i'm tired...

[justmehere]

i'm tired of acting like everythings okay,when i know it's not.
i'm tired of dying just a little more inside when her name comes up.
And i hate i can't come to terms with the fact she's gone forever. she's not coming back. i miss the old days. when we saw her almost everyday. i'm sick of being sad. and the really freakin sad part is that i do this shit to myself. Why i feel the need to look up her name every other week i don't know. i guess just in case something changed. maybe i read it wrong the first hundred times.
i'm a fuckin idiot.
i'm done,i just needed to vent before i exploded on some innocent person!

[Andymoto377]

What's up?

[music is my soul]

who is "her"?

[justmehere]

my god-mom. the one who was kidnapped and murdered in 08. Last night was just one of those moments. it seems like it hits you way harder when you see it in writting y'know. i'll get over it eventually i guess.

[HellHound]

I am not going to say "get over it" or something like that.My best friend died some time ago and from that moment i died inside,i rot every day thinking about it,everything and every memory died with him.I truly know how you feel but remember,the people who hurt us by taking our loved ones away will get their pain one day.Stay strong.

[Andymoto377]

My mom died its not something you get over easy shit like that you never do it leaves deep wound and they heal over time in to dark scars.

[justmehere]

I am not going to say "get over it" or something like that.My best friend died some time ago and from that moment i died inside,i rot every day thinking about it,everything and every memory died with him.I truly know how you feel but remember,the people who hurt us by taking our loved ones away will get their pain one day.Stay strong.

sorry bout your friend. and i look forward to the day he/she gets caught. they'll pay some day! and thanks. you stay strong too :)

My mom died its not something you get over easy shit like that you never do it leaves deep wound and they heal over time in to dark scars.

yea. sorry about your mom. they aren't scars i really want. but i suppose no one wants these kinda scars huh?,but she's in a better place now,and that makes me feel much better! thank you guys :)

[MattVon]

I'm sorry to hear about your mum, what you've said sound dramatically disgusting and I hope the person or people involved were given a good sentence or better. It's not something easy to forget about unfortunately, what you need to do is occupy your free time so you don't allow your mind to wonder like it does, so you don't upset yourself more about the matter, or think positive about your mum. That actually sounds stupid "think positive", what am I thinking, eh. I mean it depends if it'll help you or not, think of her as looking over you (no I don't believe in heaven or hell crap) but I'm sure she will be proud of you either way, you just need to prevent your mind from focusing about losing your mum and occupy yourself.

[moon_lit_angel]

My nan died, she was like my mum, im here if you need to talk
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