I drive people away :'(

[Nevermore]

I literally drive people away.. I'm a heartless bitch to people. I wish I wasn't, but I just don't care. Well, it's my alters fault. She drives people out. She doesn't care what she says or does. Which causes me no friends, and a lot of phsycial pain. My parents will ask why I'm so mean to them. I'm very antisocial, and lack people skills. I don't talk to anyone at all, nor do I really know how. However I know to be nice, however I am well overly nice. I'm not this way. My alter is sedistic and sarcastic and loves it. She likes hurting people, and wants to hurt them more, however I know that sounds awful, but I dont' know what to do. She won't talk to me about this. I'm sorry, I'm rereading this, and it sounds oh so confusing. She can be very agressive, and loves to physically fight with people, of course she asks. It's more of wrestling, but I get bruises from it. She's overly rebelious and out of control, and hates people with a passion. She's very impulsive, and loves to do things like drink and smoke. She's really mean to this one kid in my orchestra class, I think he's now afraid of me. She gets very angry and acts frustrated, however is also manipulative. She puts on these aires and feels very in control and has a lot of power and curses a lot. She gets angry when not in control. If something isn't in her control, she gets horribly mean and angry and short with the world. She gets very paraniod, and her paranioa is used as her motive into hurting people, but not all the time. I'm thankful I'm nothing like her, however she needs to know when to stop and be nice. I'm tired of having no one in my life because of her. Please don't judge me because of her.

[Knuckles2000]

This...sounds kinda like how I am. I mostly understand the driving people away part. In my opinion, I think you might want to see a theripist, thats all I have. But if you need a friend, i'm certainly open for friendship.

[Nevermore]

I have a psycologist and psychiatrist, and on meds. :3 I'm currently getting anther psychiatrist and multple therapists at a hospital to also work with me. Yay! :) What a coicendence, I'm open for a friendship myself.

[moon_lit_angel]

I'd never judge someone because of what they say...
Hun you probably feel like you do, i know i do with some people 2 :/

if either of ye ever wanna talk im open to friendship :)
x

[Quick_Sylver]

You're the main. Next time she tries to take over, shove her back. Good luck and feel free to contact me any time you need to.

[Nevermore]

Thank you both. :) I'm trying to get the hang of that still.

[moon_lit_angel]

:hug:

[Quick_Sylver]

Thank you both. :) I'm trying to get the hang of that still.

Practice makes perfect hun. :) :hug:

[Nevermore]

Very true. :) (huggs) Cuz I don't know how to do that awesome hug thing. DX

[Quick_Sylver]

: hug : Without the spaces. How's things today sweetheart?

[Nevermore]

Thank you! :) Things are melancholy, due to it being a Monday, and tomorrow I have my consultation to see if I'm in the hospital or not, so anxious due to that.

[MadManWithaBox]

Like I've already said, don't worry about the hospital till you have to. As for pushing people away. I don't know. Like I really don't know, I do exactly the same thing. And I know its my alters fault, so even when I want to hang out with people or be nice, I can't really. So maybe after the hospital tomorrow you'll have a better idea.

[Nevermore]

Very true. Thank you Matthew. :)

[Quick_Sylver]

:hug: Things will be alright in the end.

[JohnHoper]

If you've got an alter, ask yourself which one is in charge. When you find out that you are, apologize to those people you've driven away. From the day we were born, we were given choices, and here's another one for you, will you let that bad part of you ruin the way people think of you? Or will you stand and and take charge?

[Rubber]

I have a friend just like this. He's really mean to me and drives me away because he never trusts me and always thinks I'm a liar. We always fight and I always tell him to stop talking to me after we argue. But I keep coming back because he's my best friend and he needs me and I need him. I also know who he really is and even though he's always hurting me, I know he truly doesn't mean to.

What I'm saying is that there are always people who are going to be there for you, so don't look down. They know who you really are so stay strong.

[Nevermore]

Thank you guys. :)