Depressed, everything is messed up

So I really don't know how to put this in a way that really conveys what I'm feeling so I guess I should just be blunt. I feel really really s*it or in other words worse than I have ever felt in my entire life. I have cut my shoulder and couldnt feel the pain, lost someone that I looked after for an entire month and a half only for him to push me away the moment his ex asked him back, stopped attending class and feeling empty in everything I do. I've had so many suicidal thoughts and I really don't see what the point of continuing is sometimes.

Before you all jump to the conclusion that 'life gets better' and that this is just a rough patch, stuff like this has happened every day for quite near five years and I'm just sick of it. The gay community in Brighton is full of arrogant c*nts and I'm just bored of living the same old stuff over and over again.

idk what to say, have you considered finding a coping strategy?

Originally Posted by swedeam

idk what to say, have you considered finding a coping strategy?

I've started drinking a lot and doing some drugs..

ok,, have you considered something a bit less destructive?i'm serious, doing hard drugs will kill you

Originally Posted by Chapperz16

I've started drinking a lot and doing some drugs..

I wouldn't be drinking and doing drugs. It will most likely make your pain a lot worse. Maybe an alternative activity may help. Sports or hobbies are good options. Don't worry about that guy you looked after. I understand it is painful but he clearly isn't the kind of guy you want. If he is willing to turn around and get back with his ex he isn't worth having around. Keep attending class, it'll distract your mind and you'll be able to let mind focus in the class. Good luck conquering your pain and let me know if I can help anymore.