i've stopped deynying it happened.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

i've decided to finally open up and speak the truth,
i've never told a single person about this in my life
and honestly i blocked it out of my mind untill 2 years ago when i remebered.
when i was in gr.5 i was molested by two guys in gr.8.
more than a few times.
i lost my virginity by geting used by a guy for just sex.
the second time i ever had sex i was drunk and the guy took advantage of me [ i told everyone before we drank to not hit on me]
i feel so dirty and worthless.
like i'm only good for one thing.
i've sort of denyed and ignored all of this untill recently....

[horrorshow]

If you remember their names than I strongly suggest you go to the police. If not then (I hope this does not come out wrong) go see a therapist, your school counsiler, your parents, or whoever. It is normal that you feel that way. It was wrong what they did. I know I did not give good advide I did the best I could. I know it might be hard for you to tell anyone but you gotta be strong and get help.

[schrei jess]

Im so sorry that that happened, and Im sure its very hard for you to think about. The best thing for you to do is to either tell your parents, or talk to your therapist about it, if not them then someone close to you. You just need to talk about it and hear yourself say it, allow it to be let out.

Unfourtunately, going to the police probably wont do much good, Im sorry. Im not trying to be negative but you said 5th grade? I believe you are atleast 15, right, so that was a while ago, so they couldnt do anything about that, no evidence. However on the other occasions, depending on how long ago they were and how much you remember - the police might be able to help. But when things like this happen, the only way for them to be punished is by the evidence, which is usually good to report asap.

Anyway, Im very sorry to hear how people have treated you and Im here if you need to talk.

[RowaH]

I'm guessing that this isn't the first time they have done this. It is likely that they have done this in the past. My suggestion would be to see a psychologist, and come to terms with it, so that you can move on with your life, and not be dragged down by this experience.

Although the police may not do anything, as Weeping_Willow had stated, it is best if you give it a shot, you've got nothing to lose and everything to gain. However I suggest that you consult a lawyer first, and approach the police properly, since I know of defence attorney's tendencies to make rape victims seem like promiscuous liars.

I wish you the best of luck, and I am really sorry this happened to you.

[Sad_but_ok1]

Kind of the same thing happened 2 me I was at a party in grade 6 and
These guys gave me a drink and put a drug in it and I didnt relize it until
I woke up the next day with my clothes off and I was tied 2 the bed with these 12th graders layin next 2 me and then I havent had my period in a 8 weeks and then I found out I was pregnant... My girl is 4. I dont have her anymore I put her up 4 adoption after I had her. I am afraid they might come back and rape me again I have got notes that they no where I am and there coming back and all I can see in my dreams Is there face... I may have been druged but I remember it so well and All I see is there Eyes. I can hear them screamin I kept fighting and they didnt stop!

[I'm cool like spongebob]

Well done for opening up. I think you need to tell someone else now. Like your parents, police e.t.c

[Fiending_the_freedom]

well i've acaepted its happened,
theres no point in telling the police, ip've moved out of the city since the gr.6 thing happened, adn its allrready been too long, i dont even remeber the guys names.

[Camazotz]

I'm sorry that happened, but theres nothing you can do about it now. But if it gets to the point where youre too deppresed, I would see a psycologyst.

[Trickster]

where did this happen? and how? im sorry that happened it must be hard for you but the only thing you can do is talk to a threppist and check to make sure you didnt catch anything,

[Underground_Network]

This thread is pretty old... [Request Lock]...

[Serenity]

Bumping threads in the Psych Ward is generally accepted as the issues discussed here aren't as terminal as those in P101 and usually are only locked by request of the thread author.

Although, Neji, there really isn't any reason for you to start a whole new conversation here since what you said was pretty repetitive per previous posts.

[iceyfresh]

i definately agree with horrorstory

[Hyper]

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