I feel like I've done something wrong.

[YesterdaysNews]

I told him because I was confused. I don't want him back, it just rips the wound wide open again. But I can't push him away. And they're all going to make me choose. I'd rather just die. I think I'm going to. I don't see any point of sticking around, no one in my real life is ever going to love me. I'll be on this string forever, so why don't I just hang myself with it. Their unhappiness is all my fault. Solution: Take me out of the picture. I don't want to continue like this. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of pain. this way it'll only hurt for a little bit. Then I'll be free. My mom's downstairs but she won't notice till morning. I can hide my feelings so easily it's wonderful. She has the pills I can steal. I have the razors. it's almost a done deal. No one will miss me. They all have other people to keep them warm. I don't think my town has experienced a teenage suicide. I'll be news people throw in the fire. Yesterday's news. I don't matter. I never have. Never will. no one will read this in time.

Adam, the song's on repeat. Thanks for reminding me how I hurt you.
Austin, I can't choose.
Josh, I can't love you again.

I'm gonna go now.

[anonymous53]

Yesterday, please relax. Don't do anything. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" :hugs: Things will get better, I know I'm just words on a page to you, but we here on VT will miss you. Please don't do it.
Take a breath. People will miss you, people do love you. I hope I have read this in time, and I hope you read this in time

[YesterdaysNews]

I'm just cutting. I'm too much of an idiot to kill myself. I'm dramatic when I'm upset. Forget me.

[Bougainvillea]

Manda Panda. :)

I know it's hard, I really do. But the pain, and guilt will pass. Just like anything else. Don't beat yourself up because some relationship. Because there is someone out there who will appreciate you, love you, and kiss you. Someone who will tell you how pretty your hair is, and remind you how sexy your legs are. ;)

Don't beat yourself up because of something so temporary. Because this, right here, is just a moment, Amanda.

Don't let something so temporary, allow someone the permanent denial of being able to love you when you're older.

I love you, and your legs are okay, too.

Yeah. I love you. :)

[MadManWithaBox]

Amanda, I don't know you that well. But I know you do matter. Everyone matters. You're a wonderful person. And if you killed yourself, I'd miss you, and I'm sure many other people, on and off this site, would.

I suppose cutting is better than suicide, but neither is healthy, right?

And Amanda, everyone has somebody in their life that loves them. I know it feels to think thats bollocks sometimes, I really do. But they do. Even if its just your mum. Or your boyfriend. Somebody does, I swear.

And I promise, you do matter. Good luck.

[YesterdaysNews]

I want to thank you all and apologize. :hug: <3

[anonymous53]

:hug: *Glomp* glad to see you're feeling a little better