What's depressing you today?

The pain of everyone.

My mom being depressed

Im depressed because everyone around me is a stable relationship but i cant seem to find someone worth seeing.fffff

I finally went back to weigh in (I've been skipping it for a couple weeks...) and I lost five pounds :/

Ugh.

The fact that everything i try to do goes wrong.

the fact that i just had to see my abuser of two years :'(
the fact that im still in love with my ex and want him back..!
the fact that i've done so much damage the past few days and theres going to be more tonight and i cant stop

Originally Posted by Hypergurl

my parents r getting divorced and i have no friends. life basicaly sucks, like usual

Ditto, I have never had a "best" friend, or even good friends that cared a lot about me, just a long string of acquaintances.

My complete and total apathy towards everything.

People can be terrible.

Found out that my girlfriend was raped by an ex and now I feel horrible any time I kiss or hold her because I do not want to make her feel uncomfortable, she's the type who holds in emotions and she is really hard to read.

On the bright side she lets me hold and kiss her which I think is an amazing thing that she trusts me that much.

i feel stuck here,
im gonna spend my birthday alone,
also, i feel the need for a companion.
:/

I fucking failed... FAILED!

the fact that many people here and in life hate me

I'm behond tired, not speaking to my mum, little brother is being bullied, my exam I Havnt revised for is tomorrow, my friends know about my cutting and EVERYTHING about myself .... Think that's everything.

The fact that everything has seemed to go downhill and i cant stop it.

A guy i like who doesn't like me back.

I wish I went in to Dublin to see Obama. That's really really getting me down. Luckily, it hasnt escalated to depression yet. Usually my depression comes when I realise that I dont actually WANT to do these things. The reason not seeing Obama is not depressing me in because I know I really want to. Confusing, and weird, but yes.

Struggling to cope with things.

The fact my new boots gave me blisters and i had to walk home from school in my socks and i have fucked my feet up. They hurt like hell.

well, today is my 16th birthday, and i just....blah. yes. i said BLAH.
i really hope tomorrow is better. really,

i'm tired. i don't sleep well. go figure
nothin is good enough for my parents
my brother wont talk to me
school sucks. teach too slow, too much time wasted. we could do everything in half the time and be home by noon. wasting my life there. need to separate the stupid people from the rest so we can get out of there or at least have PE from noon on. I'm sure the teachers are bored too. they seem to be.

the worst one is that my brother, who i used to be close to has said maybe ten words to me in the past two weeks cuz we got grounded cuz i went in his room without knocking cuz i thought he wasn't home and wanted to get something HE borrowed. He freaked and pounded me, that got him grounded and i got it for invading his privacy.

i told him, im sorry right after even though he was done beatin' on me. told him i really meant it too cuz i don't wanna make anyone mad. a week goes by i tell him all that again, and tell him its mean to ignores me and hate me when i didn't see anything. (he may have been part naked, but i didn't see anything. his was across the room, back to the door and i really woulda knocked, but he's never home at that time of day.

i told him i'm sad that we're not friends anymore cuz you were my friend AND my brother. now i got nothing and that if ya think about it, i didn't see anything, wasn't trying to do anything other than get a couple of things back that you said you were done with. as soon as i saw you were there i closed the door, so your mad at me for no good reason and YOU were the one hittin ME!! Bigger than me, older by 3 yrs too.

ya know if i was spyin on him, i'd understand. If i was taking something of his without asking, i'd understand. I hope i don't grow up to be mean like you. Just mean to be mean for the sake of it.

There is a tiny part of me that wants to ignore you once you decide you're over it, but that won't work cuz your the favorite and i'm crap. ya know, and it's wrong to treat people that way. Why learn about christ and his teachings if you cant forgive someone for something you think they did that they didn't actually do. ura hippocrit.

now i'm mad that i'm mad. (no kidding) and a little mad that i want someone to change and there's nothing i can do about it other than pray for him to feel better or get past what's been bothering him befor this all started. i thought i heard him crying a few days before. I asked him about it the next day, he said he wasn't. there is a wall between bedrooms, so i know what i heard, but i guess i'm not worth telling the truth to or at least say i don't wanna talk about it, ever, but don't lie to me. i'm 13, im not deaf.