Is this normal?

[Aiyslyn]

Ever since I became depressed and started self injuring, I started to feel like I'm going insane.
It started out kinda small I guess. I got paranoid about everything. I'm constantly looking over my shoulder even when I'm in my room alone because I always feel like someone is watching me. I would breakdown everyday because I was sure everyone was going to leave me. Things got worse as time went on.
I freaked out one day after I got a small idea in my head about maybe my life wasn't real. I was sure I was either a computer forced to feel things or my life and everyone around me was an illusion. I was sure that I was being experimented on. I even know what the experiment was for and how it was even possible for me to be a computer.
Later on, I remember the time I was raped. But I have never been raped. Never even anything close to that but for a second I believed it completely.
I don't know. Some people say it's normal, some say I'm just paranoid, and others say I need to get checked out. I don't know what to do.

[icfaidwt]

If it's that concerning, I would definitely recommend talking to a shrink, or maybe even a school councilor, or anybody with a degree in that kinda thing. Because if that kinda stuff goes on then you can have a panic attack, bro (used to happen to my sister all the time when she got into mental hypotheticals that freaked her out). Plus, it's also nice to be able to talk to people about your problems and hear what they have to say, especially when they know what they're talking about.

So, it it's really concerning, be concerned. Take initiative and seek a lil help. Peace -

[FullyAlive]

I experience something similar, I am very paranoid, I'm convinced everyone is watching me, and that I can hear what they're thinking about me. Sometimes it really gets in the way of my life. At the moment I'm talking to someone about it (not a proper professional) and she has really been helping me. I find that taking time out when you're feeling like that really helps, I do deep breathing and a kind of meditating thing, although obviously that isn't for everyone. You could just sit or lie down somewhere with your headphones in or something. And when I feel like I'm being watched or whatever I put something on the tv, my music, the radio, just so I don't feel alone. Or I phone or text someone so I have company. It makes me less paranoid.

And I also get like wierd delusional thought things. Rather than convincing myself I'm not real I convince myself other people aren't real, that I'm the only one who can see them, hear them. It really freaks me out, I also start to imagine that I've made up events, that I know did happen, but I convince myself they didn't if that makes sense. I haven't really worked out how to deal with this yet. At the moment I just try by repeating a mantra to myself to try to calm myself before it turns into panic attack. Should it turn into a panic attack then you need to practice breathing deeply. Breathe in for 5 seconds, out for 5 seconds.

So I hope some of this helps? I think the best thing for you to do is just talk to someone. Anyone be it a counsellor or someone on here. But don't worry you aren't going insane. You just sound like you're having a hard time you need someone to talk to, and that's fine.

If you ever need something you can talk to me :hug:

[greekyogurt]

As far as I'm concerned that isn't really normal. Sounds like you have an anxiety disorder, but I don't know. I'd suggest talking to a professional about it.