clr9823
April 12th, 2011, 05:35 PM
Hi guys,
well, I've come to the end of my tether with my phobia. I have a phobia of... not so much blood or gore, it's if I ever imagine that blood or gore in a real sense or if I'm suffering from it... i.e. I can see sick pictures on the internet and not flinch, but as soon as I start thinking about it, putting myself into the situation, I will suddenly start to suffer from it. When I get it, I feel my blood pressure fall, with the inevitable nausea, tunnel/blurry vision, and eventually faintness. This has made me almost faint in the cinema during a zombie film, during school watching a death penalty film, in the hospital (visiting others) and in the doctors. In a bad week, I can get it 4 weeks and I get it almost every week at least once. And the weirdest thing is, I can look at myself getting an injection and I'm fine. One of my weakest areas is if I ever start even thinking about anything to do with my wrists it comes (and I ain't suicidal/self-harming at all, never have been, barely even thought about it). It's pissing me off so much, does anybody else suffer from it or does a anybody know where's best to start getting treatment?
Thanks :)
P.S. PLEASE don't say "just don't think about it"... trust me, that method has been tried on many occasions and works if caught early enough but many times and situations doesn't.
well, I've come to the end of my tether with my phobia. I have a phobia of... not so much blood or gore, it's if I ever imagine that blood or gore in a real sense or if I'm suffering from it... i.e. I can see sick pictures on the internet and not flinch, but as soon as I start thinking about it, putting myself into the situation, I will suddenly start to suffer from it. When I get it, I feel my blood pressure fall, with the inevitable nausea, tunnel/blurry vision, and eventually faintness. This has made me almost faint in the cinema during a zombie film, during school watching a death penalty film, in the hospital (visiting others) and in the doctors. In a bad week, I can get it 4 weeks and I get it almost every week at least once. And the weirdest thing is, I can look at myself getting an injection and I'm fine. One of my weakest areas is if I ever start even thinking about anything to do with my wrists it comes (and I ain't suicidal/self-harming at all, never have been, barely even thought about it). It's pissing me off so much, does anybody else suffer from it or does a anybody know where's best to start getting treatment?
Thanks :)
P.S. PLEASE don't say "just don't think about it"... trust me, that method has been tried on many occasions and works if caught early enough but many times and situations doesn't.