DifferentTides
April 18th, 2011, 07:03 AM
If known this guy which i consider to be my best friend for about 2 years now, and im beginning to really question the validity of our friendship. Im not sure if i am getting just very self-centered, but i feel as if he doesn't really take notice of me when other "cooler" people are around, or even in general. Sure, we have good heart to hear conversations, and i feel almost totally comfortable around talking to him about almost anything, but he never really gives me that real support I need at the best of times. I would do almost anything for him, but im not to sure if that reciprocates with him.
Don't get me wrong, he is an amazing person. Recently on school holidays he invited me over to his house and we did some other stuff as well (really fun stuff, themeparks, gliding) and i stayed over for about 5 day. We do all that social stuff, and i would even pay for alot of stuff, even though he didn't ask but because I care and he's my best friend. I managed good D&M's with him as well, but when i comes to normal life, the middle ground, i feel very left out, and i get very depressed.
I've told him about it, infact i've told him on several occassions and it's always the same problem. He says sorry, and that he didn't mean to hurt my feelings, but when you get that about 5 times it isn't as convincing. I appreciate the gesture, but what i would appreciate more is him acting upon it. Actions speak louder than words in most cases.
I've gotten to the point of when ever this happens, I hate him, but i love him to bits. He's a good friend, but a hopeless support for when i need it.
What's worse, is that i've never heard him say that he consider's me his best friend. He could possibly just have a problem expressing his emotion's (which i think is the case), but he says more meaningful things to other people, but when i comes to me i feel i get second best.
I feel all the things i do for him, he takes for granted. I could be wrong, as i might not know what he says to others, or how he actually feels on the inside, but he doesn't really show it.
I need help, im running out of ideas :(, i don't want this friendship to die!
Don't get me wrong, he is an amazing person. Recently on school holidays he invited me over to his house and we did some other stuff as well (really fun stuff, themeparks, gliding) and i stayed over for about 5 day. We do all that social stuff, and i would even pay for alot of stuff, even though he didn't ask but because I care and he's my best friend. I managed good D&M's with him as well, but when i comes to normal life, the middle ground, i feel very left out, and i get very depressed.
I've told him about it, infact i've told him on several occassions and it's always the same problem. He says sorry, and that he didn't mean to hurt my feelings, but when you get that about 5 times it isn't as convincing. I appreciate the gesture, but what i would appreciate more is him acting upon it. Actions speak louder than words in most cases.
I've gotten to the point of when ever this happens, I hate him, but i love him to bits. He's a good friend, but a hopeless support for when i need it.
What's worse, is that i've never heard him say that he consider's me his best friend. He could possibly just have a problem expressing his emotion's (which i think is the case), but he says more meaningful things to other people, but when i comes to me i feel i get second best.
I feel all the things i do for him, he takes for granted. I could be wrong, as i might not know what he says to others, or how he actually feels on the inside, but he doesn't really show it.
I need help, im running out of ideas :(, i don't want this friendship to die!