getting worse...

[beag_amhain]

stress, stress, stress, stress, depression n blood blood blood, its getting so bad, i have to to do it n cant stop when i start, i want to...i dont know wat, just want it all too stop n go back to being innocent n not knowing anything, when everything was still fine
does anyone else dream about their own death? n their funeral?
i wake up happy wen i do, i dont think thats right? bu it keeps the nightmares away...

[Fiction]

I have dreamt about my own death in the past yes. I don't think it really has any deeper meaning than that you are perhaps a little suicidal?

As for the urges, use distractions. This can be anything- drawing, writing, talking to friends, playing a game, anything! You can also use things instead of self harm, such as snapping an elastic band against your wrist, or using ice on the place you want to cut. I've found that they don't totally remove the urge but can sometimes make them that little bit more bearable :)

[anonymous53]

As Fiction said. Elastic band really does help, and I've dreamt about my own death before, quite a bit actually.

[FullyAlive]

I've dreamt about my death too, I do it a lot and I'm fine so you probably are too. Whilst I wouldn't say it's normal exactly it's clearly not uncommon.

Like Kathy said, use distractions such as writing, talking, music etc. or techniques like elastic bands, and ice to control the urge. Some people use red marker pens and draw where they want to cut. I would assume this works better if you are someone who likes to see what they've done when they self harm, if that makes sense. Also something I do if I really can't control the urge is make myself be in someone elses company, I know I'll never do it in front of someone so if I make myself sit with someone I have to get through the urge. And another thing I do is leave all blades at hone even the one from my phone, and walk or run just anywhere as far as I can go. I'm not sure that'll work for everyone but it does for me.

[Fiction]

And another thing I do is leave all blades at hone even the one from my phone, and walk or run just anywhere as far as I can go. I'm not sure that'll work for everyone but it does for me.

This I reccommend. Put your ipod on, walk somewhere where you can me alone and then when you're there just run. It has pretty much the same effect on me as cutting.