Am I wrong mentally!,!

I don’t know if this is revelant to this topic or mental disorders at all
But I have a point when I get close enough to a friend (in friendships) Where I spend some of my time loving every single bit about them and I can’t get off them, whereas for example the next day I want to stab them and hurt them to get pleasure out of doing that. And sometimes those thoughts make me happy and other times I’m horrified for even thinking I liked that. It got to a point where I bullied a kid for a year without even noticing and it was only until I left that school and asked him on social media that I realised I did those awful things to him. I have had countless examples of this after and before this aswell and still now with freinds I have at the moment.

If anyone could tell what this might be/symptoms of or does everyone have these sort of thoughts and doings and I think that I’m just wrong.

Thx

Love hate relationship
Jealousy?
Power control

Realizing you bullied someone and moving forward, not bullying, is a huge thing
I hope you can look at those things for yourself bro, been there and I like who and where I am now, not then

When you feel the urge to hurt someone, is it akin to a need like the urge to eat food? Like does it come and go, and objectively you know society looks down upon people hurting others?


If the answer is yes, then you do have a compulsion to harm others, and that is a issue that needs professional help, because that's not normal.


If however you are bullying someone by accident, and recognize the flaw and try to be a better person going forward and you don't have the repeating urge to be mean to people so you get pleasure out of being mean...then your normal.

You might be a sociopath or somthing similar.
I behave the same way (kinda) and i've been
diagnosed with it, so who knows. You could go
to a psykiatrist and find out.