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Old December 1st, 2009, 09:39 AM   #1
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when i was 4, my brother who was 12, started molesting me.
it was the worst experience ever. at the time i didn't know what was going on, he had told me it was just a game that everyone played. so i thought i was cool for being allowed to play. i don't even remember how long it went on for, but i know it was a while. when my sister was at her friends house, we had "sleep overs" in my room. and when my parents would go to bed, he'd wake me up, and we'd play "the game" again. i was always in his room, and if he heard someone coming he'd have me look to see if someone was or not, usually there wasn't so he'd continue doing whatever he was at the time.
well, the one day i didn't wanna play and he got mad and screamed at me, so i went out to the living room crying and my mom asked what was wrong. i didn't wanna tell her, because i didn't want him to get in trouble, but i did tell her. i remeber she ran to his room and was dragging him around by the ear, and all i could hear was him screaming and crying that he was sorry.
about 6 years ago, my mom brought the subject of it back up, and wanted me to talk to the councilors we had coming to the house for my other brother and sister about it. i was so mad that she had brought it up. i had almost completely forgot about it, until she mentioned it. my brother apologized to, but itll never be the same ever again. i still think about it all the time, im uncomfortable talking about anything sexually related, and i feel like im not good enough for anyone since that happened.


i was probly 6 at the time, and my brothers friend, Chip was at the house. so me and my sister were playing video games with them. and Chip turned the games off and up his hand down my sisters pants, and started to touch her. when she started crying he told her if she didnt stop hed do it to me. she stopped crying and he did it anyway. when he got done with her he moved over to me, and told my sister to leave the room and not to tell anyone what happened. all i can remember is he pulled his pants down and made me open my legs, and he started to screw me. i passed out and dont know if anything else happened. a few years ago my sister finally told someone about that night, and my brother fessed up and said that it indeed had happened.
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Old December 1st, 2009, 11:05 PM   #2
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i am really sorry to hear that, that happened to you, and if you need anyone, i'll be here for you.
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Old December 1st, 2009, 11:07 PM   #3
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thanks. it nice to know ppl care.
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Old December 1st, 2009, 11:12 PM   #4
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That's...horrible. I understand completely how you feel. It's a hard thing to get over, but one day, you'll forget about it. Anyway, I'm here if you need me. If you do need to talk, I'm just a PM away.

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Old December 2nd, 2009, 01:01 AM   #5
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I have a history of abuse from a family member as well. I was around 6 or 7 the first time. I know what you're going through. If you need to reach out, I'm here.

I'm not sure you'll ever forget about it, but there are ways to help lessen the pain. Counseling has worked really well for me.

Hope you're doing OK.
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Old December 2nd, 2009, 01:08 AM   #6
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I was in counciling for about 6 years. I had so many different ones, everytime they found out that ^ that was an issue, they'd leave and say, "oh, im not specialized in that field". I kinda saw it as thought they just didnt want to deal with it.
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Old December 5th, 2009, 07:21 AM   #7
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I was in counciling for about 6 years. I had so many different ones, everytime they found out that ^ that was an issue, they'd leave and say, "oh, im not specialized in that field". I kinda saw it as thought they just didnt want to deal with it.
I'm really sorry you've had those kind of experiences. I think maybe I just lucked out with the one I have but he has helped me so much. I met him right after my attempt. Even though you haven't had great experiences, I wouldn't give up on the idea. There really are some good ones out there. If you ever need/want to talk, let me know. I want to see you come through this on the other side.
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Old December 5th, 2009, 08:32 AM   #8
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I'm really sorry you've had those kind of experiences. I think maybe I just lucked out with the one I have but he has helped me so much. I met him right after my attempt. Even though you haven't had great experiences, I wouldn't give up on the idea. There really are some good ones out there. If you ever need/want to talk, let me know. I want to see you come through this on the other side.
Thanks Chris! I met (what I thought) to be a good one about a year ago, but everytime we brought the subject up, we'd talk for maybe 2minutes and she'd be like, "I can't talk about this right now." And I just thought.. "uhm, you're supposed to be helping me with my problems, not telling me YOU can't deal to talk about them." Then like the others, she left. So I've kind of given up.


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Old December 5th, 2009, 10:26 AM   #9
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Don't give up Kaci ok? I know we just met and stuff but it would make me very sad if you gave up. Especially with your other situation developing you need this kind of help. Talk with your oncologist or your other doctor. Let them know the frustrations you've had in the past hon, maybe they can get you in touch with someone who will actually give a shit this time. I hope you do.
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Old December 5th, 2009, 10:34 AM   #10
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Okie. I'll try not to Chris, just for you !


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Old December 5th, 2009, 11:15 AM   #11
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Woot! That's all I ask. It's better than the alternative and we both know how much that sucked.
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Old December 5th, 2009, 11:23 AM   #12
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Haha, yeah.
Although sometimes.. I don't think it sucked. To me it's like a love-hate relationship.


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Old December 6th, 2009, 10:50 PM   #13
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Physical abuse has only happened to me once.. I will remember it. But with you.. It must be really hard having those memories. I am just a PM away (Got that from Lawrence) if you want to vent, talk, do anything.

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*group hug*
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Old December 15th, 2009, 06:23 PM   #15
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That is not normal. You should either try to forget about it or just get a counsler.

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You seem to have had horrible experiences, but that was in the past, and you have your whole life ahead of you! Be strong

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