Pink floyd,Alcohol, and bloodshed. Is there anyone there...

[ObituarySWR]

I know im new here but i unfortunately lost all my friends from either showing too much emotion or pushing them away from an injustice in the past. I figured you all might here me out. I have dealt with full fledged depression the last year of my life. Each month leading up to now its been getting much worse. A best friends died from an overdose, dealing with being a bast*rd child from him overdosing as well.The most influential part has been gf's cracking me in every form possible, leaving me more broken for the next seemingly nice girl to come along. I just cant say no. I have taken up drinking heavily, all most a *hit-faced every night for the last month cutting here and there. Almost every night i watch "The Wall" by pink floyd and drink with the occasional cut here and there. i mean CUT like im going to need a whole roll of paper towels to stop it. Just the music, drugs, and loniness changed me. With that being said i will leave you all with a very important question and song title by Floyd: Is there Anybody Out There? ( Is there anybody thats like me?)

[bambino]

hi Tony

I think the majority of people on here have felt the same loneliness and helplessness and as a result have resorted to self-harm.
Now you cant make the generalisation that all girls are out to make your life a misery [sorry I loathe generalisations] maybe you just haven't found the right one yet. I'm sorry you've fallen out with your friends, maybe you could mend some bridges even now?
I know the alcohol brings that lovely 'indifferent' feeling, which gives us a rest from feelings of self hatred but in the long-term it makes you feel so so much worse. I can barely remember a time I haven't drank to get rid of feeling like shit and ended up feeling ten times more shit afterwards! Also being drunk means we're more likely to self harm and not realise how deep the cutting is, because the alcohol has numbed our pain receptors- it can be really dangerous so please stop!

[Fiction]

I've drank to cope several times. I've cut to cope, and I do so regularly.

I've never lost a friend to suicide but i've become very close to loosing both friends and my boyfriend.

I'm sure you already know, drugs, alcohol and cutting will not help in the long run. it'll only make things worse. I guess you'll find it somewhat hard to try and find a different coping method, but it'll be worth it. Maybe try something creative? Such as writing or playing music.

Maybe it'd be a good idea to get help. maybe you could talk to your parents or if not a doctor? I know it feels hard to do this but if you're drinking and cutting that much, chances are they will find out eventually, and possibly in a way that is far from ideal- like mine did when I overdosed.

Feel free to pm me if you want to talk.

[ObituarySWR]

I have wrote many poems and lyrics. But all that good comes out of it is money for alcohol when they offer money for them. I am drunk right now, unfortunately to say. and i slid this razor blade over me already and its just addicting....I feel like i deserve it. Like im a criminal.

Also i have tried therapy. No help. And i have a fear of medication due to the fact i have a low tolerace for drugs and i could easy get addicted. I saw what happened from smoking and it makes me twice as fearful...
Please do not double post, use the edit button- Fiction

[Bufalo]

im like you dude, dont worry. i havent figured it out so no worries

[Fiction]

Maybe you should find something else to take up your time and money. A new hobby perhaps. From your profile picture I guess you play drums? And they can be pretty expensive... maybe make it your aim to save up for a new better kit. Meaning you have no money left to drink, and you also get almost a "reward" for not drinking.