucking difficult for us. if whatever made this cared so fucking much, wouldn't it want us to be happy?! wouldn't it just provide for us and care for us, instead of let us ruin everything and each other? i just don't understand.
this turned into amajor rant very quickly... sorry.... :(

[ocdgirl333]

Hi,

I totally get how you feel. My parents are moving into a caravan soon and we have two dogs. I don't live at home anymore so I hardly get to see them, but when it was mentioned that they might have to be sold, I nearly broke down crying on the spot. They might get into the rubbish, or watch you go to the toilet when you forget to close the door, but they're the best dogs ever and I hate the thought of them going :(

Hang in there sweetheart *hug*

[swindy43]

give u a hug.

[Chris_Dobson]

Just got 2 pregenant horses > To find out they're malnurished and the babies and mothers could die during labour. You're not the only one in a depressed state.

~Chris