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Old April 18th, 2013, 01:49 PM   #41
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I wish I could shake this groggy feeling. I feel like someone's beaten me up, all weak from allergies and feeling sick. My sleeping has been crazy - a few hours at a time. Will probably nap this afternoon. Not really saying anything, but blah.
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Old April 28th, 2013, 11:05 AM   #42
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I never thought I would be, but I really like Tumblr. I always thought it was a dumb idea until I actually tried it for a few days. It's hard at first knowing no one, but after you follow a few other blogs it gets really easy. The perfect place to reblog my dorkness. The surveys are fun, and I'm waiting for some weird ass crazy Anon to make me do a "wtf?" I know it's coming eventually.
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Old May 3rd, 2013, 09:15 AM   #43
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Another busy weekend coming up.

Going out with a friend tonight (and maybe tomorrow?). Going to grandparents' on Sunday.

And I need to get this story done. I've been putting it off for a long time. I know what I want to write - I just need to write it.
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Old May 10th, 2013, 09:35 AM   #44
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I am MAG-ISS.

That is all.
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Old May 18th, 2013, 06:48 AM   #45
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I slept for seven hours straight last night.

That is an ungodly amount for me. I'm so groggy...
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Old May 21st, 2013, 07:25 AM   #46
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Conversation between me and my mom last night -

Me - So how do you you feel about picking some more songs for my blog?

Mom - Can I see your blog?

Me - I'd rather not. It's personal.

Mom - Then no. But don't you know I can just look when you aren't here?

Me - That's why my computer is password-ed out.

Mom - Do you forget that I bought that for you?

Me - Not at all. Thank you.

Mom - I don't see the big deal. Are you doing something you shouldn't be? Why can't I read what you write?

Me - I'm not doing anything wrong. Don't you trust me?

Mom - Should I?

Me - You should. Don't worry about it. I'll just pick some songs and slap your name on it.

Mom - No. I'll think about it and write some down.

Me - *wins*
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Old May 24th, 2013, 11:58 PM   #47
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Ways I am a fuck up:

1. I am way too sensitive and I cry sometimes.
2. I break my number one Life Rule - never expect anyTHING from anyONE.
3. I think I am terrible at helping people, because I can't even help myself.
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Old May 27th, 2013, 07:55 AM   #48
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And number three above rears its ugly head.

I feel terrible, worthless, and like I don't matter. I'm sorry. I don't know how. I'm the worst ever, and in doing so I reinforce my point.

It's the only thing I know how to do. Ugh. I am nothing.
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Old May 29th, 2013, 08:48 AM   #49
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I have finals next week. I'm not worried about any of them except Chemistry. I think if I do my norm I will still end up with A/B in everything. I still plan on cramming all weekend though.

I've already made up my mind that I won't be showing up on the last day. It's kinda pointless because I don't have an exam that day. Unless they give exams in study hall. I would actually probably fail that since I am usually messing on my phone the whole time.

I actually feel alright today. So far. The day has a long way to go, though.

Whoever sent me that message last night....if you happen to read this - I really don't know what to say. I don't believe I have done anything actively myself to result in that. If I have, then please tell me. I would never, ever do anything like that on purpose. If you know anything at all about me...ugh, no.
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Old May 29th, 2013, 11:34 AM   #50
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One thing that I do not understand about people, especially here on these forums -

Why do people ask for others' opinions, and then turn around and bash and argue their opinions when they answer? Do you want their viewpoints or not? I mean, if you are just looking to argue with someone...then don't fucking ask.
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Old May 30th, 2013, 09:59 AM   #51
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Seriously dreading studying this weekend, but I know I have to. I don't think I have actually really studied for anything since the end of first semester. At least this will be the last time for the school year. Not too worried about Pre-Calc or English....I'll be spending most of my time with History and Chemistry. Ugh, so boring. Well, I suppose not to a science major
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Old June 1st, 2013, 01:38 PM   #52
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Demograffiti is the shit. Been listening to this on YT. I absolutely love the early version of Our Father.

Ugh, gonna spend a few hours with my history notes. Going out in a bit with a friend just to try and loose some stress.

I'll be so happy on Wednesday when all this exam shit is over. In case I haven't said this 10 times already.
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Old June 4th, 2013, 12:26 PM   #53
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So I stressed and stressed and stressed over this Chemistry exam. It ended up being multiple choice. My nerves are so freaking shot, and I think I got an A on it.

I need a glass of something. Seriously.
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Old June 5th, 2013, 10:18 AM   #54
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I'm done with school for the year!

So my schedule for the immediate future: nothing, nothing, maybe something, sleep sometime, etc...

I guess I will wait for my grades and then consider myself a Senior. I'll get my transcipt in a week or two so I can send it off. The sooner I get that done, the better.
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Old June 10th, 2013, 09:08 AM   #55
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Finished reading the Gone series yesterday. The last book, Light, was definitely the best. The ending of the whole thing was a bit predictable (and I was really hoping that a different person was going to be used for that), but the part after the ending (with the final actual act of redemption for the same person) was satisfying.
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Old June 16th, 2013, 03:12 PM   #56
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I feel so out-of-control some days. Today is one of them. I have no idea how to control my emotions.
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Old June 22nd, 2013, 12:54 PM   #57
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I'm caught in a bad state of mind right now.
I don't think I am important to anyone.
I don't think I am good at anything, and everyone else is better.
I am horribly average.
I am lonely.
I do not shine.
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Old June 25th, 2013, 10:38 AM   #58
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I feel awful...this has got to be worse than a summer cold. I am going to give it another day, but I know it won't help. I should probably tell my mom to just make me a doctor appointment. I've been feeling weak the last few days.
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Old June 28th, 2013, 03:10 PM   #59
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The doctor said that I was "just" suffering from fatigue. I evidently need more sleep - "are you sleeping well?" (no kidding, but that's not gonna happen), drink more water - ok I can deal with that, and to exercise a bit more (I exercise regularly...huh?). Oh yeah, remember to take my multivitamin....which admittedly I forget half the time. Going back in a week to see her again. Yay.

Oh yeah, bloodwork too. Just in case....and I am so not a big fan of needles.

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Old July 3rd, 2013, 10:06 PM   #60
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It's weird seeing my diary at the top of the main forum page. Not that it's a bad thing, of course

Got invited to a guy friend's family cookout tomorrow for the 4th. I am going to head over there for a few hours probably. Sucks that my mom has to work and we can't do anything together. I'll have to remember to use a ton of sunblock...I like being outside in the summer but I burn so easily ( so pale )
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