Make it stop!~

[Indecision]

Eurghh it's so hard! I went three weeks without cutting myself, it was so hard but I couldn't do it 'cause I was going on holiday. Now i'm back and everyone I usually turn to isn't here. So I did it again last night, couple on my hip and one on my ankle, shallow, but enough. Uh, I hate Self Harm. I only ever do it to help me forget the emotional pain from what's going on around me.

I feel awful and like a failure. I promised someone I wouldn't do it again. He said to me if I did it, he'd do it too, and worse. I'm so bloody selfish I only ever care about myself, I completely forgot he said that. Now I TOTALLY feel as if i've betrayed him. But he'll never find out, and i'm never going to do it again. It makes me feel good for a couple of days, but after I just feel worthless again. I need some support, I really need to stop...

[FullyAlive]

I understand.
Three weeks is a really long time, you should be proud of that! :D

I know how you feel about promising people. I've made so many promises, promises to teachers, friends, my mother, a guy I like. At the moment I'm making it until Tuesday because of a promise. Fortunately I've never had someone threaten to cut because I do. However I'm not sure you should hide it from him, maybe talk to him, tell him you made it three weeks but it's difficult. Explain that rather than being scared to tell him about something happening you could do with his support instead. Someone recently told me stopping self harm isn't an event, you don't just wake up one morning and have stopped instead it's a journey, it has it's difficult parts and it's easy parts just like any journey. But it takes time.

Next time you feel the urge, try distracting yourself by doing something you enjoy, such as Drawing, Writing, Singing. Or try techniques such as snapping an elastic band, rubbing ice, drawing on yourself with a red pen.

And remember whenever you do need support we are all here to give it.

[Fiction]

Three weeks is amazing!

You slipped up once. Once is nothing. Everyone slips up from time to time, what's important is that you pick yourself up again. You don't fail when you slip up, you fail when you give up. You still have a chance to succeed :)

Good luck, i'm always here if you want to talk.

[bambino]

i know its difficult to forgive yourself, but you've been doing really well by the sounds of it! and some of the other users on here helped me realise that that one error doesn't make you a failure, hell as long as you were trying to recover you would never be a failure!
hm epiphany alert!

your friend/boyfriend [?] must feel really strongly about you self harming but threatening to cut himself is not the right way to go about it as it puts added pressure on you. You obviously are not selfish at all because you really care that youve broken a promise. And that does not mean youve betrayed him. It just means momentarily you forgot yourself, and we all do that sometimes.

Im sure everyone on here is willing to be supportive and talk to you. Message me if you need a chat (:

[Charleigh]

Ok. The person that you promised you wouldn't do it again, if they were your mate, they wouldn't make you promise such a thing. It isnt fair that you now feel guilty and worried about it, you have your reasons as to why you done it.

When you feel that nobody is here, people on VT are always here to help. Even a stranger, all you have to do is just talk hun. I know that sometimes it can be rather challenging, but it all pays off in the end.

You can do this hun. You can fight self harm. You dont have to be a slave to it anymore, dont let self harming have a grip on you anymore, you can fight this off hun.

I'm here if you ever need anything.
:hug:
Your strong.