Every time I think I have it figured out...

[Bleh]

So, I don't know my sexual orientation or gender. I'm 16, I'm supposed to have these things solved so that I can date and be comfortable with myself.

Sexuality:

I'm attracted to guys but I only ever fall in love with girls, the wrong girls. I really hope I just need to meet the right guy, but I'm affraid that I'm only ever going to be attracted to unattainable, perfect guys and never fall in love with a guy that wants me as much as I want him. In a weird way, I really hope I'm gay because it's better than wanting two different things at the same time.

Gender:

I don't know if I'm a boy or a girl. I've toyed around with labeling myself bigendered but that just feels weird, like a fancy tie on a hobo. It's too clean of a definition for something so complicated. Some days, I wake up and feel confident, attractive, and proud that I tower over most people, and I feel somehow masculine. Other days, I have a passionate vigor for life, but I feel like a girl. I get uncomfortable because I am so tall, and girls aren't supposed to be tall, I want to be slender but I don't care about having breasts. On these days, everyone loves me because I'm vibrant, quirky, and funny but I'm uncomfortable. Sometimes, these qualities bleed over, I'm always optimistic for example, but moreso when I feel like a girl.

Both of these things are really starting to take a toll. I don't know how to picture my future, which is a problem because I usually constantly make logical plans for every possible outcome. It bothers me that I'm too unsure of what the possible directions my life can go in to even plan. I just want to know who I am. I want to feel like a whole person, not some broken, confused person.

[Rayquaza]

I think you need to be certain about yourself before anyone can make judgement. Remember its normal for your feelings and hormones to fluctuate widly, and were you born as a guy or a girl?

[Bleh]

I'm physically male. My main problem with my gender is that I feel good when I feel like a guy: I feel tall, proud, and respectable; but I also feel emotionally stiff and somehow fake. I feel right when I feel like a girl, but I also feel terribly wrong because my body isn't right. I feel comfortable with both in different ways, but I still don't fit.

It's kind of hard to explain what I mean by feeling like I'm a certain gender. It's like I just know every day "I'm a boy," or "I'm a girl," like I've been the same my entire life, but it changes every few days it seems. For instance, for the past few days I've been a boy, but on tuesday, I was a girl. Does that make sense?

[Starlight Blaze]

hm thats strange to me... but maybe your body isnt sure what it wants to be? thats my best guess sorry i wasnt more helpful :/

[Sosaku]

maybe you are just fucked up in the head!!! Lol, love you roommate!!!!

Nah, lets see....:

Sexuality:
You could very well be gay. You can love people, some more than others. About 2 years ago, I was in love with this girl...i'm gay...

Gender:
Everyone has these kinda problems, except mine are more of, my confidence levels...

Somedays, i feel like i want to hide in the closet, i don't really talk those days...and well, i'm just anti-social..

Other days, i feel like i know who i am, and BITCH you AINT gonna mess wit me (i said that one day lol)

Then the rest of the days, i'm just like, yeah, i'm gay, oh well, leave me alone, i dont' wanna hear your shit...