Next Tuesday

[Nevermore]

I dreading the hospital consultation next Tuesday, but my ED is getting worse. I'm eating less knowing they are going to weigh me. I'm scarred. I don't want to be hospitalized, and apparently the psycologist is pretty blunt and rude. He's not one of those understanding huggable it'll be okay people, apparently my psychiatrit says he's an asshole. So great... I'm stuck with this jerk. He better not hospitalize me. I knwo my mom was talking about that with my psychiatrst. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. I don't want help anymore!!! I just don't want to stay there day after day. I'm so scared. Please anyone have words of encouragement? Perhaps good hospital experiences? Any experiences at all? I just need to be mentally prepared for my mind to be at ease.

[Syvelocin]

If you don't want to be hospitalized, fight it. I'm not saying that it wouldn't help, but if you don't want to go, it doesn't make it a better experience to be there unwillingly... You do have control over your own body. Don't think your mother can make all the decisions for you. Or the doctors, for that matter. Unless you're in the hospital, you still have say in your meds, treatment, etc.

I'm sorry though... I don't have any good hospital experiences to share :P