Unknown problems with myself that affect others as well.

[Knuckles2000]

I have been near restless for a long time, all I get is cat naps, I can't tell what my problems are cause it seems to me like there is so many, and I hardly know a thing about myself. I lost nearly all of my friends, because I seemingly can not stop doing stupid stuff that hurts (emotionally), offends, enrages, ect. people. I do not want to hurt these people (emotionally), but no matter how hard I try, I always end up doing something terrible or stupid. I have driven away next to all my friends, and it hurts so much that I just want to bang my head on the wall until I can't anymore. Even people who said they won't abandon me and they want to help, have not only left, but they left a scar on my emotions as well with their words, but they left because they could not stand me, or what I do anymore, it feels worse knowing that it was all my fault, Before one left he said he really thinks I have something called: Narcissistic personality disorder, and that was all I have to go on. I'm afraid that if I don't get help, my emotions will over take me, and I will something terrible, or something. Many people have tried to help me, but they could not get anywhere. I just have no where left to go. I know a lot of people have it worse than me, but it just hurts so bad.

[Craig1995]

I think u need to sit back for a minute and take a deep breath. Maybe you should go talk to the people you have "driven away" and ask them what it is that you done wrong. Maybe appologise if necessary and try to make up. That would maybe be the first step to over comeing the problem.

[Knuckles2000]

I would if I could. They all blocked all contact with me, plus, if I try to get in contact with them again, i'm actually afraid for my own safety. I just can not seem to keep friends at all, and i'm the kind of person who needs friends, or else I go completely insane.

[Craig1995]

I would if I could. They all blocked all contact with me, plus, if I try to get in contact with them again, i'm actually afraid for my own safety. I just can not seem to keep friends at all, and i'm the kind of person who needs friends, or else I go completely insane.

Maybe you should just look for completely new friends like join a youth group or something Im a member of two and I diddnt have any friends either now I've got a wee group of friends. You should just try to be more out going and turn the negative thoughts into positive ones so you can leave the old you behind and power into the future. I also think you should talk to an adult or a teacher or something aswell so you can get direct help because it's hard doing things on your own. :)

[Knuckles2000]

To be honest, I have pretty much done away with real life, i'm just online now, and that is all I do, so I guess I basicly just decided to throw my future away.

[Craig1995]

It's a shame you think that way. I'll be your friend :) I kinda done something like you have when I joind this I had been diagnosed with bpd or borderline personality disorder kinda just means depression and confusion and people with it mostly shut out the world so I do kinda understand how things can be hard specially when you loose all your friends.