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Old May 16th, 2015, 12:27 AM   #1
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Default Loneliness is killing me.

I feel like shit every day, I have nobody who will always be there for me. In my class I am just an object to them, only usefull if they need me, if they don't I'm useless and then nobody cares.

In school I am only usefull for laughing at, everyone hates me for who I am. I am looding the only friends I have. I think about suicide every single day, I have nobody and I will never have someone who will truly care about me.

I am anxious all the time, I'm never calm, always worried about everything.
I just felt like venting again.

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Old May 16th, 2015, 02:03 AM   #2
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I feel like shit every day, I have nobody who will always be there for me. In my class I am just an object to them, only usefull if they need me, if they don't I'm useless and then nobody cares.

In school I am only usefull for laughing at, everyone hates me for who I am. I am looding the only friends I have. I think about suicide every single day, I have nobody and I will never have someone who will truly care about me.

I am anxious all the time, I'm never calm, always worried about everything.
I just felt like venting again.
Why do they laugh at you ? Why do you help them of they are dicks to you ? Have you tried making new or other friends at school.
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Old May 16th, 2015, 10:12 AM   #3
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Why do they laugh at you ? Why do you help them of they are dicks to you ? Have you tried making new or other friends at school.
I simply can't make new friends, I'm too much of a failure for that. I don't know why they laugh at me, and I help them because otherwise everyhing will get worse.

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Old May 16th, 2015, 12:19 PM   #4
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I simply can't make new friends, I'm too much of a failure for that. I don't know why they laugh at me, and I help them because otherwise everyhing will get worse.
Your not a failure, you're good at whatever it is you help them with. Can you ask them why they are dicks to you ?
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Old May 16th, 2015, 02:40 PM   #5
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@twin I did it so many times before, and the answer will always be: because you're ugly and will never have a girlfriend. It's always the same, and I'm so fucking done with life.

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Old May 16th, 2015, 02:51 PM   #6
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@marb121 are you ugly ? Do you want a girlfriend ? Why do you care what they think
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Old May 16th, 2015, 03:27 PM   #7
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@twin I did it so many times before, and the answer will always be: because you're ugly and will never have a girlfriend. It's always the same, and I'm so fucking done with life.
And do you think that you are ugly?
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Old May 16th, 2015, 07:29 PM   #8
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These people don't dictate your life as it may seem that they do. I know it seems like that sometimes, but the thing I've done whenever this happened is to just distance myself from them and avoid them and also to just realize that whatever these people say about how they dislike you or whatever doesn't actually mean you are a bad person and it will not effect the rest of your life in the long term no matter what they say. Because of that last part, it is totally not worth killing yourself. Try thinking about it like that.

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Old May 16th, 2015, 08:25 PM   #9
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I have nobody and I will never have someone who will truly care about me.
The most important person in your life, should be yourself and you truly care about yourself. Which is all that matters. Try thinking like that.

What happens when you have friends? They spend money on you, you spend money on them. If you have a movie night by yourself, 1 soda and a bag of chips will be enough. When with friends, you get hyped and exaggerate. Suddenly you want 3 bags of chips and 2 soda's (they bring stuff as well) and you end up ordering pizza too. Social activities = more money.

Without friends, think about all the nice things you can buy for yourself.

I'm not saying that you shouldn't have friends, there is pros/cons and when your depressed, you got to look at the positives. That's a coping mechanism to not bring yourself even further down.

Watch this video. It's a long video but the 5-7 minute videos by teen vloggers, really don't do the job. The video is not telling you to become a douche, keep that in mind.
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Old May 17th, 2015, 12:47 AM   #10
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These people don't dictate your life as it may seem that they do. I know it seems like that sometimes, but the thing I've done whenever this happened is to just distance myself from them and avoid them and also to just realize that whatever these people say about how they dislike you or whatever doesn't actually mean you are a bad person and it will not effect the rest of your life in the long term no matter what they say. Because of that last part, it is totally not worth killing yourself. Try thinking about it like that.

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The hardest part about feeling lonely is that you have no one to turn to.
My case is simple: I do have friends, but they don't really put an effort in. I live with a twin sister who has all the same friends as me. My single mom is working her ass off everyday for me and never feels like talking to me when she gets home from working.

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Old May 17th, 2015, 12:56 AM   #11
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These people don't dictate your life as it may seem that they do. I know it seems like that sometimes, but the thing I've done whenever this happened is to just distance myself from them and avoid them and also to just realize that whatever these people say about how they dislike you or whatever doesn't actually mean you are a bad person and it will not effect the rest of your life in the long term no matter what they say. Because of that last part, it is totally not worth killing yourself. Try thinking about it like that.

Good luck
Loneliness isn't exactly thinking about what others think of you, it's more about wanting to be a part of something. Of something as simple as a friend group. When you feel lonely, you feel extremely isolated.
It feels like everyone around you is living while you're in your room and appearing like a piece of furniture that is trying to move at school but just cannot and you just feel like you might as well be dead inside because you're practically not even living.
You try so hard, but you feel like you can't.

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Old May 17th, 2015, 02:02 AM   #12
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The way I see it, Marb, it would be great for you if you could find something to do that is not school related - volunteer somewhere, try out photography, try running every other day etc. My point is - while education is important, it's not the only thing that matters. Your school is not the only place to make friends.

I don't mind it, I don't mind if you're overrated
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Old May 17th, 2015, 01:13 PM   #13
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My problem is people push me around easily, I don't have any freedom to ever be myself, people say who I am, who I'm not. I can't handle this life anymore, in my class everyone except for 1 guy hate me, and I never did anything wrong to them. They just wanna break me down.

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Old May 17th, 2015, 02:12 PM   #14
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So don't let them break you down - there is so much more in this life than high school, you just have to fight your way trough it.

I don't mind it, I don't mind if you're overrated
Or if you're staring at the edge of the world
Keep in mind that I'm a sore eye with blurry vision
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That I've been dreaming of
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So don't let them break you down - there is so much more in this life than high school, you just have to fight your way trough it.
It's not that easy you know, I have mental problems, I am extremely anxious, I'm afraid to loose the few friends I still have.

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Nobody said it was easy, but it is the only right way and it can only go up from here. You should focus on your dreams, think about what you want to do after you are done with high school.

I don't mind it, I don't mind if you're overrated
Or if you're staring at the edge of the world
Keep in mind that I'm a sore eye with blurry vision
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Nobody said it was easy, but it is the only right way and it can only go up from here. You should focus on your dreams, think about what you want to do after you are done with high school.
It's not that easy with people dictating your life, I simply can't.

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It's not that easy with people dictating your life, I simply can't.
Try doing something that will make the treat you better or do something id do give them a reason to hate you, stop helping them till they show you some respect
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Try doing something that will make the treat you better or do something id do give them a reason to hate you, stop helping them till they show you some respect
I try so hard, whatever I do they won't leave me alone and people keep breaking me down.

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I try so hard, whatever I do they won't leave me alone and people keep breaking me down.
Why doesn't your teacher do anything ?
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