Virtual Teen Forums
 

Go Back   Virtual Teen Forums > >
Register Blogs FAQ Calendar Mark Forums Read Chat Room

Reply
 
Thread Tools Display Modes
Old July 25th, 2018, 08:43 AM   #1
cheesecake145
New Member
 
Join Date: July 25, 2018
Location: UK
Gender: Female
Default What am I going through?

I’m sorry if this is the wrong place to put this, and it’s just a silly part of puberty - but I’ve just been going through some really confusing emotions recently. I don’t really know how to write this, but for the past 3 months i’ve been having mood swings. Yes, I know, mood swings; part of puberty. But I’ve gone from feeling so so suicidal and like I don’t have a place in life and that everything is horrible, to feeling completely fine. And every time I think about asking for help, I change my mind because suddenly everything is fine and I don’t need help, i’m perfectly fine. And when i’m feeling fine, I get so confused about it - how could I ever feel suicidal, when right now i’m feeling fine? and vice versa - when i’m depressed I can’t ever imagine how i could’ve felt alright literally an hour ago.
This happens several times throughout a day and usually, it isn’t caused by anything. It’s like a switch just goes off.

I’m sorry if this sounds stupid, or if I haven’t articulated myself well or so on, but I feel so hopeless right now and I don’t know if it’s just puberty or if i’m actually going through something other.

Edit: I don’t know what is happening. Really. I’ve had bad days and every single bad day I’ve said the same thing. I don’t see the point in living. There is no future. Right now I feel an impulse to strangle myself. But I won’t, knowing that strangling yourself doesn’t do anything - you knock yourself out before you can die. But it’s fine. Because I know tomorrow i’ll wake up and feel fine. I’ll feel fine, I’ll forget how I could even feel this way again.
And I’ll have my days where I feel like I belong somewhere else. Delusions; thinking that I don’t belong here, that I belong somewhere else - amongst nature. I will feel like I have a higher cause than humanity, and all the bullshit that I know is crazy talk - but don’t care, because it feels ever so real in the moment. But the thing is, I don’t want to feel fine. I don’t want to feel like everything is okay, because it’s not. I want to address how i'm feeling, but I can’t when the problem just seems to phase out.
Sorry. rant over. I needed to write down my feelings before there’s a clean slate and this happens all over again.

Last edited by cheesecake145; July 28th, 2018 at 12:09 PM. Reason: New thoughts.
cheesecake145 is offline   Reply With Quote
Old July 25th, 2018, 09:38 AM   #2
RyanIsGay24
Member++
 
RyanIsGay24's Forum Picture
 
Name: Ryan
Join Date: March 14, 2018
Location: USA
Gender: Male
Default Re: What am I going through?

Well, you didn’t mention anything the sounds like mania but I think you may have bipolar disorder or another mood disorder. Trust me, you aren’t supposed to be feeling this way but you can get help. Tell your parents and have them set up a visit with a psychiatrist. They will help u regardless if you do actually have a mood disorder, which keep in min, you may not. I’m sorry you been feeling like this and hope and pray you get better.

We real cool. We
Left school. We
Lurk late. We
Strike straight. We
Sing sin. We
Thin gin. We
Jazz June. We
Die soon
RyanIsGay24 is offline   Reply With Quote
Old July 25th, 2018, 09:51 AM   #3
Phosphene
Word Shaker
 
Phosphene's Forum Picture
 
Join Date: May 27, 2016
Location: The Crystal Kaleidoscope
Age: 18
Gender: Cisgender Female
Blog Entries: 22
Default Re: What am I going through?

Mood swings are to be expected during puberty, but at the level you're having them, there's a deeper issue. Suicidal thoughts aren't something to brush off. It doesn't matter if they're short-lived; who's to say you wouldn't try to act on them before your mood could pick up again? Definitely talk to your parents or someone else you trust and let them know how you're feeling. Best of luck getting the appropriate help, and keep us updated. <3

"The question is, what color will everything be at that moment when I come for you? What will the sky be saying?" ~Death, from The Book Thief
The Treasure Trove 🦄 Probe My Mind

Quote:
Originally Posted by Desynchronized View Post
Gawd dammit the mods r so cruel.
Quote:
Originally Posted by The Special One View Post
I just food and I still have a hungry.
Quote:
Originally Posted by an anonymous, totally Satanist and Socialist ginger
Satan was kicked out for being different
God must be a republican
Phosphene is offline   Reply With Quote
Reply

Thread Tools
Display Modes

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off

Forum Jump


All times are GMT -5. The time now is 03:25 AM.


Powered by vBulletin®
Copyright©2000 - 2018
Search Engine Optimisation provided by DragonByte SEO (Lite) - vBulletin Mods & Addons Copyright © 2018 DragonByte Technologies Ltd.
Copyright 2004 - 2018, VirtualTeen.org