HandheldOutlaw
April 17th, 2011, 08:42 PM
Wings of A Butterfly
I only wished I could speak
Through all of this I screamed
Unheard, unmerciful you reigned
You were stronger,
So much stronger
Broken; I cried
And flew away on the wings of a butterfly
I went somewhere else where I could be free
Deaf to me;
I freed myself
You just couldn't let go;
I only wished you would leave
I guess that was too much to ask
You Never left
I got away
Got away from it all
You hurt too much
I only wished for the fear to leave
I got the next best thing
Numb to all of the feeling and left to fly away
You never woke me from that dream
Thank you for never waking me
It's over now,
But I still cry
I'm still flying on the wings of that same butterfly
So sorry I stole his wings
But I had to save that one last innocent thing,
The last innocent part of me
Sad to say,
I never left at all
It was an illusion that you helped me create
Daddy Dearest
You tell me there's no need to be afraid
But you're the one who scares me most
You told me not to be ashamed
But it's at your hand I feel it most
It's all because of you I bled just to feel
All because of you I can't distinguish what's a dream
And what is real
I can't slow it down, back it up
Look away and patch it up
Like some old wound,
stitch it up and bleed it out
Watch it scab and watch it scar
Never heal because what's done is done and
at best, my passion is the only thing that bleeds ruby red
You won't see my heart torn and my wrists slashed,
I won't give you the satisfaction
You won't see any pain from me,
Only the smile on my face when you realize
your words don't mean a thing
Now it's up to you, because Daddy Dearest,
I just don't care
I'm not your little girl by emotion dad,
you were never there.
Your brother was more of a father to me than you ever were
He took my shame
Gave me back the love you deprived me of
So when you're screwed up and strung out,
Don't expect me to pat your back
And when you fall don't expect to drag me with you
Your eyes don't enchant me anymore
And your hand damages more than it heals
I gave you one chance too many
Here's my chance to show you how it feels
So are you happy now, that you see what I've become?
Do you smile now that you know what your little girl has done?
Alice
How much can I take?
Little by little eventually I'll break
Bit by bit I'm fading away
I'm the Cheshire cat,
Not quite all there...
But this is no Wonderland...
And I can't find Alice....I fear.
*Untitled, any suggestions?*
Just like her I lie in my chains
In my ashes.
Just waiting for one more chance to breathe
before my lungs collapse and my bones all break
It's funny how they left her here
To sit and rot away
Her eyes hollowed,
Her cheek bones sunken
Her hair in complete disarray
It's funny how she never speaks, she just stares
Right back at me
She's like some kind of doll.
Does she think? Does she move?
Is she scared? I know I am.
Wait! I think I just saw her breathe.
Her breaths sync up with mine, in perfect rhythm.
I see her chest rise and fall in time with mine
But hear only myself.
I hear my name and the cell is opened
She looks over too
The light is blinding, the white is even worse
There just here to take me away...
I say goodbye to my companion for the day.
Later on I started crying...in complete dismay
I tell them about the girl...still locked away
They looked confused...they aren't very smart...
They said they saw no one...
But she was there. Not a pretty thing..but my only friend
I'm starting to miss her blank stare.
I look around the walls...everything is so white...
A few pictures to be pleasing to the eye....but I can't smile in spite
They went back to investigate...and didn't find a thing
But an old dusty mirror...they set it across from me.
My friend was back...but I hate her.
I hate her now that I know her secret
I don't hate her as much as I
I only wished I could speak
Through all of this I screamed
Unheard, unmerciful you reigned
You were stronger,
So much stronger
Broken; I cried
And flew away on the wings of a butterfly
I went somewhere else where I could be free
Deaf to me;
I freed myself
You just couldn't let go;
I only wished you would leave
I guess that was too much to ask
You Never left
I got away
Got away from it all
You hurt too much
I only wished for the fear to leave
I got the next best thing
Numb to all of the feeling and left to fly away
You never woke me from that dream
Thank you for never waking me
It's over now,
But I still cry
I'm still flying on the wings of that same butterfly
So sorry I stole his wings
But I had to save that one last innocent thing,
The last innocent part of me
Sad to say,
I never left at all
It was an illusion that you helped me create
Daddy Dearest
You tell me there's no need to be afraid
But you're the one who scares me most
You told me not to be ashamed
But it's at your hand I feel it most
It's all because of you I bled just to feel
All because of you I can't distinguish what's a dream
And what is real
I can't slow it down, back it up
Look away and patch it up
Like some old wound,
stitch it up and bleed it out
Watch it scab and watch it scar
Never heal because what's done is done and
at best, my passion is the only thing that bleeds ruby red
You won't see my heart torn and my wrists slashed,
I won't give you the satisfaction
You won't see any pain from me,
Only the smile on my face when you realize
your words don't mean a thing
Now it's up to you, because Daddy Dearest,
I just don't care
I'm not your little girl by emotion dad,
you were never there.
Your brother was more of a father to me than you ever were
He took my shame
Gave me back the love you deprived me of
So when you're screwed up and strung out,
Don't expect me to pat your back
And when you fall don't expect to drag me with you
Your eyes don't enchant me anymore
And your hand damages more than it heals
I gave you one chance too many
Here's my chance to show you how it feels
So are you happy now, that you see what I've become?
Do you smile now that you know what your little girl has done?
Alice
How much can I take?
Little by little eventually I'll break
Bit by bit I'm fading away
I'm the Cheshire cat,
Not quite all there...
But this is no Wonderland...
And I can't find Alice....I fear.
*Untitled, any suggestions?*
Just like her I lie in my chains
In my ashes.
Just waiting for one more chance to breathe
before my lungs collapse and my bones all break
It's funny how they left her here
To sit and rot away
Her eyes hollowed,
Her cheek bones sunken
Her hair in complete disarray
It's funny how she never speaks, she just stares
Right back at me
She's like some kind of doll.
Does she think? Does she move?
Is she scared? I know I am.
Wait! I think I just saw her breathe.
Her breaths sync up with mine, in perfect rhythm.
I see her chest rise and fall in time with mine
But hear only myself.
I hear my name and the cell is opened
She looks over too
The light is blinding, the white is even worse
There just here to take me away...
I say goodbye to my companion for the day.
Later on I started crying...in complete dismay
I tell them about the girl...still locked away
They looked confused...they aren't very smart...
They said they saw no one...
But she was there. Not a pretty thing..but my only friend
I'm starting to miss her blank stare.
I look around the walls...everything is so white...
A few pictures to be pleasing to the eye....but I can't smile in spite
They went back to investigate...and didn't find a thing
But an old dusty mirror...they set it across from me.
My friend was back...but I hate her.
I hate her now that I know her secret
I don't hate her as much as I