1_21Guns
April 12th, 2011, 07:41 AM
Y'know, the one where you just miss it, you miss feeling it, you miss the blood, the hiding, almost the kind of shame of it all. The escape, or should I say false escape. Just, everything.
153 days. One hundred and fifty fucking three, long, long days. It's been hard, I'm not gonna lie. But I've got here now, and I wouldn't have got this far without some people in my life, but more importantly, I wouldn't have got this far if I hadn't taken that first step, that will always be the hardest part. No matter how bad the urges get, the unbearable psychological itching and convincing, the memories and the scars, compared to that first step, they're nothing. It's all only as bad as you let it get to you.
So, I guess this started out as a personal vent, but, I guess it's turned into a bit of encouragement for you all. It is possible, you just have to want it, you have to face that first day without it, that first long night, after that, the worst is over. You don't need it, none of you do. There's no use giving up until your'e ready and you want it, but once you have that moment when you've had enough of doing it, and want to get better, take it and hold onto it.
So yeah, seeya'll around :hug3: :)
153 days. One hundred and fifty fucking three, long, long days. It's been hard, I'm not gonna lie. But I've got here now, and I wouldn't have got this far without some people in my life, but more importantly, I wouldn't have got this far if I hadn't taken that first step, that will always be the hardest part. No matter how bad the urges get, the unbearable psychological itching and convincing, the memories and the scars, compared to that first step, they're nothing. It's all only as bad as you let it get to you.
So, I guess this started out as a personal vent, but, I guess it's turned into a bit of encouragement for you all. It is possible, you just have to want it, you have to face that first day without it, that first long night, after that, the worst is over. You don't need it, none of you do. There's no use giving up until your'e ready and you want it, but once you have that moment when you've had enough of doing it, and want to get better, take it and hold onto it.
So yeah, seeya'll around :hug3: :)